15 questions, 15 mutuals. Everyone because I’m a stalker.
ABOUT VIX: With BONUS SALTY RANTS
⭑ Are you named after anyone?
My middle name came from my great aunt. And because I had her name, I ended up inheriting all of the family jewelry associated with her. I used to wear the ring she got as a graduation gift every day...but the shank broke and I need to get it repaired. XD
I think that because her jewelry is all art deco or art nouveau in character (she was a model in the 1920′s) it kind of set my personal attachment to the aesthetic of the time period.
⭑ When was the last time you cried?
Like 3 weeks ago. Writing something for Shutara/the Royal Guard in general. She’s really the one muse of mine that when I learn something she’s hidden for a long, long time...I get punched in the gut by emotions. I still haven’t finished that post...I need to be in the right frame of mind.
NOPE. NOPE NOPE NOPE. I’m severely tokophobic, and given that I’ve lost large swaths of my life to terribly debilitating mental illness...I certainly don’t want any by blood because nobody needs to have the experiences I’ve had through genetic legacy. Also, even though I have a uterus, ahem, I DO NOT IDENTIFY AS A WOMAN/FEMALE in any concrete sense. So...while I very well know that plenty of people with a uterus aren’t women...society doesn’t like to acknowledge this, and I don’t want to have rampant gender dysphoria and constant misgendering along with the tokophobic nightmare I’d be suffering through alongside it. Oh and those assholes that think that they have the right to touch any pregnant person. Eww.
I’d consider adoption...but it requires a lot of money, and often has a lot of requirements that I probably wouldn’t pass. (You know, since having a mental illness makes you a *bad parent* or something. “Protect the children” UwU) But like...according to many sources, it takes like 100,000ish to raise a kid from birth to 18. Soooo rather than fuck up some poor child with my own “stellar” personality and add another damaged adult to the world....I figure...why don’t I just donate 100,000 + to organizations that help children?
So, I make sure to donate what I can to organizations that help LGBTQ kids, to scholarship programs that help disadvantaged kids into STEM careers, and secular organizations that fight child poverty. I think it’s important to help the children who are already here...and people much more knowledgeable than I can distribute the recourses that I have to help those who don’t have them.
And I try to offer places to live and work for some of my much younger friends when i can--since the world is obsessed with making things better for children, but does nothing for people who age out of programs, or enter early adulthood without much in the way of family resources. So over the years I’ve helped out some friends in the 18-28 age bracket so that they have a stable place to figure out how to be an adult, away from family who either disapproves of them, is openly toxic/homophobic/transphobic, or nonexistent. (My life partner jokingly calls our house Vix’s youth hostel...but ilke, lol...he’s uhhh not wrong. I’ve never wanted a house full of blood family. I’m 100% for a house full of found family. The concept of the nuclear family can fucking get bent.)
Anyway. I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ON THIS TOPIC OK????
⭑ Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Not really. I tend to find that people who use lots of sarcasm are really only interested in their own feelings. The thing that stuck with me is reading an article that described sarcasm is “hostility masquerading as humor”. And yeah...that resonated with something that I couldn’t quite place. So I made a decision.
If I want to be hostile to you...I’m just gonna be openly hostile. Full stop. You don’t HAVE to wonder how I feel. But because the majority of situations in my life do not make me feel hostile...I’d rather just be genuine and use humor that doesn’t tear down others to make myself feel smart.
For whatever reason...a lot of people find my neutral personality to be aggressive and assume I’m being hostile or contrary, or pushy or attention grabbing. I’m not. I’m just incredibly blunt, have low empathy, and poor social skills for a variety of reasons. I try really hard to not come off poorly...but it doesn’t always happen. And If I’m “offering” something to you (fanwork, translation, information)...I’m NOT trying to outshine you or someone else or trying to grab attention, I literally just am saying “hey...I have thing...do you like thing? Oh...lets vibe on thing together...and if you like thing...I’ll try and bring you more.”
I experience this in Discord servers all the fucking time where people get WEIRDLY INSECURE when I’m only trying to befriend them in the best way I know how. If anyone knows how to keep this from happening...I’m dying to know.
⭑ What’s the first thing you notice about people?
Their vibe if online--pfp, sense of humor or lack thereof, how open they are to meeting others. If in person, probably their eyes. :)
⭑ Scary movie or happy ending?
Scary movie. I rarely find happy endings satisfying. But I love having my blood pumping from something well done...or laughing my ass off at something made badly.
I’ve played as a semiprofessional violist and violinist for most of my life. I used to actually work as a substitute in many of the major symphonies in the areas where I went to high school and college. I miss playing as often as I did...but sadly, I no longer have the time to do so much work. I used to teach how to play as well, but it’s difficult to be enthusiastic when you have students who only come because their parents what them to have better grades.
Cleveland, Ohio, USA I have zero attachments whatsoever.
RP, translation, writing fiction, playing video games, training for physical feats (races, hikes, etc), sketching, curating music into playlists, collecting bleach merch.
I have 2 cats! One is named Malcolm (the void), and the other is named Khloe (the princess).
⭑ What tattoos / piercings / body mods do you have?
I have 3 piercings on each ear, both of my nipples pierced, my left nostril, and I used to have my tongue pierced, but it’s retired. Lol, I’d even link you to a picture of all of my jewelry on my personal, but sadly Tumblr has taken off all of the “female presenting nipples”. You know...since being nude isn’t a natural thing to be comfortable with. I eventually want to get more in some other places you can’t see...but I have some other things I want first. And if I worked in an environment that allowed it, I’d get my brow done and snakebites....but alas...you know how it is in the medical field. Clearly if you’re covered in tats and piercings...it doesn’t matter that you went to medical/nursing/tech school. :-T This is changing though. Most of my coworkers look like me in being ‘edgelord lite”
I have a tattoo of a poem I wrote in Japanese with my BFF about our devotion to Inari on my inner right fiorearm.
5′10′’...but probably wearing shoes with height...because I’d like to be the 6′0′’ I was promised k thx. It’s a good shapeshifter height though. I can more easily pass as male or female as I need in various spaces, since it’s kinda in that range that doesn’t really stick out either way.
⭑ Last movie you watched / song you listened to?
Terminator 2.
The Noise Inside My Head by Assemblage 23 (I get major Kisuke/Mayuri vibes off of this song.)
⭑ Favorite subject at school?
Anatomy and Physiology, the last time I was in university. As a child? Any age appropriate science class