#acidspeaks2024

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A thing my sister told me :

I can make a list, 50 reasons why Dean is supernatural.

One : he can fit the Colt up his ass

(We were watching Season 3 episode 10 of supernatural)

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I’m cooked I’ve made friendship bracelets in our eye colors, they r in a heart pattern >:) will he get the hint then if I give it to him????

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Guys I’ve won. It’s official.

WE ARE DATINGGGGG AAAAAAA

As of yesterday, September 24 th 2024, we have been together for 1 WHOLE MONTH

I still can’t believe he’s mine and I’m his 🤭 just the other day I met one of his new college friends and he introduced me to them as his girlfriend 😭🎀 literally MARRY ME ALREADYYYYY PLEASE!!!!!

My great wingman Morgan (gotta give credit where credit is due) put pressure on my bf to like make a move and ask me out because he was “tired of hearing me talking about him 24:7 and wondering when he will ask me out” 🤭

He asked me out 3am on the 24th of August, after we had hung out all evening after the football game / marching band gig 🤭

I was at his house til like 1:30am watching mob psycho 100 and Ouran High School Host Club, and then he dropped me off at my place. When he got home he asked me over text if I was free the following morning. I said yes (even though I wasn’t sure if I actually was bc I couldn’t ask my mom who was asleep lolll, I would make time) and then he asked after that “Date?”

That singular word filled me up with so much joy and happiness that I actually went outside and ran around the block barefoot in my pajamas because I was tweaking so harddddd

Our first date was breakfast, we had French toast w strawberries and maple syrup. We went thrifting and he tried on these waist size 52 jeans and he could put both his legs into one side of them 😂

Anyway, it has been a WHOLE FUCKING MONTH SINCE HE ASKED ME TO BE OFFICIAL AAAAAAAUGH IM LITERALLY CRYING I CANT BELIEVE I CAN FINALLY CALL HIM MY BOYFRIENDDDEDDD EEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I feel like a Victorian era man seeing a woman’s ankles and perhaps knees for the first time and dying from the beauty.

Even though he is living like 45 mins away I still see him on the weekends, and that’s why we have phones to call on and text and send funny photos

This past weekend, on both Friday and Saturday nights, we hung out together from like 7pm til 1:30am and on Saturday like 4:30pm - 2:00am watching Ouran High School Host Club, cuddled so close to each other that my sweatshirt I wore smells like him and now it’s my favorite one to ever have 🤭

On Friday night after marching band / football and after culvers, we go back to his place. We were both chilly, and as we leave to go into his house I grab my sweatshirt from the trunk of my car and he asked “what r u grabbing?” And I said “sweatshirt, I’m a bit chilly :)”

And then once we get settled in the basement, he literally says “one sec lemme go grab something” and he grabs His own blanket From His Bed and puts it in the dryer to warm it up, Waits a couple minutes, and then comes over by me on the couch and covers us both with it and snuggles up close on my right side so that my whole right and his whole left side were touching and aughhhhhh I’m in love.

Like that was so sweet right there.

I miss my wife, but soon this Sunday, I want to bring him up north to meet my bestie Bella, and to go swimming in my favorite lake with me surrounded by my favorite and familiar places and faces 🤭

I just thought I should update the blr because like you guys have at least seen my blog mention this mans and my woes, least I could do is feed you some scraps 🤭

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I MADE MY MOVE FUCKKKKK

IM SO COOKED ITS BEEN 2 HOURS ANS NO RESPONSE, but I like to believe that he is just asleep already sooooo

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I can’t stop thinking about last nights party. I went to a band practice and played drums fkr two hours straight and he never left my mind. Is this how people feel when they’re in love? Pls give me advice in the tags bc I’ve never had this feeling before and want to know if insomnia and practically 24/7 thoughts abt someone is normal behavior for crush. Also I have to make a move soon before he graduates :) I’ll keep you updated but pls give me advice on if what I’m feeling is normal or not :)

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Ovulating over Halloween time is spooky in it of itself. Wdym I can’t see my bf at all?!? Am I gonna have to murder somebody so I can go see him?!?! (I need to breath him in and have him on top of me like a weighted blanket, or for a more seasonal flair, like cemetery dirt over a coffin 🤭)

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I sent him a message at like 10:30pm on Snapchat, this is what I said :

“Hey, sorry if what I said at your grad party made you uncomfortable, that was the last thing I wanted to do. I would still like to be friends and hang out like we used to no matter what your answer is, just please give me an answer eventually. Like we could go get coffee and talk abt what we’ve done this summer and stuff idk. I don’t particularly like feelings of anticipation and uncertainty, if there’s no definite end to it. Just lmk what you’re thinking pls, no matter what your answer is, I promise it won’t hurt or upset me more than having no answer at all. Sorry for this being kinda long I just dunno how to put it any simpler.

Take your time and stuff, idk if I’m like being pushy or something, I’ve never done this before so I apologize :/.”

I just can’t take the pain of waiting anymore on something that might not come to fruition or keep up hope on somebody that doesn’t feel the same way. I’m literally gonna explode.

If he doesn’t reply by this time tomorrow I’m going to send it on text messages sk he at least can open it to see what I said without it showing he looked at it. But I really just want any fucking answer from him on what I should be doing with my time and energy. I can’t keep waiting on his reply when he won’t wait for mine.

I have to stay silly guys imma literally go insane if I don’t get an answer from him by tomorrow night. If there’s any higher power out there, please help me with this one, I’m trying my best.

Now I’m gonna go to bed so I can stop the thoughts of this situation and maybe I’ll have a cry; if I can call tears to my eyes and oust the bad feelings from my body. Idk if I can rn I’m so emotionally tired that crying sounds too hard, maybe just internally crying will fix me idk. I’m sort of rambling rn but it’s been almost an hour since I sent the message and he hasn’t looked at it. I’m gonna give him the bennefit of the doubt and say that he’s asleep rn at 11:25 at night, he did just get back from Georgia today so it’s probable.

Ok goodnight, I’ll keep you all updated on what happens if anything does ever 🫠

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Guys it’s now July, it’s been almost 2 weeks since I told him how I feel. However he just got back from his trip to Greece today so like maybe now once he’s rested he will tell me anything?

At this point I just want some sort of acknowledgement of my feelings and maybe closure. I really hope that no matter what him and I can still be friends :( I don’t want to lose him as a friend because he’s cool and I didn’t always have feelings for him, like I got feelings for him In like February, and that’s like months after the Christmas party he had invited me to at his place in December. Like aughhhh

Somebody please give advice if you have any on the subject, how long is too long for an answer about romantical feelings and stuff of the sort? Like I feel if he didn’t like me in the slightest he would have already told me no so idk. I might be delusional and insane, but at least I got to see pretty fireworks at a local lake (even though I wasn’t able to watch them with him from his dock on the same lake, but maybe next year?)