#a-roundabout

[periodicalchemist]

10 things I learned about a-roundabout last Thursday.

Girl sings like an angel, yo.

She has a ridiculously polite way of greeting and saying goodbye to people.

One of the most passionate and genuine people I have ever met. 

Gets along with my friends swimmingly. 

Enjoys cider that is blackberry flavoured. 

Is a bigger lightweight than I am.

Is somehow noticeably shorter than I am.

Is able to dance while sober. 

Says she isn’t wearing anything fancy and then shows up in a black dress. 

Would like to go out for coffee or similar sometime in the near future.

[concretejunglegym]

5, 14, 27!

5:Your favorite adult as a child? (and not your parents, if they were your favorite)

I don’t think I had one. Not even my parents. I never really had role models growing up. 

14:What’s your most favorite part of your body?

Previously I would have said my breasts (we have a love hate realtionship) or my cheekbones but recently I really like my ribs. The way they feel under my skin, under my hand. Their function of protecting me. Their ability to move and importance with corseting. I like my ribs best. 

27:If you had to have a cow or a pig, which would you take? Why?

Hmmmm. Initially I’d say pig…because they’re smaller but they get really big. But I suppose I can feed them all my leftovers like with guinea pigs so yah pig. 

[concretejunglegym]

1. What’s a question you’re afraid to ask? To whom?

The first thing that comes to mind is something along the lines of 'How much money do we have?' or 'What's our financial situation?' I only ever hear the subtraction of funds and it scares me greatly. I don't really understand why I get so freaked out. And to whom I'd ask, obviously my parents for this situation. Each ? Because their finances are different (?) 

29. What’s something that scares you about the future?

Is this the near future or the the long term future? Lately a lot of things freak me out. I've been trying to deal with some panic attacks and mild anxiety this past semester (that literally just appeared out of no where) and now so many things scare me. I'm terrified of these two assignments I have to do for tomorrow and the next day. I'm terrified that I'll wake up to find my guinea pigs dead-again. I'm scared to die, and I know that sounds normal but I keep having panic attacks about it lately. I'm scared I'll get mono and be down for the count and fail this year. I'm scared I can't catch up on this year. I'm scared about tumblr thinking the ukraine/russia conflict is going to be world war three. 

In a more long term fear rant, I'm scared that I can't have kids. And in contradiction I'm scared that if I have kids I'll be trapped to their other parent or worse to the children. 

34. Do you have any “rules” about food?

Kind of. I've always been 'bad' with food and eating. At other times my rules were rather strict like 'one carb a day,' 'no juice', 'x calories.' Typical stupid diet things, but I'd still say I have 'rules' about food because certain foods can't go together, I won't eat certain consistencies, and there are proper ways to eat certain foods. 

[concretejunglegym]

So... I'm not gonna post this week cause its complicated to do so on vacation

I'm sure y'all will miss me! Not Firstly, the iPad I'm using makes the text post layout look like 2010. I've read "preludes and nocturnes: sandman" and a sense of an ending by Julian Barnes already since being here. Also started the second sandman. It's lovely here. But my little sister, who is depressed, has been making it difficult for me. That sounds bad, but I feel like any one who has had to deal with a severely depressed family member or room mate can attest to this. We arrived and she locked herself in the washroom for several hours and then she wouldn't get out if bed this morning. All is well for now, but our 12 year old cousin is no longer rooming with us due to my sisters unstable behaviour. Let me also say, I haven't been the most stable this past month so I was really hoping this would help me. I'm only a day in but I truly believe things will get better- or I have to hope so. I dont normally post such personal things anymore.