Confession/desperation message
Last night, I sobbed in desperation for my precious kitty cat - my heart and soul. I was wrapped up- not looking at the whole picture - and not fully processing things (everything isn't AS bad as I'm about to make it seem, so bare with me if you read all of this)
She's got fleas, her shots (I thought) were due and I'm very much not able to afford that right now. I was panicking. I believed with every ounce of me that there was no way on this planet left that I could care for the love of my earth the way she deserved. I was ready to jump ship and find her a home where someone COULD take care of her immediate needs. I sat on my couch for a good hour and just cried my heart out. When I say this cat means everything to me, I truly mean that. To some people, she might just be a cat, but she's saved my life more times than I can think.
Someone helped me step back and start looking at things from a different, more zoomed out picture. I started looking into ways I could cut out things to start saving for her shots, until my zoomed out lens, discovered she's got way more time on them than I realized! One problem fixed. All that leaves is these fucking. Fleas.
I've been trying for DAYS to get rid of them, and it's looking like I'm going to need some major help with that, but now I have a plan that hopefully will work, and if it doesn't...there's always other ways it'll work out. They're fleas...not the end of the world, right? Just. Fleas.
This post is here for 2 reasons, the first to remind people that sometimes it's SUPER important to zoom out, look at things from a different angle, and get other people's perspective - it might just end up being fleas. ;)
The 2nd...financially I might be able to get all the things I need for the fleas (I've bought different things that I've already tried, but alas! The fleas presist!) And I'm planning on reaching out to family, too, but my family isn't the...well, most supportive financially for me...but if anyone's able to help me with any sort of funds to get flea treatment for my kitty cat 🐱 it'd relieve so much stress.
I understand if no one's able to help, but it never hurts to ask. I'd put this on my fb but any time I ask for help there my grandma texts me and tells me to "stop begging on fb because it makes her look bad"
Anyway, thanks yall for at least reading ♡
May your current problems be reduced to fleas. ♡
Picture of Gemini to pay the cat tax:
