#about ktk

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I had to say goodbye to my best friend today. It was the hardest goodbye I have ever said. It was the knowing I would never get to hold her again, wake to her at my bedside, or love on her.

Abby Van Buren came into my life almost 12 years ago on my spring break and stayed in my heart. She chewed up blankets and clothes to leave an everlasting mark. She could clear a room after every meal, she didn't mean to, just look at that face your honor. She played mediator in Princess Santi and Teckla’s fights, always trying to give kisses to distract them. She was their favorite.

Abby's favorite human was my dad because he fed her unless he was at work then I had the privilege of the best cuddles. I don't know what I'm going to do now without my best friend. I know she's in a better place where she knows no pain, no cancer, and where the answer is always yes.

Abby is now with her sister Teckla and Princess, and her best friend Tuffy. She’s also with my Mum, someone she so deeply missed after she passed away. I hope Abby knows I will be missing her till the end of time because I haven't been able to stop crying since we said goodbye.

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Funny story...

So I'm high functioning autistic. I did decent in school, but when it comes to remembering things, people telling me things, like minor details, i.e., they love to play Kingdom Hearts on PlayStation 3, that's locked into my brain. I'm going to remember that about you for years. Like I'll probably buy you things to do with the things you like. Anyways. Because of this, you could tell me, hey Katy, I'm going to put this box in my closet, but I have to know what it looks like and be paying attention. ADHD plays a part in this.

This is where things get sort of funny... I lost my Papa when I was 10 years old, and I know what his urn looked like. I vividly remember we did not put any of my Papa in his grave. I told my family this when my Nana passed away last year, and everyone was like you don't know what you are talking about; he's in the ground. My dad and brother were on my side about this. I couldn't contact my mom. She's sort of passed on... Anyways we buried my nana's urn, I missed the funeral due to traffic, and I had a breakdown at my Papa's grave. It was so embarrassing. This really nice biker guy even came up to me and gave me his handkerchief and told me I was too pretty to be crying. Anyways... sorry rambling

If you are still even here. I get a call last week. It was my Aunt. The rest of my Nana's stuff had arrived, and my Aunt had been going through it. She's freaking out, near tears, in hysterics, "I found Papa!" I'm like calm down, "what do you mean you found papa?" She found him in his urn, in a bag with a bread tab keeping his closed. A BREAD TAB is keeping him CLOSED! 😂 I'm laughing because my Papa collected bread tabs to teach me how to do maths, and it's just so him! Needless to say, I had a breakdown at an empty grave last spring. My poor papa got beat to his grave by his wife, who probably has now decorated it so out of style for him, and my Mom is probably getting a huge kick out of this.

My Psychiatrist asked me how I'm handling this. Honestly, I'm laughing while just wanting to go TOLD YOU SO! But my mom's family has a bad habit of never listening to me, so there isn't much I can do about it. If you read this far, send me the word Peanut Butter, and I'll make you a moodboard of your choice.

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“I’m falling more in love with every single word I’ll withhold. I’m falling more in love with every single word you say. I’m falling head over heels for you. I’ve been dancing on the tops of buildings, with you.” – This Providence “My Beautiful Rescue”

On St. Patrick’s Day 44 years ago, Rita and Milton K. would marry each other before Milton’s parents in the Lutheran Church. They’d go on to have 2 kids together, and foster many more giving many children a safe home. They loved each other deeply, believing always going to bed with a kiss no matter how they felt, happy or sad. They passed on their values of love to their children. Their love for Marvel, the night, helping others, and making others smile. They were married 37 years before Rita passed away in her sleep. Milton is still madly deeply in love with his wife. I would know as I’m one of those 2 children.

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Thank you Dad for going around looking for this for me. Today was a really hard day for me and I’ve come to find out my Dad wanted to make today easier on me and make me smile today. He did make me smile that is. I’m lucky to have my Dad.

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Hey! Can I ask numbers 3,6 & 7 for the soft asks please! x

Yes, you can!

3. Do you feel more connected to the moon or the sun?

Moon, I had insomnia as a child really bad, and I still do, but I always felt this pull to anything that I had a moon on it or to look for the moon when it was nighttime.

6. When's the last time you felt like you were floating?

Okay, TW for feels, but sometimes when I'm in pain, I hold my breath, so earlier this week, I was in pain all over, and I didn't realize I was holding my breath till I started to feel floaty. Don't worry. I took Tylenol and got into bed.

7. What do you enjoy daydreaming about most?

Probably my stories. Stories I want to write, how they could go, and their characters.

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Hey there! Can I ask 4, 17 and 23 for the music ask game you reblogged?

4. What is a song reminds you of good times?

There are actually a few that came to my mind right away. I Have A Feeling by Black Eyed Peas, Man I Feel Like A Woman by Shania Twain and Wannabe by Spice Girls

17. What is the “worst” song you still love because of nostalgia?

Macarena by Los Del Río

23. What song never gets old?

Truly Madly Deeply by Savage Garden

Thanks for asking me K! I hope you have a wonderful week.

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Nostalgic music asks: 2, 7, 25?

2. What is the first album you listened to all the way through?

As a child, my parents were huge on music, so it probably was something by either Phil Collins, Meat Loaf, Bruce Springsteen, or Donna Summers. But I can vividly remember having the Titanic soundtrack and Savage Garden self-titled on cassette tape. I listen to both back-to-back on my walkman.

7. What album do you think still holds up to this day, even if you weren’t nostalgic about it?

I would have to say Shania Twain's 1997 album Come On Over.

25. What artist/ album influenced your personality the most?

My Chemical Romances, Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge. Especially the single I'm Not Okay (I Promise).

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For your Fanfic Asks the numbers 1,2 & 6 plz

Hey Ash, thanks for asking me!

If you’re an author, how many WIPs do you currently have? (Be honest!)... I should say 5, but really it's 3. I'm just not that into Sebastian Stan anymore, and I'd rather focus on the stuff I'm into now. That being said if someone asked me to write more of the Bucky stuff, I would do it in a heartbeat.

What’s next on your ‘to-read’ list? (Fan fiction or otherwise)... Fanfiction wise: Bend The Rules by @peakyscillian (I'm holding out till the next recommendation list) and Book: Wendy Darling by A.C. Wise

6. What’s the last thing you read that made you laugh?... So for Christmas, I got to hang out with this really cool kid, and she got this Cat Kid Comic Club set, and she asked me to read to her. That actually made me laugh. It took me back to my Captain Underpants days. Lately, it seems like I like to torture myself with fanfiction and cry, or just pure angst, sometimes I go aw.