41. Who would you want to meet again in your life my grams. it’s been a couple of years since she passed away, and i miss her terribly. she was one of the few (and the best, too) comforts i got when i was a child, and i always saw the sun in her smile. she always knew how to make me stop crying, when even my mom couldn’t make me stop. i just want to meet her again, just once.. just to properly thank her and say goodbye.
42. Why did you choose your career path it’s somehow still surprising to me how i ended up pursuing performing arts, since i was afraid of people as a kid. i was afraid of attention, and i didn’t know how to deal with it.. but when i set foot on stage, all those worries seemed to disappear. when i struggled with my therapy, it was something that distracted me, something that got my mind out of things, something that calmed me down.. but don’t get me wrong. conveying the emotion of a song, bringing characters to life, portraying them as how people see them while adding my own twist is something i truly enjoy. it’s both a fun and challenging experience every time.
43. What is something you regret from your past i have a lot of things i regret, things i did and didn’t do.. ( `the question causes her to press her lips together, her gaze vacant as she ponders about what to say. ) but i guess.. one of the biggest is when i didn’t tell a childhood friend that we were escaping to another country. i just disappeared on him, even when all he ever did was to be there for me when i needed someone.. even if we never really met in person. i don’t know where he is now, and he probably doesn’t know where i am, either.. but i still think about him now, and I still wonder if our situation would be any different if i told him back then.
44. How much time is left at the end of your day my days usually end at night because of work, especially during weekdays. i have a lighter schedule on weekends, but i still get home pretty late, only because work starts in the afternoon then. so probably.. around four to five hours? i’d spend that doing homework and reviewing lessons (i still need to keep my grades up there), but sometimes i just chill out, too.
45. What was your last dream about that.. horrid excuse for a man. ( `she sighs and drops her gaze. ) i don’t dream of him as much as i did back then. and although this time i only felt him, it’s still as horrible as before. it’s like i can still feel his disgusting touch lingering on my skin.. and i just want to forget.
46. Have you ever hated someone and why hate is such a strong word.. and there’s only one person who is deserving of that. ( `she mumbles her next words, her face scrunching up as thoughts of her so-called ‘father’ fill her mind. ) ..that man. i don’t only hate him, i loathe him. i despise him. and i know shouldn’t anymore.. but i still do. i still do.
47. Talk about your favorite family member my favorite… well, i guess i’m going to have to talk about both my mom and brother, because they’re both my favorite. for starters, my mom’s really soft and she cries easily.. ( `a fond smile then decorates her features. ) but we think that’s only because she’s got the biggest heart. she loves dramas, and i don’t think i haven’t seen her watch one without crying.. she’s the type to brag about her kids to other people, too, which, of course, made my brother extremely embarrassed. ( `she chuckles, shaking her head. ) he.. he always acts so cool when he’s outside, but at home, he’s really a big baby. and even though he usually rejected the affection i gave him, i think he’s even sweeter than i am — or maybe that’s just him sucking up to mom. we always did compete for her attention (playfully, of course). he’s never hesitant to tell me when i’m in the wrong, because he.. he knows me more than anyone. we hold secrets that no one knows, not even our mom. i think.. if it wasn’t for what happened in the past, we never would’ve gotten this close. i love them so much.. and they’re my favorite people in this world. i’m doing the things i’m doing because of them, and for them.
48. What is one thing you want to confess i won’t elaborate on this too much, and i won’t say who it is for, either, but.. i keep saying that it’s okay, and most of the times it really is.. but there are times when i want need you badly, and i’m finding it so hard without you around.
49. Have you ever tried to take away your problems instead of deal with them yeah, a million times. i used to be someone who only knew how to run away from my problems (i probably still am.. at times) instead of facing them. it became a habit, because i thought if i pushed them far, far away.. if i pretended they didn’t exist.. they would somehow disappear. but thanks to a certain someone, i’m finally able to deal with some of them properly.
50. Who would you save- yourself or a stranger? i would try to save us both, of course, if i can. but it depends on the situation. i mean, i really can’t save someone else if i’m already in deep trouble myself.
