@achaserbutakeeper
James didn’t know if the words were supposed to make him feel better but they certainly didn't. As interested as he was in her he would never force her into something if she didn’t like him. He had just thought if she gave him a chance she would realize she was mistaken in her assumptions of him and he was actually someone she liked. “It’s okay if you don’t, I mean sometimes people don’t click.”
“I’m not -- “ she paused, trying to think of the words she wanted, to make him understand how she felt. How different this felt, compared to the other blokes she hung around, how much she cared about him. Why couldn’t she just --- say it?
“What I mean, James, is that --- well, I already fancy you, right? But for a long time -- ages, really, I thought we were just mates. That you were just --- joking. And --- well, it took a while to realize that I do fancy you. And if we --- if we keep hanging around each other, I know, I know --- I’ll fall for you. And I don’t know if I want to. Because --- when I love people, they --- there’s something --- something wrong with me, all right?” That part was a bit harder to say, amidst rushed words that she had trouble differentiating. But she knew what she meant -- people who loved her, they left. Her parents? Dead, because she was a witch. Her sister? Hated her, also because she was a witch. And Severus? Her best mate? Well, he hated her because of what she was too. And she didn’t want to lose James -- it was an entirely selfish form of thinking, she knew this.
“Just -- I don’t want to lose you, yeah? And if I love you, if I fall in love with you, I will.”








