-- corpseAnnotator [CA] began pestering toastyGrammarian [TG] at 17:27 --
[05:27] CA: hey rox im sorry i bailed on you so fuckin suddenly the other day
[05:32] TG: u mean
[05:32] TG: in the
[05:32] TG: hopstital?
[05:32] TG: er
[05:32] TG: infirmary
[05:32] CA: uh yeah like wwe wwere eatin an i just kinda got up an left an shit
[05:38] CA: i need to talk to ara but i havvent seen her around anywwhere but im afraid based on some a the things ivve been hearin happened in other peoples dreams
[05:39] CA: fuck i shouldnt be dumpin this on you not after wwhat happened last time
[05:40] CA: not after wwhat vvris just told me last night either
[05:41] TG: wha
[05:41] TG: im confused
[05:41] TG: slow down darlon
[05:41] TG: *i
[05:42] CA: i
[05:42] CA: didnt wwanna talk about wwhat happened cause i
[05:43] CA: accidentally killed someone again
[05:43] CA: wwhile i wwas there
[05:43] CA: i dont knoww if theyll forgivve me for it but they probably shouldnt
[05:43] CA: evveryone else keeps assurin me that its okay but its not fuckin okay
[05:45] CA: an then wwe get back here an im talkin to vvris an i havve to explain to her that i didnt say some shit to her wwhile she wwas dreamin or at least i dont remember sayin it to her but bottom line is it made her feel shitty an unimportant but i cant shake the feelin that deep dowwn that really is somethin i wwoulda done
[05:46] TG: oh
[05:47] TG: i
[05:48] CA: ara probably got told some shit too but i dont knoww yet
[05:48] CA: wwere you fed lies in your land too
[05:49] TG: dunno
[05:49] TG: i never tried talkin to anybody else
[05:49] TG: guess it just didnt occur 2 me for some rason
[05:50] CA: i didnt wwant to evveryone else wwas checkin their messages at the same damn time an it all sounded awwful so i only checked callie an ara an all i saww wwere cries for help
[05:50] CA: i just kinda assumed the ones i got from you vvris an fef wwoulda been the same an i
[05:50] CA: didnt wwanna see that
[05:54] CA: about the only good i saww from any a this is i guess dirk is more okay wwith me noww but i cant exactly tell
[05:55] TG: that is good
[05:55] CA: but as the rest of things are i cant help feelin like i should havve been left in that place
[06:03] TG: jfklsa;fldk
[06:04] CA: ...
[06:04] CA: i cant read that
[06:05] TG: i know thats cuz i was just mashin buttons on my keyboard
[06:05] CA: oh
[06:05] CA: wwhy
[06:07] TG: because
[06:07] TG: i dont know how to make you feel better :(
[06:09] CA: i havve reached the point a no return an all that awwaits me noww is the wwafty clutches a the vvasty pit a eternal solitude
[06:12] TG: no u havent
[06:12] TG: im just feelin shitty at the cheering up right now
[06:15] CA: no you dont understand i dont think anythin could make me feel better im on the vverge of losin evverythin again an im nevver gunna havve my shit together evver because im the wworst
[06:15] CA: i hate that im evven havvin doubts but i dont knoww wwhat to do about em
[06:21] TG: i think
[06:21] TG: u should talk to aradia
[06:22] CA: fuck
[06:22] CA: i dont knoww i knoww i need to but
[06:22] CA: nevvermind youre right
[06:25] CA: im gunna go i wwont bother you anymore i shouldnt be goin to you in the first place
[06:26] CA: im makin things wway too goddamned complicated an im just twwistin the net evven tighter around my throat
[06:27] TG: its ok eridan
[06:27] TG: i just dont think i can help you right now
[06:27] CA: right you probably got a lot on your mind too after evverythin
[06:27] CA: um
[06:28] CA: if you evver wwanna talk about it im all ears
[06:28] CA: but i understand if you dont wwant to straight awway
[06:29] TG: yeah
[06:29] TG: thank u
[06:30] CA: ill talk to you later wwhen my emotions are more under control an evverythin isnt crumblin beneath my feet
[06:30] CA: or i dunno
[06:30] CA: wwhenevver
[06:31] TG: ok,,
[06:32] CA: bye rox
[06:33] TG: bye