For you @a-nik7, from prolly your bestest friend, Goddess Divine EHEK (okay that was a bit much but you love me so)
“I’m annoying, aren’t I?” You kept your head down at the ground, a lump suddenly forming in your throat. The tears forced themselves out of your eyes, staining your pants as it landed.
Sometimes, you knew all along that you needed to stop these negative thoughts from appearing in your head, but sometimes, they win the battle. As they fill up your head with awful names and false assumptions, you convinced yourself that no one really cares about you, that you are annoying and a waste of time. The friends that you have grown to love and care as if you’ve known them all your life, could be gone from it with a snap of a finger. The resolve of your own self-hatred and loathing rooted from your lack of attention which kept you in chains of your own heart.
Sobbing into your hands that started trembling, you curled yourself deeper into a ball. They just keep on coming, don’t they? The horrible thoughts about yourself. You just decided to dwell on it, defeated from exhaustion. As your sleeves started to wet from your flowing tears, you hear a voice just outside your door, along with...some unfamiliar male voices.
After someone shushed the others, footsteps commenced until they stopped right in front of your door. A loud, high-pitched voice calls your name as they knock furiously, “ALLIE!”
You nod your head back and widen your eyes in surprise. You knew that voice. As you step closer to your door, you call back questioningly,” Adelle?” Your eyebrows furrow from the increasing confusion.
“YEP, IT BE ME, SIS” Your friend says with her usual excited, lowkey embarrassing voice.
You open the door to reveal Adelle with a huge smile plastered on her face. Your eyebrows remain close together as you cannot process what this situation was quick enough. You thought you couldn't be more joyfully confused and surprised when you noticed something that made your heart stop, stumbling back from your door.
Standing beside your good friend, some eight tall, good-looking Korean boys wave at you in friendly greetings.
“Hello Allie~” The boys of ATEEZ speak in unison.
You widened your eyes as well as your mouth agape.
"W-wait a f-freaking minute th-this is..y-you are-" You start stammering some nonsense for the thoughts in your head ran like a bullet train.
Not giving you time to fully process it, San asked, "Can we come in?" as he smiles so big that his eyes followed suit.
With your mouth still wide open from shock, you nodded silently at his request, stepping aside to let 9 people into your room, ALL of which you are meeting for the first time in person.
Adelle and San immediately took their seats on your bed, while the rest just stood comfortably in different spots of your room. You closed the door to your room and turned around to see all of them looking at you. Staring at them back, some silence waned until Adelle started to speak, "Okay! Allie, you probably have some burning questions in your head right now."
"Yeah, no kidding, Adelle." You reply almost immediately.
The raven girl chuckles at your response, "Well, to answer one right now, I called these guys to cheer you up, right everyone?" She asks the boys to which they immediately nod in agreement.
"We don't want you sad, Allie." Hongjoong said in a matter-of-factly tone. You cover your face. He is so adorable, you are on the verge of tears just listening to him talk. When Hongjoong notices, he quickly walked over to you and gave you a hug, slightly swaying you in comfort.
"Noo, don't cry again. Why are you crying again?" You laugh in between tears from his question.
Yunho then starts to speak as well, " Allie, can I ask why are you so sad?"
Still in Hongjoong's arms, you swipe a tear away as you reply, " I just wasn't feeling well. I thought I was being dramatic because I thought no one cared about me." You smile sadly at the last few words.
In response, Seonghwa pushed Hongjoong away from you as he replaces him in giving you a hug, one a little than the leader's. You smile in relief as you hug him back just as tightly, when Wooyoung yelled, "Group hug!" dashing over to you and wrap his hands around the both of you.
It didn't take long for the rest to join in, leaving you in the middle of a bone-crushing embrace which cause you to make sounds of pain and make everyone laugh before letting go.
Jongho places an arm around Adelle's shoulder as he told you, "Allie, you need to have more confidence, man," He puts his palm under Adelle's chin as he continues, "Unlike her, she has too much." making you and the others laugh while Adelle sticks her tongue out at the strongest member of ATEEZ.
For the rest of the night, you guys did a lot of things. For some reason, Adelle also brought board games because she thinks she can make them fun to which Wooyoung thinks he begs to differ and so as you and the others play, they competitively try to make you laugh and they successfully did so. You can't help but wheeze at every facial expression they make when they are in a bind, or when they are stuck in Twister.
You also got to know the boys a lot better, Mingi and San being some of the most engaging people you have ever met. They just seem to have no end in topics to talk about, making everyone else feel comfortable in joining the conversation.
"Mingi, you're REALLY bad at games, do you know that?" You tease when you reference him at his VLives with San.
The latter giggles and then mimics him flicking the taller boy's forehead, to which Mingi only reply with a whine, "Allie, shut up~" as he feels his forehead in remembering that embarrassing moment.
Yeosang didn't talk much, but he always made sure to give you some words of encouragement whenever you casually bring yourself down in a conversation, like, "Yah, Allie, don't be like that! You are beautiful, stop saying you are not." And the rest immediately agree with the statement, making you blush uncontrollably.
And for the remainder of that night, the sounds of laughter and joy replace all of the gloomy, dark atmosphere your room had once allowed. You couldn't be happier, and Adelle along with everyone else in your friend group as well as ATEEZ, wish and hope that you will always find solace in their comfort.
