#acidicwisdom

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life

So things are getting worse and I don’t know why this has to happen. I just want someone to vent to (usually that would be my family) but there is struggle there. But whenever there is someone to talk to then I don’t believe they will understand everything because they just don’t know. Also I hate crying in front of people. Too much vulnerability. I don’t know what do anymore. I’m a depressing shit and now I barely eat. yay! college! I’m glad my roommate isn’t in the room a lot, it’s easier to cry without someone listening. I swear I always contradict myself. Also I’m pretty proud of my heritage and I hope I will find people who will not slyly be a racist. I don’t come from a lot of  money so I don’t understand people who take stuff for granted. You come to college and everyone feels entitled. I’m my real self but I don’t know if that is enough and I don’t want my sister to feel the same because she deserves so much more than me! My best friend an hour and half away and in crisis. I’m glad I’m going home this weekend because I don’t want her to feel bad because she the bestest friend I will EVER have. 

ALSO I can fix this because I’ll talk it out. Whenever I do that, then I am set to feeling better! 

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Maybe

So I might have a crush but idk yet. He's cute that's all I know at the moment

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friends, yeah right!

It is difficult to find other people who share the same values as me. One minute I think some people are my friends but then I realize that they’re not. It may sound childish but my only friends that I really trust are my family. I can always depend on them. But then again isn’t college suppose to be a time where you find your friends for life? Because if so then I am failing at that. I cry a lot thinking about it. The more I cry, the more I realize that family is my back bone. So I think I am gonna keep a distance from people for a little bit. I cannot get involved into a friendship that might turn on me. 

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"Shower & cry" is the new netflix & chill

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The one feature on a person that I admire the most is their eyes.

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When do you think you will have a link for the fourth episode?

I really don't know. I have no idea how the smart people get the episodes downloaded and onto sites like dailymotion. Last week there was a link within a few hours. I will post one as soon as I come across one!

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I am keeping this one.  I feel as if it suits me.