I'm sick of you telling me the bf is a dick, that our relationship is toxic, that I shouldn't be with him, that I'm better off without him. I want to know how to fix it, not be told to leave him because I'm not doing that. I don't care if you think he's awful or that he's hurting me on purpose or that our relationship is bad and shouldn't exist to begin with because he's younger than me. I went to you for support and you're telling me to end it. You're the one hurting me, not him. At least I know why he's doing what he's doing. At least I know he's broken and trying his hardest. Why the hell are you doing what you're doing? Yeah our relationship might not be the best out there, I have a lot to do with that too but I'm not looking for your shit talk I'm looking for your advice. I wanted advice on the best way to sit bf down and talk to him without scaring him no "don't contact him, leave him alone". He is my family and I thought you knew that. I thought you understood I fight for mine until the end. My mental illness makes me awful and distrustful of others and over think everything and I know I'm hard to deal with, I can't stop my mind from thinking the things it does and I just wanted to spit them all out at you because I though you understood getting them out helps me clear my head and you took them and used them against me and that's fucked me up more than bf needing a day or two to clear his head after Kaj fucked him over again. I don't know what to do and I have no one to talk about it to and I'm scared of loosing everything and I just needed to put words somewhere
