#about the dump

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Sometimes I feel impostery about my ADHD and then I have days like today where I totally screw myself over by being unable to perform a simple task after many hours, and i can't even explain why not

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I guess this is the RSD, but I'm really low rn. Someone I thought was a friend has been avoiding me and dodging my suggestions to meet up, and then I saw she blocked me on social media. Honestly feels like I'm back in school drama again and it's stupid but upsetting and triggering.

It really frustrates me because I found out that it's likely because she thinks I was checking up on her (while she travelled alone this summer on the other side of the world) on behalf of her mother who she has issues with. Which is not true. I stayed in touch and asked how she was a few times out of very genuine concern, not to play any stupid spying games I have nothing to do with. I'm so over false accusations and other people's middle school level drama and yet the rejection and incorrectness still stings and goes round and round in my mind. Sorry for the vent.

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As always, I share stuff about ADHD that I want to, usually that I find amusing or relatable, this doesn't make it part of the diagnostic criteria for ADHD, mean it's exclusive to ADHD, or that it should be taken overly seriously.

Even an infographic with informative stuff, is still not an official source of medical info, you shouldn't take it as such. I get 2 types of responses to my posts very often

- I relate to this so I think I may have adhd.

- This is wrong/simplified/exaggerated/doesn't apply to me

For the first one, I'm not gatekeeping adhd or memes from you (please enjoy them at your leisure) - but, if you're concerned you need to seek out a professional opinion. Yes, I'm aware not everyone is in a position to, but at the very least you need to be looking at proper medical sources to understand the condition, and not a meme which could apply to neurotypicals and/or people with a multitude of other conditions too.

For the second one, I think I've covered that. This blog has the word dump in its name largely because I started it to dump all the adhd stuff I keep coming across and saving and to put it somewhere. I did not think it would reach 1k and tens of thousands more notes on some posts. It's lovely that it has, it still doesn't make it an official source of anything.

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I'm having an insanely hard time writing a 1500 word complex essay for university. I can't discuss the essay topic because that's considered plagiarism. My meds are reduced and my personal life is messed up and I'm so incredibly unfocused it just sucks.

I've been scoring between 80-95% all year but if I don't get 40% minimum on this last one then it's for nothing, and honestly idk if I can now.

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I'm gonna take a little break from posting here, I'll be available on my main @theblurrxdface

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Some of you may remember how back in May I was struggling big time with my end of year uni assignment. Some of you were really encouraging and supportive so I want to say a big thanks and tell you all I got a distinction!

I've had them now for both years I've been at uni and it's really surreal, I was always pretty crap in school. It makes such a huge difference to do something I'm actually interested in, and for me, online and flexible learning has worked well. Being self motivated with ADHD is a nightmare, true, but sitting in a classroom is worse. Having the freedom to study at 3am if I feel like it or to study 1h a day or 10h a day, so long as the work gets done, is what works for my head. If you're interested in education but something like ADHD is making you doubt yourself, don't give up on the world of higher education, there are plenty of non traditional (including non university) options to keep learning and you may flourish when you find what suits you more than school ever did.

Also, 10 days on, I'm covid negative and breathing is 90% back to normal :)

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Life is shit