the pixielocks video i was watching: my friends were so kind, they made me feel safe when i was panicking and said i didn't have to do the thing with them even though that meant they had to do it by themselves
me, who's friend repeatedly asked me to do a thing with/for them when i was actively having a full month of Real Bad panic, anxiety so bad i couldn't move for hours at a time, could barely get out of bed to eat once a day, was having health flares, was so so terrified of leaving the house for many reasons but one was monkeypox bc my eczema kept giving me palm size rashes with scabs bc the skin was splitting open everywhere, and that would've made it much easier to get monkeypox, ALSO the thing involved her family who chronically doesn't wear masks, and that friend after asking me to do the thing AGAIN and i communicated all the above, made it about herself and then afterwards STILL asked me AGAIN to do thing and added "we can get boba🥺" and when i said "um. i am still scared to leave the house and also very mentally and physically flaring up plus i don't wanna get sick like i said" she said. and i quote. "well the boba was more for me": is that??? how friends are supposed to be???
