#abdts

[ayoryan]

Because..

You're worth caring for. I told you I would. Don't worry about me, all I am worried about is you. You don't deserve to have all this drama in your life. Fuck what ya heard and don't even trip about you know who. All he does is start drama and he doesn't have anything to do with you.

Goodnight. You know how to get a hold of me.

[ayoryan]

Confession.

This post is directed towards you. You know who you are.

I know this isn't the best way to say it, but it's the only way I'm comfortable with right now. Knowing what has happened between yesterday/today has distanced us. I found everything out in a way that I shouldn't have. Starting with "accidentally" reading the notes on your Itouch. That one title that stood out gave me so much curiosity. Of course me being so curious, I clicked it and read stuff that I shouldn't have, but after I read part of it, I began to realize what was going on. Everything started clicking together, starting with the "kiss" he gave you earlier in the day which made me act the way I was for the whole night, to me seeing the "note" and finally the "bracelets" he wore.

When I arrived home, out of anger I wrote what you saw later that night. Before I went to sleep last night, I thought about you. When I woke up in the morning I saw what you had posted. As I was looking at it, I had seen who had "liked" it. It was him. I saw everything that was directed towards you. Especially the post confirming what is going on between you and him. After seeing all that, I felt sad/bummed/upset. I feel like I've been lead on by someone that I had never expected.

After being out with friends today, I come home to see your recent post. Saying how.. " I feel as if I lost one of my closest friends though." Thinking it's about me; it gave me a new feeling towards everything.

How I feel: After finding out about you and him, I felt sad/bummed/upset. I never knew all this was going to happen. All the things you told me when I was at your house is complete 'ishh to me now. You went back on your word. To be honest, knowing that you two are together now, I just want to space myself away. All I thought about today was how everything is now, our close friendship. 

Remember this: I know I may be ignoring you because of has happened, but that doesn't mean it is going to be like that forever. I'm happy for both of you. And I don't want to put anything negative towards that. I told you before, "..I'll always be here for you.." This close friend you think you have lost, was never lost to begin with. He's always here for you.

[ayoryan]

"...I want to sing Paper Roses..."

[ayoryan]

Truth is,

I'm not even tripping. I find out something that I didn't need to, but it seemed so obvious. One action that happened today clearly showed what was going on. That's the reason why I acted so "quiet" today. Then little clues I started seeing throughout the night finally clarified it to on what's going on between you two. Disappointed I am because of the words/feelings you had recently told me. Oh well, since it's clear to me now, I don't need to keep trying anymore. I'm sure he'll treat you good.