#9nov17

[teddytarnieandme]

First etsy order has just come in, I'm hella excited 😁👍

[teddytarnieandme]

Day 09: How many kids does your partner want?

I think T would be happy with just two, but he knows I want a big family so he's willing to go to four. 😅 He keeps trying to convince me to just do two or three but I don't want an odd number, and two just isn't enough. I'll be quite happy with four, plus then I can get a minivan 😂😉 And he's been so amazing with Teddy that I'm sure he won't want to stop at just two either 😊

[teddytarnieandme]

I've been meaning to make a post about this since Teddy's naming and had just forgotten, but then something similar happened on Sunday which made me think of it again.

The girl I posted about a while ago who used to be one of my best friends apparently told my best friend the weekend of Teddy’s naming while she was home that she wanted to mend the rift between us. Next weekend that will have been two months ago, and so far I’ve heard nothing. I’m not going to be the one to reach out, because I’m not the one who burned the bridges in the first place. 

Then on Sunday, my friend told me that another mutual friend of ours had said that another of my ex-besties won’t come literally less than a 1km down the road to visit me, because I have a baby and she can’t have one?? Last time I spoke to her brother, which was in September, she didn’t have a current partner and her lifestyle, in my opinion, is not suited for a baby. The only reason she thinks she can’t have one (to my knowledge) is she never uses protection with ANY partners and hasn’t fallen pregnant, therefore she thinks she can’t have a baby??

I didn’t have a nasty falling out with her, we just drifted apart and went our separate ways. But it still hurts like a bitch that our friendship apparently meant so little that she won’t come and visit. 

I was so close with both of those girls that they used to call my parents mum and dad. They used to pretty much live at my house while we were in school. For several years there was hardly an afternoon where I didn’t spend time after school with the girl who lives just up the road. 

I’m hurt by both of them for different reasons. And while I don’t want anyone in Teddy’s life that is going to be negative, it still would’ve been nice for them to have met him. 

Funnily enough those two share a birthday. *shrugs*

Becoming a mum has showed me who my true friends are, and who is willing to make the effort. Yes, I could reach out to both of those girls, but it doesn’t really seem like they’re all that interested in how my life is now.  They were my best friends at one point in my life, and I guess it just needs to be filed in the past.

[soydani]

Te extraño y mucho.