90 Days To Get My Shit Together
Day 2.
Well, I’m not going to lie, my first day went terribly.
I didn’t do anything that I wanted to do. My boyfriend and I got into an argument last night that lasted to about 3 am, I was still determined to wake up at 8 AM and get my first day started, but I was such a mess until 6 am that I just shut my alarm off.
I slept until 2:00 PM too, so I GUESS I had 8 hours… but it’s still bad. I was waking occasionally to let my dogs out. I did treat them today by giving them a beef soup bone that they could go in the backyard and chew on! The weather was finally nice enough for them to be able to spend a while outside.
I did go out into the city I grew up in today and went to their local mall before going to supper with my brother, uncle, and grandpa, so at least that was nice! It was the only time I ate today, but it’s better than not eating. Probably drank my weight in water though, so at least I’m hydrated.
The one thing I did really try to do today was to try and be mindful. I tried this in the shower and was able to clear my head of any negative thoughts and just focused on the running water. My mind is constantly thinking 10,000 thoughts per second so it was nice to be able to
Even though today was a really crap day, and because I’ve been depressed to the point I am constantly trying to keep myself from breaking down crying (even in public), I am hoping I can start over tomorrow and try to be more productive.
The plan for the rest of the night, which I’ll probably try and go to bed at 11, is to go have a bath and read more of my school text (which I swear is super interesting).
On the plus side, my eyebrows look great today, I got my order from Sephora in the mail, thanks, Benefit!
Hopefully, tomorrow is a better day.