Day 2/70: burnt out study diaries
I did a mechanics mock and a biology mock today…
They actually didn’t go too badly (yay!).
The biology one was okay because I had quite a lot of time to spend on it (extra time, whooo) which forced me to dig deep into the dark corners of my brain for all of the stuff I thought I didn’t know. Annoyingly though, all of the topics that came up seem to be the ones I hadn’t revised yet.
Maths was actually so good considering I’d been staring at past papers that made me want to cry only days before, thinking I’m going to fail my a levels. Literally, as I was doing it, it felt like I’d got every single question right until it came to the last two, where, admittedly, I had no idea what was going on.
Overall, it was a long school day full of exams, but it was kind of nice to spend so much time focusing.
My maths exam ran on until 3:30 at which point I realised I was supposed to be going to a driving lesson and I was going to be really late, so the anxiety of that did kind of put a bit of a downer on my day. But then, it turns out my driving instructor left because I was so late so I didn’t have a lesson and for some reason that made me feel a lot better.
I did about an hour of revision in the evening which was really more of an hour of sitting at my desk getting distracted by various things, I think I did about one physics question (😭😭😭).
In the future, I think it’s going to be important to make sure I remember to write a to-do list the day before because otherwise I feel like I’m just doing random school stuff with no purpose. I really need to write myself a proper revision schedule because there’s less than two months till exams and it makes me feel like I haven’t got enough time to properly improve on anything. Like, yes, I might not have the time to go through absolutely everything that I’m struggling on and get everything perfect but you can still do so much in two months and sometimes the stress and anxiety of exams makes me forget that.
Anyways, I’m going to try and get a relatively early night and if I manage to get to sleep on time, I’m gonna do the park run tomorrow which will be exciting (it’s been ages since I last went, since I seem to have not been able to get to sleep before 2 am on the weekend for ages)
Good night! Have a lovely day :)))
