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What a good homoerotic sparring partner @highlordofkrypton
Imagine going Under The Mountain to heroically save the damsel in distress (Tamlin) and then being pissed that the damsel... was in distress
⁀➷ Tangled in Secrets // Azriel x F!Reader
Summary: In the heart of Velaris, you, Rhysand’s sister, are learning how to live again after years in the dark. But in the shadows, something tender — and forbidden — has been blooming. As tension turns to touch, one night threatens to unravel everything you’ve tried to keep hidden.
A/N: I've had this idea for so long and needed a little break from my lovely requests! I love the idea of Rhys' sister & Azriel being together. I hope you enjoy the read!
Tags: 18+ readers only, smut, forbidden romance, mutual pining, reference to torture/trauma/kidnapping, size difference/size kink, (Az has a big dick lmao), body worship, oral (f receiving), shadow play, wing play, fingering, rough sex, slight pain kink, aftercare
Words: 4.4 k
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The music at Rita’s was louder than usual. Velaris was still celebrating. Weeks had passed since the last successful negotiation with the Winter Court, but the city was riding the wave of peace like a drunken high.
You didn’t care about peace treaties or politics. You cared about freedom. You cared about nights like this, where the shadows of your past didn’t cling quite so tightly to your bones, where your wings didn’t feel like heavy reminders of a war you never got to fight in, where you weren’t just Rhysands’ poor baby sister, the one who had been stolen, tortured and thought to be dead.
Everyone still treated you like that fragile girl, everyone except Azriel.
The Inner Circle had taken over their usual booth in Rita’s, all leather seats and cramped spaces, but not one of them would opt for somewhere else. The drinks were bottomless, the laughter rich, and the conversations casual. The shadows of war felt far away here.
But no matter how many weeks passed, how many times you reminded them you were fine, the same pattern always formed: Rhys hovered, Cassian fretted, Feyre watched you like she was waiting for you to scream.
And Azriel… Azriel watched you.
From across the room, glass untouched, shadows curling at his boots like smoke. He watched the way your lips curled when Mor whispered something naughty into your ear. He watched the sway of your hips as you danced, the gold dusting your collarbone, the arch of your neck when you tipped your head back and laughed–gods, it had taken you so long to laugh like that again.
You knew why Rhys acted the way he did, why even Amren softened her voice around you. Why Nesta continually glanced over, unreadable. Why Cassial still called you “Kid”, even though you were the same age as your cousin Mor?
They remembered you as a ghost. Because that’s what you had become, stolen all those years ago, taken during the attack on your mother by the Spring court, presumed dead. But unlike her, you hadn’t died. You’d been sent away. A trophy for King Hybern, locked beneath the palace, used for leverage that never came to light.
You spent years in darkness. With only pain as your companion to remind you that death had not welcomed you yet.
And then, when your brother found you, when you had burst free from that cell and Rhys had caught your fragile body, you weren’t a ghost anymore.
But they still treated you like one, except Azriel.
Even now, you felt the heat of his stare from across the bar, like a phantom hand at the small of your back. Watching you twirl and laugh between Mor and Feyre and Nesta, your hands entwined with theirs, hips swaying as the music throbbed through your blood.
You were glowing tonight. You knew it. And he saw it.
Gold dust shimmered over your bare shoulders. Your dress clung like silk to every curve Hybern hadn’t stolen from you. Your wings were hidden for now, folded into nothing, but the base of them itched when Az stared at you like that.
He stood in full leathers, motionless, the chaos of Rita’s parting around him like waves around a rock. Rhys was to his left, distracted by Feyre now whispering in his ear. Cassian was telling some exaggerated story to Nesta, who looked vaguely murderous. Even Amren was smirking into her glass of blood.
“Someone’s got it bad,” Mor teased in your ear, grinning wickedly as she spun you.
“Which one of them is she talking about?” Nesta deadpanned.
You laughed, twisting away, letting the beat pulse in your bones. Letting your hands trail down your sides, hair sticking to your neck, heat rising from the friction of your body and the heady tension in the air.
You felt his gaze with every movement. You wanted him to feel you.
“I should be drunker than this,” you muttered as the song changed again, low rhythm with no name.
“You could be, Rhys isn’t watching now, anyway,” Feyre offered with a mischievous smile, handing you something pink and fizzy.
You took a long sip, just enough to make your lips tingle.
“Still dancing with us?” Mor asked, squeezing your hand reassuringly.
You glance across the room and notice that Azriel hasn’t moved, not a single inch.
Your body answered before your mind did, hips twisting toward him, eyes narrowing, blood turning molten. And then you had an idea.
You stumbled.
Not hard, but enough to catch Feyre’s arms, laughing lightly as your foot slipped. “Oops,” you say, “Might’ve overdone it with that last drink.”
Mor’s eyes narrowed. “You’re faking.”
“Shh,” you whispered, leaning into her shoulder with an exaggerated put. “Just want to go home and be out of this dress.”
Nesta looked entirely unimpressed. “You’re baiting a bat.”
“I am the bats’ sister,” you reminded her, giggling.
Feyre’s brows arched. “Are you sure–?”
But he was already moving. Azriel crossed the room like a predator, shadows enveloping his frame as he strode past the others, ignoring the table, the drinks, and the conversations.
Straight. To. You.
You didn’t look up until he was there, towering over you, his scent hitting you further. Leather, cold air, and something smoky-sweet you could never name. His hand slid around your waist without hesitation, his body crowding yours, his voice a low rasp.
“She’s done for the night. Say goodnight, everyone.”
“I’m not done,” you mumble half-heartedly, resting your cheek on his chest like a lazy feline. “Just so dizzy.”
“She’s not drunk,” Nesta retorted drily.
But Azriel ignored her. “I’m taking her home.”
“See?” you whispered, brushing your lips over his collarbone as you leaned fully into him. “You always catch me.”
His jaw ticked. His hand was a brand on your waist. And when you looked up, and up, because even in heels he towered over you, you knew this was only the beginning because he wasn’t letting you go.
“Alright, what’s going on here?”
Rhys’s voice cut through the velvet haze of the lounge, soft but laced with the kind of brotherly concern that made the others go quiet.
You were draped against Azriel’s side now, cheek pressed against his chest like he was your pillow and not a living weapon. His shadows had curled subtly around your waist, invisible to all but you. It felt possessive. Protective.
You blinked up at your brother with your best innocent smile, slurring just a little. “I jus’ danced too much, Rhysie.”
Mor snorted quietly behind her drink.
“She’s drunk,” Azriel said smoothly, voice like silk and smoke, his large hand spread gently along your waist. “Too many of those pink things.”
Rhys’s violet gaze narrowed on you, scanning your face, then flicking to Az. “She’s not drunk-drunk, right? She didn’t shift her wings out midair again, did she?”
“She’s not that drunk,” Azriel replied, calm as ever. “But she should rest. I’ll take her home.”
“I could-”, Feyre started, but Az’s shadows tensed subtly. No one noticed except you.
“No, it’s fine,” Rhys said, looking at Azriel with quiet trust. “You’ll take her to the House of Wind?”
Az nodded once.
Rhys looked down at you again, his features softening with that familiar ache. “You sure you’re okay, little one?”
You pointed, reaching up to pinch his cheek lazily. “M’fine, Rhysie. Just tired. Az’s warm.”
Azriel’s jaw flexed almost imperceptibly. Behind Rhys, Cassian chuckled and whispered something to Nesta, who rolled her eyes.
“Alright,” Rhys said, still watching you like he might change his mind. “Make sure she gets home safe, brother.”
Azriel’s wings unfolded smoothly, cradling your body closer to his chest. You tucked your face in, humming contentedly as if you couldn’t feel the thunderstorm of his heartbeat against your cheek.
“You’ve got her?” Rhys asked once more, softer now.
Azriel didn’t even blink. “Always.”
Rhys gave one last nod, and the moment he turned away, Mor caught your eye and gave you a knowing smirk behind her drink. You bite your lip, hiding your smile against Azriel’s warm throat as he gathers you in his arms, shadows cloaking you both like a secret.
And then, with one girl sweet on his wings, the two of you vanished into the night sky.
The wind was cold, but Azriel’s chest was warm. You nestled against it as he flew, his arm secured under your thighs, the other braced along your back, wings beating steadily through the sky. You could feel the tension in him, not from the weight of you, but from something far heavier.
Desire, restraint, conflict.
Guilt.
He always carried it. He’d carried it from the moment he met you.
You hadn’t even been full-grown yet, barely out of girlhood, wings still clumsy and new. He remembered it clearly, even if he pretended not to, the way you peeked out from behind Rhys that first time, your gaze already too bright, too curious. You’d watched him like a puzzle you wanted to solve.
And he looked away. He always looked away.
Even when you laughed like starlight. Even when your training leathers hugged your hips and you sparred with Cassian until your cheeks were flushed and your chest heaved. Even when your power flared in rare, breathtaking flashes, born of your High Lord’s bloodline. Even when you began to smile at only him
He stayed one step back, always because you were Rhysands’ little sister, because you had been missing, tortured, kept like a shadow under Hybern’s mountain. Because when you came back, graceful but fierce, everyone - especially Rhys - treated you like glass.
And Azriel? Azriel couldn’t look at you without burning from the inside.
Still, when you pressed your face to his neck mid-flight and whispered his name, “Azriel,” he nearly dropped out of the sky,
He handed on the balcony of the House of Wind with more force than usual, boots cracking lightly against the stone. His hands cradled you, steady and careful, as if your body were breakable crystal instead of carved muscle and magic.
You tilted your head to look up at him, smirking faintly. “You’re tense.”
“You’re not drunk.”
You hummed, unbothered. “Caught me.”
He sighed and finally set you down, but his hands hovered like he didn’t want to let go. Or couldn’t.
You smiled, sharp and knowing. “So why did you play along?”
He didn’t meet your eyes. “Because you wanted me to.”
You stepped toward him. “And maybe because you wanted to touch me.”
That finally earned you a look—a dark, dangerous one.
“I’ve spent centuries not touching you.”
You faltered, just slightly. That confession struck between you like a strike of lightning. He shook his head, wings shifting behind him. “You don’t understand.”
“I do,” you whispered, fingers twitching at your side to reach for him. “You think Rhy would hate you.”
“Wouldn’t he?” his voice was low and rough. “You’re his little sister. And I-”
“You’re his best friend. His brother. And he trusts you. He knows you’d never hurt me.”
Azriel’s jaw clenched. “I wouldn’t.”
“Then stop pretending that wanting me is wrong.” You stepped back before he could answer, backlit by the moon as you walked toward the open space of the terrace. The House was quiet, its walls echoing with your boldness and your hunger. You stood there, framed by night as you slipped off your shoes and turned slowly.
“Dance with me.”
He didn’t move. You lifted your chin. “Please.”
The House responded before he could. Music began, soft and gentle, string and piano blooming into the quiet. The kind of song that demanded closeness. The kind that had always belonged to lovers, not warriors.
Azriel’s eyes closed for a moment. You thought he might turn and vanish into the shadows. But when he opened them, you saw something fractured there. Something deafened. He walked to you in three slow steps.
And these arms were around you.
You melted into him without hesitation, your cheek resting against his chest. His heart was pounding almost as loudly as yours was. His wings shifted behind you as his hands gripped your waist, guiding you into a slow sway.
It wasn’t a soldier’s hold, it was a lover’s, protective and reverent.
You tilted your head back, eyes on his mouth. “You’re still holding back.”
“I have to.”
“No, you don’t.” You bite your lip, slowly, and feel the way his breath caught, his shadows withered and tickled at your heels. “You’ve always wanted me, haven’t you?” He didn’t deny it. He just stared at you, his hands trembling slightly where they helped your hips. “I knew the first time you looked away,” you said. “I’ve spent years waiting for you to stop.”
The music slowed as his hold tightened. And when you rose to your toes, brushing your lips just barely against his. He finally stopped. Stopped pulling away, stopped fighting how he felt.
Azriel’s shadows surged around you like smoke and silk, coiling at your spine, sliding under your dress. His body pressed flush against yours, towering, hot and desperate. And still, he didn’t kiss you back. Not fully.
He looked like a man teetering at the edge of a cliff, scarred hands clenched, wings trembling, shadows circling like vultures.
You cupped his jaw gently, “Az…”
He inhaled sharply, like your voice burned. His hands on your waist flexed, like he wanted to drag you closer, but still didn’t trust himself.
“I can’t,” he rasped, voice strained and cracked. “You’re-”
“Don’t say it.” You stood on your toes once more, lips rushing his. “I know who I am. And I know who I want.”
He groaned, a low, guttural sound, and suddenly, your back hit the wall of the terrace. Not hard, not rough, but urgent.
His body caged yours completely, towering over you. Wings spread wide and trembling behind him like a predator mid-hunt. His chest heaved, his hair falling over his brow in wild, unkept waves, and his shadows writhed between your legs, around your wrists, your neck, like they couldn’t decide where they wanted to taste you first.
“Do you have any idea what you’re doing to me?” he growled.
You looked up at him, flushed and breathless. “I hope so.”
His pupils blew wide. “I’ve wanted to run you for centuries.
“Then ruin me, Azriel.”
He snapped. Finally.
One second, he was still. Next, you were in the air. He’d lifted you like nothing. Like your weight didn't matter, just one massive hand around your waist, pinning you to the wall, legs wrapped around his hips as he pressed flush against you.
“Az-”
He kissed you. Devoured you completely. His mouth crashed into yours with a desperation that bordered on violent, hot, slick, claiming. His tongue parted your lips and swallowed your gasp. He growled again when your hands fisted in his hair, pulling him closer, like you wanted to crawl inside his skin.
He let you pull, but he held all the control. His shadows surged behind you, pinning your wings gently to the stone wall, bracing you so his hands could roam freely. One slid up your spine, while another gripped your thigh, yanking it higher around his waist.
“You don’t understand,” he panted between kisses, voice breaking. “I’ve dreamed of this. Every fucking night. And I wake up hating myself.”
“Why?”
“Because you’re the only thing I’ve ever wanted that I wasn’t allowed to have.”
You kissed his jaw. His neck. His scarred shoulder. “Then take me anyway.”
His hand came to rest on your face, cradling your jaw so gently that it made your heart ache. “I don’t want to hurt you,” he whispered, forehead pressed to yours.
“You won’t. I can handle more than you think I can.” You bite his lip, teasing.
He snarled, and then his shadows exploded.
They coiled around your waist, pulling you away from the wall, only to wrap you up in them like silk restraints. His winds closed around you, a protective cocoon of night and wind, hiding you from the stars, from the world, from everything that wasn’t him.
“You’re mine,” he growled against your mouth, lifting you effortlessly again. “Do you understand me?”
You whimpered, nodding. “Yours.”
His mouth crashed into yours again, harder this time, hand sliding beneath your thighs to grip your ass as he carried you through the halls of the house like you weighed nothing. One arm around your back. The other is between your legs. His shadows wrapped around your ankles and wrists like a crown.
Your back met the softness of your bed, but your attention was solely on the male in front of you. Azriel couldn’t stop staring.
Not even as he knelt between your spread legs on the massive bed, the House had now been lit with candles. Not even when you reached down and touched his face, a whisper of fingers over his jaw. Not even when you whispered his name, as if it were something past.
“I never thought...” His voice broke, deep and rough as he withheld his emotions. “I’d get to touch you.”
Your hand curled into his black hair. “You’ve always touched me.”
“You know what I mean.”
Yes. You did. The weight of years pressed between you. All the stolen glances, the tension, the desperate little almost-touches. All the time he’d spent holding himself back because you were Rhys’s baby sister and off-limits. But now, Azriel was looking at you like you were the only star in the night sky. He was done pretending, done denying himself.
And when he kissed you again, it was like he breathed you in.
He kissed your lips like he wanted to memorise the shape of them. He kissed down your throat, over your dress, reverent as he went, until he reached your breasts and kissed them through the fabric, your nipples firm and scratching beneath the dress.
You arched into him, and he groaned. That sound was enough to send a deep shiver down your body.
“I want to taste every part of you,” he almost begged against your clothed abdomen, continuing to kiss your body.
He didn’t undress you, not at first. His shadows peeled back your dress only enough to bare you. A shoulder, your breasts finally spilling free. Then your underwear, soaked already, pulled gently aside as he kissed your hips, your thighs, desperately. His huge hands slide beneath your ass and lift you like you weigh nothing, bringing your cunt closer to him.
And then he buried his mouth between your legs.
Azriel didn’t eat you out to tease. He did it like he needed to live. He moaned when he tasted you, lapped at you like he was desperate, tongue working slow, steady strokes until your hips bucked into his face.
His hand came down on your thigh, “Let me,” he said, almost a plea.
You whimpered. “I need you.”
“You have me.”
He kept going, longer strokes with his tongue, deeper. Until you’re crying out, grinding relentlessly against his mouth and nose, crying out for more. Until you came with a choked sob, hands in his hair, thighs trembling as your orgasm dragged on and on.
Even after, he didn’t leave you empty. Two ice-cold fingers slid inside you, slow and deep, and your whole body arched. You could feel it then. The stretch. The slight ache of being filled.
“You’re already tight, I don’t know how you’ll take me,” he said against the sensitive area of your inner thigh where he was continuing to kiss and bite.
“I will,” you say breathlessly, looking down your body at him. “Azriel, I want to.”
He pulled back, eyes wild as he undressed, shadows tugging his elathers off his broad chest, his powerful thighs, until he was kneeling there above you, naked and gorgeous.
And then you saw his cock. You gasped.
It was massive. Thick, long, veined and dark, flushed at the head and already slick with precum. It twitched under your gaze.
Azriel groans, hands clenching into the sheets as his wings flared behind him. “I knew I’d hurt you.”
“I want it to hurt.”
He froze, as if he were internally conflicted.
You reached for him. “Azriel, I want to feel everything, I want you to fill me until there’s nothing left but you.”
With a growl, he surged over you. Mouth devouring yours, cock grinding against your soaked pussy. One hand cradled the back of your head with unbelievable gentleness. The other pinned your hip in place.
And when he started to push in, you felt every inch.
The pressure was unbelievable. Your hands gripped his shoulders, your mouth open in a silent moan as he slow, so fucking slowly, workings his thick length inside.
“Gods,” he breathed. “You’re–fuck, my love, you’re so tight. So perfect.”
You whimpered, overwhelmed as your thighs wrapped around his hips, pulling him closer.
“Does it hurt?” he rasped. You nodded, biting your lip. “Do you want me to stop?”
You shook your head, eyes widening as you looked up at him. He kissed your forehead. “You’re taking me so well.”
He rocked deeper, letting you adjust, your breath coming in shaky gasps as you stretched around him. It burned and throbbed. But it was precisely what you needed.
And when he finally couldn’t inch in any further, your wings snapped open behind you, shimmering with raw pleasure.
Azriels groaned like it broke him. “You like it?” you asked hopefully.
He looked down at where you were joined, a dark flush on his neck, sweat beading at his temple. “I’ll never be the same again.”
Then he started to move. Slow, grinding thrusts, deep enough to make your vision blue. He held you down, kissed your throat, fucked you like he was carving his name into your soul. Every time you clawed at his back or tugged his hair, he snarked and moved harder.
You sobbed his name; he kissed your tears. And when he felt you tighten again, your second orgasm crashing through your body like waves of thunder, he growled into your neck, “That’s it. Cum for me. Let me feel it, my love.”
You shattered urgently, and still, he didn’t stop. He thrust through it, holding your hips steady with his huge hands, shadows crawling up your spine, pressing into your wings like a second mouth. You moaned louder, not thinking or caring who might hear you.
“I can’t stop,” he said, shocked, pressing his forehead to yours. “You’re too fucking perfect. You were made for me.”
And then, when you whispered that you wanted it to hurt again, his control finally snapped. Az flipped you onto your stomach. And he retook you, deeper, rougher, worshipping every inch of you until you were sobbing into the sheets, begging for more. Until he, too, finally came inside you with a broken cry and buried himself so that it felt like you might never breathe without him again.
You didn’t remember returning onto your back in the middle of the bed. You only remembered his arms around you. The weight of him, the tremble of your own body, how sore and sensitive you were, how it still somehow wasn’t enough. How you wished you could pull him closer, deeper, keep him inside you forever.
Azriel was still above you, breathing hard, body slick with sweat. Your thighs shook where they clung around his waist, and he was still inside you, buried to the hilt, as if letting go would make this moment break apart.
You blinked up at him, dazed. “You stayed.”
His hand slid gently across your cheek, eyebrows drawing together in concern, “Of course I stayed.”
Your eyes pricked with tears. His mouth was immediately there, kissing your temple and catching every tear that fell. “Don’t cry.”
You let your eyes close, focusing on the warmth of his body, the burn between your thighs. The thrum of his heartbeat was still fast beneath his ribs. But he was already moving, slowly and carefully and lifting off you only just enough to keep from hurting you.
“Wait…”, you whispered, but he was already shushing you gently.
“I’m not leaving,” he said, brushing sweat-damp hair from your face. “Just taking care of you, sweet love.”
His shadows slid across the room. A warm cloth appeared in his hand, summoned by the House. You flushed when he knelt between your legs again, as if he hadn’t just spent the last hour inside you.
“You don’t have to”
“I want to.” So you let him.
He cleaned you carefully, being cautious of your tender body, gentle even as he wiped away his release leaking between your legs. Every pass of the warm cloth made you sigh. His hands were so big, drawing your waist, your hips, your thighs. His shadows curled protectively around you both, brushing your calves in coolness, your wrists, your neck.
When he was done, he vanished the cloth and pulled the sheets up over your body, settling behind you, letting you curl into the heat of his chest. Your body ached. It sang. But slowly, the world crept back in.
“What do we do now?” you asked into the hush. Azriel didn’t speak right away. You turned slightly, and your wings brushed his. “Azriel…”
His arms tightened. “We go back to pretending,” he said quietly. “At least for now.”
You flinched. “Even after–”
He kissed your shoulder, aching. “You think I want to hide this? Hide you? I’ve wanted you since I was barely a grown male.”
“I don’t care if Rhys finds out.”
“I do,” he said with great gentleness. “I care about you being safe and protected. Until we’re ready, we keep this between us. Just a little longer, my love.”
You didn’t like it. You hated that the fear still clung to both of you, that what you had to say goodbye to in the morning had finally happened after so many years. But you knew him. And you knew he was being careful with your heart. With your future. With you.
So you nodded. “Okay.”
His nose pressed to the back of your neck. “Get some sleep, love.”
“You’ll be here when I wake up?”
Silence. Then: “no”.
You still. “But I’ll stay until you fall asleep. I promise.”
Your eyes fluttered shut. “You always keep your promises.”
His breath hitched. “Only for you.”
You didn’t fight the heaviness dragging you under. Not with his arms around you. Not with his scent in your lungs, his warmth cradling you from behind. You fell asleep to the sound of his heartbeat in your ear.
And when morning came, the bed beside you was cold. But the ache in your body told you it hadn’t been a dream. And the pillow still smells like him.
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I neeeeeed to figure out a real design for tam's mask, he is not supposed to be a dragon TT^TT the mask is currently based on this
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close ups of @wilde-knight's commission I filled for them! credit to them for the phrase "fevered with lust" as an a+ response to Elain's reddened cheeks.
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Six times people lusted after Nesta Archeron, and one time someone loved her.
Day 6: Birthday Girl - NESLION
Helion has a gift for Nesta, and an offer he can't name.
Read on ao3 here, preview below the cut!
Helion learns it's Nesta Archeron's name day in the way most important things arrive—incidentally, without ceremony, slipped into conversation. It takes him only a moment to register it properly, to turn it over in his mind with the same unhurried attention he gives to anything that might later prove useful.
It should be harmless trivia.
But the coincidence is too much to ignore.
"Nes doesn't want to make a big deal of it," her mate says below his breath. Cassian's face is already flushed from djinnfire, black wings gleaming with oil as they congregate near a table laden with the usual lavish provisions. "So pretend you don't know, alright?"
The courtyard at the center of the palace is full of activity, as it always is. Helion often finds the noise useful. It gives him cover to think, and while most assume he's surveying the crowd for future lovers, more often than not he's deep in contemplation .
It's a useful ruse. Would be very useful today, but he can't keep his eyes off the quiet moon in the center of Day.
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Heights - Reader X Cassian
short oneshot. Reader is terrified to fly and Cassian tries to convince her. Anxiety/Comfort
Flying was a recurring nightmare in your childhood.
To be newly mated with an Illyrian, of all beings, was some kind of twisted joke from the Mother.
It was a warm summer evening, the sun making it’s final glint over the Sidra when Cassian made his newest plea.
“You know, I’ve been flying my entire existence.” He began, and eyed you from the corner of his vision. The way you straightened immediately, bracing for another go at this disagreement told him the answer already. But he’d never stop trying. Not until you would at least make an attempt at the joy of flight with him.
He couldn’t stand it, needing to walk or be winnowed everywhere. He noticed his jealousy toward Rhys and Azriel mounting of late. Truthfully, he’d always been resentful of their abilities to transport to and from at will, but it’d never bothered him to this extent before. Now, it chafed at his self worth. Seeing how your eyes would light up with apprehension of the void around, then amazement once you’d arrived was something he both loved and hated.
“Cassian…” You sighed, taking a deep breath of sea salt tinged air. The city was finally coming alive around you after a blistering day in the sun, and you kept your voice low as you protested your mate. “I have told you, I wont do it.”
He took two long strides, stepping in front of you and stopping. “That’s not a good enough reason anymore.” He grunted, and seemed truly upset. You looked at him with a confused expression. He’d never taken such a serious tone about it before.
“I-” He sighed, and took your hands in his, squeezing tight. His throat bobbed, and he looked into your eyes with determined sorrow, a pleading look that left your heart cracking as he spoke. “I need to know truly why. Do you not trust me?”
“Of course not!” You squeezed his hands back and smiled. “I just… dont enjoy heights.”
He gave you a plain look, annoyed. “And.. what if you crash us? What if you drop me?!” Your voice raised as your mind raced through the possibilities of him bringing you to the height you’ve seen him at before. When he was barely a speck against the sky, a black star in the broken up sunlight with his armor, black against the blue-gray haze of Velaris.
“What if we drift into unfriendly lands and they fire upon us? You can’t fight and carry me. I’d be dropped or you’d die getting us away and I can’t live with that-”
He squeezed your hands hard, breaking you out of the spiral of anxiety that was taking over your thoughts.
“Should you fall or be dropped, I’d follow, and greet the ground happily.”
Your thoughts stuttered, then kicked up new images of him hurtling towards the ground and blood following.
“You cannot die. Even if I were to-” panic climbed into your throat. He steadied you quickly.
“There is no instance where I live without you.” He said it with finality, surety. Like he’d already vowed this and had an answer for just how he’d make sure his words were the truth. Your eyes welled with hot tears, and he pulled you to his chest, his wings wrapping around you. They blocked the last of the setting sun, blanketing you in shade. “There’s also no instance where I’d ever drop you.” He said with a laugh.
You shoved at his chest, and he pulled back his wings. His smile was soft and hopeful. “You’ll consider it, then?” He asked.
As much as the idea of flying made you want to squirm and run, you nodded. It clearly meant a lot to him, and you couldn’t deny him an attempt just because of some of your fears. He was right, he’d never drop you. You couldn’t help your eyes from wandering to his thick biceps. The urge to bite him there became insatiable.
His eyes followed yours and he raised his brows. “Shall we fly back to the apartment now, darling?” He teased.
You cleared your throat, and took his hand in yours, restarting your walk back down the streets of Velaris. “Let me think about it. I promise I’ll truly consider it.” You provided, giving him a soft smile.
“That’s all I ask.” He purred in your ear. His wing snapped out, shielded your backside while his hand gripped your ass. “For this as well, I suppose.”