#about malcolm

[brighterrors]

𝐇𝐂 𝟎𝟎𝟏 : 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐧

So much of Malcolm’s inner turmoil is that no matter how much he knows his father is a terrible person and a serial killer he will always know that Martin WAS a great dad to him up until the point he started doing things out of self preservation to not get caught. (So aside from the murder and drugging and gas lighting lol) He was an amazing father. Very involved. Very supportive. Encouraging Malcolm to follow his passions and always made time for him even with a very busy position at a major hospital. There is no denying that Martin was a good father for the majority of Malcolm’s childhood and especially as a kid that was IMPOSSIBLE to separate from how he felt about Martin then getting arrested for serial murder. This was why he shut down the way he did because his mind could not process that this man that the kids at school were calling a monster and harassing him for being related to him was the loving man who had been raising him so well. This was why Jessica sent him back to visit Martin, hoping he’d be able to come to see him as just a monster. Yet he has these two views of his father that are different and yet somehow still all the same man and it is so incredibly difficult to make sense of. 

Even now. Malcolm cannot actually get himself to fully hate his father as his father. He can hate what he’s done and that he killed people and hate what he did to their family and hate so many parts of the man but he’s not able to separate that this is still his father. He doesn’t call him ‘Dad’ he doesn’t even call him his father to his face or to most people. He’s distanced himself as much as he can. Calling him The Surgeon or Dr. Whitly. He changed his own last name to add further distance from the fact that he is the Surgeon’s son but that doesn’t get rid of the love he still has for his father in some capacity. These feelings aren’t something he’s able to admit to aloud because he’s scared of how people might react. They make Malcolm sick to his stomach and he can’t imagine any average person would ever be able to understand what that’s like or fear they’d look at him like he’s excusing anything his father ever did. Which he’s not. He would literally never excuse The Surgeon’s actions but people who don’t have a damn serial killer for a father can’t possibly understand what that’s like. 

Even though he was able to cut Martin out of his life for ten years when he joined the bureau he still ultimately came back to the man and he knows how unhealthy that type of co-dependency is because Martin needs him there just as much if not more and Malcolm knows he’s just giving in to what his father wants by going back to him. But he goes back for answers despite being afraid of looking too deeply into himself. Afraid of what he might find and yet he can’t help but dig because he. needs. to. know. He goes back also because subconsciously he is still that kid who wants a relationship with his father. Which is exactly what Martin desires the most because then the possibilities are endless.

[themalcolmwise]

[ jesse williams, cis male, he/him ] - was that MALCOLM WISE i saw by the lighthouse today? i heard that the THIRTY NINE year old who has been in nightrest for THREE AND A HALF YEARS and works as a SURGEON has a reputation of being INCLUSIVE, but also SENSITIVE. they reside in ASHMORE & people in town usually associate them with TIRED EYES, BLACK COFFEE AND A CONSTANT AIRPOD IN ONE EAR. let’s hope the killer doesn’t go after them next.

 bullet intro below !

Malcolm had an unconventional start to life considering he ended up going to medical school. His Mom and Dad were both addicts, and while they made sure he was alive in his infant years, from about age 10 he really just raised himself.

He was determined to be more than his parents were, not because they were addicts, he understood that addiction was a disease, not something to be ashamed of, but better in the sense that they did nothing to help themselves. Nothing to help him. 

So, he took every free class he could while he was in school, and took every extra curricular possible. But, even with all that, he didn’t get into school for three years after graduating.

In those three years, he had to somehow feed himself, and in his first year of adulthood, he lost both parents to overdoses pretty much back to back, so he then had to figure a way to have a roof over his head.

He worked around the late night diners in New York because they were quiet enough he could study between customers. He was going to school - every year he’d apply until they accepted him. Everything has its time - that was what he used to tell himself.

But, late night diners don’t cover bills in NYC, and it was in one he met Nicola for the first time. They grew quite close, quite quickly, and Malc ended up using her connections to make some less-than-legal money. Of course, he stayed an arms-length away from everything though, sure not to let it mess with his aspirations.

Eventually, everything paid off, and he got a full ride into Columbia. But, he still needed to live so he maintained his connections with Nicola, and overtime they became incredibly close, so much so that when she took her revenge and needed somewhere to lay low and obviously heal up from her almost life threatening injuries, he took her in and took care of her.

Malc, obviously, was determined to graduate top of his med class, and that was exactly what happened. But, there were no placements available in NYC, so he was forced to move up to Boston.

He lived in the city for a while but it was expensive, and junior doctors are not paid well despite the hours they do, so he moved a little way out, to Nightrest.

After a couple years, he was asked to go to Salem Hospital to do a residency program and it was there he met Paisley. They quickly hit it off, and sooner rather than later ended up hooking up and then just kind of stayed together.

They both climbed the hospital ranks quickly, him in the surgery team, her in ER. He thought everything was going fine, until one day she broke up with him, and he’s still not entirely sure why. 

Then she was pregnant, and throughout the 9 months he questioned whether it was his, until she was born and immediately he knew it was. But, she wasn’t enough to save their relationship.

He’s tried over the last 3 years to piece together why she left, but every time he brings it up, she avoids the questions and moves the conversation on, or just leaves. He’ll be amicable with her though - for their child.

[malcolmmaleficent]

Type Five in Brief

Fives are alert, insightful, and curious. They are able to concentrate and focus on developing complex ideas and skills. Independent, innovative, and inventive, they can also become preoccupied with their thoughts and imaginary constructs. They become detached, yet high-strung and intense. They typically have problems with eccentricity, nihilism, and isolation. At their Best: visionary pioneers, often ahead of their time, and able to see the world in an entirely new way.

Basic Fear: Being useless, helpless, or incapable

Basic Desire: To be capable and competent

Enneagram Five with a Four-Wing: "The Iconoclast"

Enneagram Five with a Six-Wing: “The Problem Solver”

Key Motivations: Want to possess knowledge, to understand the environment, to have everything figured out as a way of defending the self from threats from the environment.

[malcolmmaleficent]

[malcolmmaleficent]

“You are not entitled to your opinion. You are entitled to your informed opinion. No one is entitled to be ignorant.”

-- Harlan Ellison

[sk3ll3tor]

One, don't pick up the phone You know he's only calling 'cause he's drunk and alone Two, don't let him in You have to kick him out again Three, don't be his friend You know you're gonna wake up in his bed in the morning And if you're under him You ain't getting over him

I've got new rules, I count 'em

[sk3ll3tor]

After you, I don't know what I believe in After you, hell should be easy