hjhrHRJHSDKN HEY I LOVED THE HOW THEY'D ACT AROUND THEIR CRUSH HC'S I OWE UNTO YOU MY LIFE FOR THE LOVE(S) OF IT, THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR HARD WORK- okokok this next ones a bit of a toughie(???) but when would the addisons realize they're in love? or if its easier, how do you think they'd act once it like. sinks in that they're like In Love With their crush or s/o, if im making sense nshit hjgsdkgmsd--
A/N: I loooove tropes like this! Giggling and kicking my feet thinking about it
Also sorry I forgot about this blog for like 4 years I fell into a creative slump!! (￣▽￣*)ゞ whoopsies
I am working on getting some things posted tho!
Addisons and Spamton realizing they're in love
Pink Addison
They realize when they're simply spending time with you in their home
You're both sitting on the couch as a new show they had been recommended played on the TV, some sort of dating show on an island?
The show was completely pushed to the back of their mind as they stared at your face out of the corner of their eye
Your face was gently illuminated by the screen, and they noticed how you were leaning towards them and they thought of how easy it would be to move in next to you
They thought of how much they wanted to touch you and how they craved to be with you every day, every moment if they could
They knew what they were feeling towards you was pushing over to something more romantic, but they hadn't realized quite how far it has gotten already
It didn't take them long to accept their feelings, and as they pondered on how to treat you next time you see each other, they slowly started inching closer to you
Blue Addison
They realize right after you finish a dinner together
You had been invited to join them just to enjoy dinner and talk together with a friend
It had been a wonderful night full of laughter and easy conversation between the two of you
It was after you had said your farewells and promises for another dinner together soon did the feeling in their chest finally felt familiar enough for them to name it
They had been slowly feeling how much they were drawn to you get stronger as the days passed
How their first and last thoughts of the day were of you
How when they saw something, they thought of you first. Thought of how you'd feel about it, what you'd might say if you were there
Now they can't stop thinking about how just about every thought somehow goes back to you
Orange Addison
They realize when you are eating together
They're sitting on a curb outside the shop you had gotten it in, simply enjoying the scenery and people watching as they eat in comfortable silence
They glance over at you and see a bit of sauce on the side of your face, chuckling to themself at the sight
'Of course' they thought, bringing a napkin up to wipe the mess on your face
They don't realize what they've done until their hand is folding the napkin to throw away later
They keep their eyes averted from yours as they wonder, how long has this been building up? It just felt so natural to be with you that they hadn't even noticed how much they cared for you
He was absolutely head over heels and hadn't even noticed
Yellow Addison
They realize when you are wandering around town
They had been up late on the phone with you, both of you apparently unable to sleep that night, and they suggested you both explore some late night shops around the city
It didn't take long for you to meet up and immediately make your way to a late night restaurant
After a few hours of wandering and window shopping, you decided to step into a small secondhand shop as your final stop of the night
They didn't have much interest in it, so they mostly stuck to chatting half-heartedly with the shopkeeper and glancing back to whatever you're looking at on the other side of the store periodically
Eventually the shopkeeper left to attend other business and they were left with their thoughts as you continued to browse
Their eyes settled on you and took in every detail again. They already had it memorized but it was calming to retrace the details
Then it dawned on them. How they've memorized every detail about you, your habits, your likes and dislikes, your hobbies, and how much more they wanted to learn
They hadn't thought much of how they felt about or around you, just brushing it off as having a new friend that they want to spend time with
But now, as they focus on how their heart squeezes at the sight of you, they're forced to finally realize they're hopelessly in love
Spamton
He realizes when he can't talk himself out of how he feels about you
He hadn't had the time to see you that day so he had been messaging you for most of the day
He went through his usual routine when he arrived home. Shower, dinner, and an early night for him since he was supposed to be up early for tomorrow
His mind had been drifting to you but now as he lies in bed all he can think about is when he might be able to see you again, if he could make time for you in his schedule
For a moment he wondered why he wanted to see you so badly before he quickly excused it for anything he could think of
You're just good friends! Friends like spending time together. Plus, he's been trying to possibly get you as a future business partner, so it's only beneficial that you are as close as you can be
As he was kept up with his thoughts he couldn't keep excusing the craving he had for you, to just be around you
How it doesn't matter what you could be doing together, all that would matter to him would be if you were enjoying your time together
He couldn't think of an excuse for how your happiness made his heart swell, and how when your eyes met and you smiled at him, his breath caught in his throat
He fell asleep you floating through his thoughts, a new outlook on your past and future interactions
i know it’s been a while since i’ve been alive here (i have a good reason this time — i’ve been moving out!!)
but! i like DESPERATELY need motivation to write and get my schedule and consistency right again —
SO!
if any of you lovely people have any requests for clarisse la rue from percy jackson (i’ve been sucked into this series by my best friend, but i haven’t read the books yet so the fics are gonna be based purely on show!!) then i’d be delighted to write them for you:3 (be patient with me tho as there’s A LOT going on in my private life rn!)
or if anyone has any ideas for addison from zombies — disney, then i’d love to write that as well!!
(also — i’m back in my fnaf era, duh, so if anyone has requests for vanessa/vanny — i’d be glad to take them as well!! [and you all know i’ve got a few fics with her already, some of them being my favourite pieces i’ve ever written!])
Summary: Back in Seattle you’re not just dealing with a tumour, you met a amazing woman that is eventually going to change your life.
Warnings: in this chapter none but swearing, later I promise you smut, angst, cheating and more.
Updates: Weekly
A/n: This is my first fanfic and English is not my first language. I’m sry if something isn’t perfect. Anyway my first project will be a series obviously. I just thought I’m going to start with something big. And I’m open for requests ;)
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Rain pooling down the drained window like the tears you kept in, now freely falling. Too long you were standing there, just staring at the wall, the floor, the ceiling. Funny isn’t it ? How fast time can run, chasing the long gone minutes.
Shit, I don’t wanna be late- you thought. You grabbed the few things you haven’t packed jet and stumbled out the door.Your flight to Seattle in 2 hours is leaving your throat dry. But to be totally honest you’re excited to see them again. Mer and Arizona were pushing you to visit them again. Yeah, anyway now you’re the one pushing with a tumour housing in your brain.
Lifting your large luggage off the ground and on the treadmill, to finally get checked in, is the last thing you do before you sit on the plane and lay your safety belt on. 6 hours feel long, so high above the ground. You’re not willing to stay awake the whole flight, so you shut your eyes, slowly drifting off as you hear the soft humming of the plane getting quieter.
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After being undisturbed for almost the whole flight you finally wake up. The tall, slightly scary looking man sitting next to you, wasn’t too thrilled by the crying toddler a few seats ahead and decided to murmur and huff complaints in his beard. You use the left time to think about Seattle, to be more concrete you think about the people in Seattle, your people.
You haven’t seen them too often, after Derek died. It just hadn’t felt right to come and visit, you should’ve, now that you think about it. The distance being so short, makes you miss them even more. But this time you visit not just as a friend, you’re a patient. The word never scared you -patient- it sounds so small. Now you’re the patient and it scares the hell out of you. Why?
The plane is about to land and you’re about to see your friends. Stepping of the plane, you lift your head and take a deep breath , inhaling the fresh air seeping trough your lungs. It feels okay to be back, maybe even great.
You pick up your luggage and leave the airport to get a taxi. You already talked to Meredith about your visit and she gladly offered you to crash at her house. Not wanting to spend your first day back in some random hotel, you accepted thankful .
The ride was calm and you thought about ways to don’t make the reunion awkward. You couldn’t blame Mer to be mad. You just left and barely even called. As the taxi neared the location you couldn’t shake off the nervousness climbing up your throat. Too long you were gone, too long you missed mer.
You paid the taxi driver and left the car, headed to her front door, gulping down a not exisiting knot. You counted the steps you made and took one last long breath before you knocked. It didn’t took long for the blonde women to walk down the stairs, straight to the door.
She looked at you, she nearly stabbed you with her sharp stare. Probably you would’ve end up running if she hadn’t stopped looking at you like that . Instead of the nearly cold stare she offered you one of her smiles. „Well, look who decided to actually visit.“ she grinned at you, taking your wrists pulling you in a warm embrace. „I missed you.“ you murmured in her hair hugging her even tighter.
„No need to strangle me!“ she laughed pushing you inside. „You can have your old room back.“ she said practically dragging you and your luggage up the stairs. You missed this. You couldn’t wait to see the others. „I will probably spend the whole time in the hospital.“ you mentioned tapping on your head. To point out the thing with the tumour chilling in your brain.
„Yeah, probably.“ she whispered turning around to look at you. You just looked at each other sharing unspoken words. You were both scared, even if you wouldn’t say it out loud. You shake your head trying to throw the odd feeling away.
„Anyway, today is the day. So hospital is my next stop, do you mind coming with me later?“ you asked trying to lighten the mood. „Of course, I have a shift later so it’s perfect. How about we two catch up ?“ she ask throwing herself on your bed. You smiled, laying next to her.
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There you were, walking trough the hallways of the grey Sloan memorial hospital, with Mer on your left and Arizona on your right side. In every step you made, laid fear. Would you walk out again? Would you survive? You were promised on of the greatest neurosurgeons, one that ist going to help you. And hopefully save you.
„Here we are. You can settle in and Dr. Shepherd will be here in a bit.“ Arizona told you smiling. „Thank you, see you two later.“ you said reaching your bed and laying your stuff on it. They walked out, looking happy to have you again, even as a patient.
You took your clothes and put them in your wardrobe, feeling kinda weird. Obviously you aren’t used to live in a hospital. Finished with organizing your things you sat on the bed, staring at your hands. Damm it, why would you of all people get a tumour?
Clicking heels break your thoughts, urging you to look up. A woman with dark long hair walked in, smiling , with a nervous looking man by her side. “Hello there. Deluca would you mind presenting?”she questioned even if it wasn’t a question. “But make it simple.” you said, not wanting to hear more than needed.
He nodded “ 28, female, with a tumour in her head. Here for a final removal of the tumour.” presented the young man fast, holding your chart in his hands. “So Y/N the plan is that I will observe your tumour over the next couple of days. We will make daily tests to make sure we don’t miss anything and after that you can say your final goodbyes to the tumour.“ Dr Shepherd told you looking at the charts.
„Sounds good“ you said trying to smile not really happy with your long stay at the hospital. „Can you change, I would like to do a Ct.“ she added, looking at you with kind eyes.
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After spending two days in the hospital, you got bored staying in your room all day. Deciding to stop sulking around you got up and found things to do. Currently walking down the hallway with Mer, to kill your boredom, you saw her.
Orange locks effortlessly laying on her shoulders, confidence laying in her step as she made her way towards you. Addison Montgomery, yeah you knew her. Well you never really talked but, the beautiful woman was well known across your friends. You stopped, not daring to come one step near her. So as she stopped in front of you and Mer, piercing right trough you with her daring eyes, she knocked your breath right out of you.
„Hey, Addison“ Mer smiled at her. But Addison was still looking at you tilting her head with a curious smile. „And you are?“ she questioned. You couldn’t stop looking at her, she was literally perfect. She raised her eyebrows, wondering why you wouldn’t answer. „That’s Y/N, you might have seen her before. She is a really good friend of mine.“ Meredith answered for you, chuckling at your loss of words. At that you took your self together trying to get at least one word out, not wanting to look like a complete fool. „What she said.“ you said looking anywhere but at her.
Addison smiled clearly amused by the strange behaviour you showed. „What are you two up to?“ she asked still smiling, lifting her hand to push a strand of hair out of her face. „Walking.“ was all you said trying to find a way to leave this conversation as fast as possible. „Yeah, I see that.” she remarked holding her laughter back. „Y/n here, is bored so she forced me to go on a hospital walk with her.” Mer mentioned looking at you, acting annoyed to tease you. „How about you go on walk with Y/n ? I’m sure she wants to get to know you.” she asked Addison, clearly trying to kill you.
Before anyone could say a word, you turned around. „You know what, I forgot I’m pretty busy dealing with my tumour. I have to go!” you announced, already running of. Leaving the two women stunned behind.
"I'm not going" with anyone from greys. Thank youuuu❤
“I’m not going.”
Addison audibly sighed and shook her head, turning to look pleadingly at Derek. “Can you sort her out, please?”
Derek had a hint of a smirk on his face as he crossed his arms over his chest and shrugged nonchalantly. “She doesn’t want to go,” he said. You were sat on a chair in Richard’s office, which he’d vacated and left to the Shepherds for the sole purpose of discussing whether you would go back with your mother to New York for a short while. You were against the idea. So was Derek. Addison had showed up the day before completely out of the blue, supposedly to do some sort of task for Richard, but also to ask her husband if she could take their daughter back ‘home’ for a short while.
Addison’s jaw tensed. She took the few steps towards Derek and pointed a finger at him. “You have got to be the adult here, Derek,” she all but hissed. “I get it, I’m the bad guy, I ruined our family, but could you just do this one thing for me? If you’re both going to stay here, in your little trailer, then Y/N needs her things. Clothes, school stuff, whatever.”
Derek’s smirk had died down with her words. It was all well and good hating her, but at the end of the day she was your mother, and he didn’t want you hating her.
He nodded in affirmation and Addison took a step back. “Thank you.”
Derek looked at you. “Go with your mom, Y/N,” he said, “it’ll only be for a few days, and then you’ll be back here.”
You glanced between your parents before looking down at your fidgeting hands. Loving one parent and hating-but-not-hating the other was hard. As hell. And you didn’t really want to do it anymore. Sighing, you nodded. “Okay.”
Grey's Masterpost
send me the first sentence of a fanfic and i’ll write the next five, except i don’t know when to stop writing so i guarantee there’ll be more than five
Intro: Hello, lovelies!! I hope you guys are having a good day/night!! Here’s one that’s been bouncing around in my head for a hot minute, enjoy!! :)
Note: Y/N is one of the top cardiothoracic surgeons and has been working at Seattle Grace Hospital for a few months, becoming close with some of the interns and even Dr. Addison Montgomery, what happens when a case of toxic blood comes around and you see Addison risk it to give the patient more anesthesia? Based off of Season 3, Episode 14 Wishin’ and Hopin’
Word Count: 1,242
Since you had transferred over to Seattle Grace Hospital, you hadn’t had a boring day since, there was so much drama in this hospital, not like you were complaining, most times… You had come in to help with the more major surgeries, you being one of the top cardiothoracic surgeons out there, so your help was much needed at the hospital.
You were currently looking over some scans when Addison Montgomery came up beside you, her grabbing a chart from the basket “How are you?” You asked her, knowing that she was going through the divorce at them moment so she knew it would probably be hard for her “I’m fine, why do you ask?” She asked, you able to tell she was putting on a fake face “I was just-” you said, getting interrupted by your pager going off “Duty calls” you said, giving her a small smile which she returned, you feeling your heart flutter when she did, your crush on the obstetrician growing more the more you worked with her.
Later, you were working with Cristina to do an echo on Ellis Grey’s heart, you standing off to the side since you wanted her to do it “Everything alright there, Dr. Yang?” You asked, looking up from your notes and having noticed she was looking a little awkward working on Ellis “Perfectly fine, Dr. Y/L/N” Cristina said, glancing at you and you stared at her for a moment before you nodded, deciding to just let it drop “I want to see the doctor running the Alzheimer's trial” Ellis said, looking at you and you nodded “After this echo, I will let them know” you assured, looking at her and waiting for Cristina to finish before you had someone take Ellis back to her room.
A few hours later, you were heading to get ready for another surgery when your pager went off, making you raise an eyebrow as you rushed towards OR 1 “What’s going on?” You asked, looking at everyone, some of them using masks to breathe “The patient we have currently has toxic blood, knocked us all out” Richard filled you in, looking at you and you looked at the others “So, what do you need from me” you said, ready to help with whatever you needed to.
After a bit, you were helping get Burke and Derek ready to go in with the ortho suits “How much longer until they get here?” You heard Addison ask, glancing at her as she looked into the room “Like ten minutes” you said, finishing tying Burke up before you look at Addison “She’s waking up, we have to do something” she decided, tying a mask on and before you could stop her, she ran into the OR “Addi!” You shouted, following her towards the door, tying a mask on your face as well.
“Get out of there, Addison!” You shouted, watching as she quickly rushed to the machine and injected the girl with more anesthesia to knock her back out, you noticed that Addison was tripping over herself as she was rushing back for the door, you opening the door for her and catching her as she fell through the door “I got you, I got you” you promised, you heart beating a million miles a minute from how nervous you had gotten from her charging into that room “Let's get you on a machine” you said, leading her over and having her sit down before helping her hold a mask to her face.
You watched as she took some deep breaths, still looking out of it “Easy” you said when she tried to stand up, her gripping your arm when you pushed on her shoulder to keep her sitting “I need-” “You need to sit down, don’t you dare argue with me Montgomery” you said sternly, using your doctor voice to which she gave you a look which you ignored as you kneeled down in front of her and rested your hands cautiously on her legs, which she allowed you to do.
“I’m feeling better” you heard her say after a bit of silence, causing you to look up from where you were staring at one of the tiles “Okay” you said softly, standing up and taking the mask from her, the two of you locking eyes for a moment before Derek cleared his throat “We have to get the interns ready” he said, gesturing to them when they came into the room, you pulling away from her quickly as you nodded “Right” you said before going over to help them out.
Once you guys had saved the woman's life, you were walking down the hallway, muttering to yourself as you read over some notes, gasping when someone grabbed your arm and pulled you into a supply closet “What the-” you started, stopping when you were suddenly face to face with Addison Montgomery, the dim lighting making it hard for you to make out much, but you knew it was her, the long, red hair over her shoulders and those beautiful green eyes staring into yours.
“Dr. Montgomery” you breathed, looking at her and you watched as she just silently stared at you for a moment before the next thing you knew, she was crushing her lips onto yours, which made you freeze for a moment before you melted into the kiss and returned it, then you came back to your senses and gently pushed her away “Y/N-” She said, sounding a little hurt at the fact you were pushing her away “Addison… I like you, I do… But you’re just coming out of a divorce with Derek and-” “And what, Y/N? You don’t think I can make my own decisions because of that” she accused, crossing her arms as she looked at you.
You reached out and grasped her arms gently “No, that’s not what it is… I like you too much, I just don’t want to be a rebound” you admitted softly, not wanting to ruin any of this and watching as her expression softened and she gently took one of your hands in hers “You’re not a rebound… Ever since you’ve come here, I couldn’t keep my eyes off you… Do you know how hard it is to try to save your own marriage when you’re sitting there?” She asked, laughing slightly which made you feel a bit guilty since you felt like maybe it was your fault they ended “You are so far from a rebound” she said, resting her forehead against yours which made you smile as you wrapped your arms around her.
The two of you stood there for a bit, just enjoying each other's company before you heard her pager go off “Before you go” you said, grabbing her arm when she went to head off and pulling her back to you, kissing her gently “Are we hiding this?” You asked softly, wanting to know since you didn’t want to tell Calli before you knew the terms “No, no hiding” she assured, giving your hand a squeeze before she pulled away “Good luck out there, Montgomery” you said, giving her a smile which she returned “You too, Y/L/N” she said before heading out of the room, leaving you to smile to yourself before you sighed, deciding to go back to your job, feeling like you were on cloud nine as you went about your business.
Summary: Just some hurt/comfort stuff with Pink Addison, who still feels terrible about the whole ordeal with Spamton and Lightner!Reader (who they're romantically involved with) trying to help them with their guilt once Reader realizes what's happening.
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The long descent into the Dark World was something you'd probably never get used to.
No matter how many times you've done this, your stomach always flips on itself as you fell down, down, down into the darkness. Although you did get accustomed to your normal clothes changing into an outfit more suitable for your travels and type of combat.
Yet you didn't deem it necessary for combat anymore, as you weren't looking to pick any fights. At least not today. You'll skip the sparring matches in the Party Dojo since you had a different mission in mind.
Once you landed on your feet, you didn't waste any more time as you rushed forward into Castle Town. It was bigger and livelier than ever, now with the combined residents of not one but two Dark Worlds.
Despite their homes and businesses being ripped away so abruptly, the Cyber Darkners adjusted to their circumstances fast. It was all thanks to you, Kris, and the others for recruiting them here, not wanting to repeat the mistake of leaving Card World's residents alone after sealing the fountain.
You wandered around, eager to find your partner: Pink Addison. Surely that charismatic salesman was bound to be somewhere, likely looking for you, too.
Though..seeing their tea shop closed was the first sign that something was amiss.
When you last came here to visit the Addisons' residence for the first time, Pink wasn't as "lovey-dovey" as they normally were with you. They just gave you a kiss as usual, but didn't talk to you much, which was concerning. Bringing that up only made them dismiss it as nerves over helping Swatch in the Color Café selling teas, but you knew it wasn't like them to be nervous--especially when they've been selling this product for as long as they've existed.
Maybe it was just the rarity of Darkners falling in love with Lightners that still intimidated them. It wasn't a bad thing; no laws nor prophecies have such relationships written as forbidden. But a few Darkners still had the habit of treating your kind like untouchable gods, not speaking unless spoken to and being fearful of abandonment.
Addisons especially felt this way considering the products they sold were made to appeal to Lightners' online interests. Their whole existence revolved around approval from Lightners.
To deviate from that would, in their eyes, stop the clicks.
You reassured Pink they didn't have to worry about that with you, but even now they still struggled to stop putting you on a pedestal. They always kept talks with you short and sweet, all smiles as if nothing's wrong. And they'd always shower you with gifts. It's their best form of affection, of course, though you realized they're giving you everything except their honest feelings. And that's what worries you.
Their acts became more obvious ever since you encountered them and the other Addisons at the trash dump of Cyber City, speaking of an old ex-friend. None of them even showed you their face, only staring at the wall with their backs turned.
At the time you didn't question it as you assumed they just felt ashamed of their actions towards him. You couldn't blame them. You wouldn't wanna look anyone in the eye either. So you didn't bring it up around Pink until later on, when the Addisons arrived to Castle Town.
You told them that their friend is okay, comfortably living as a part of Kris' armor. They understood and were able to move on, going back to their usual advertising business.
Except for one, unfortunately: The one you love most.
Ever since that talk, Pink seemed more determined than ever to hide their guilt, always making some excuse and avoiding the subject at all costs.
Well, you weren't going to take that anymore. You wanted to come to an understanding before this divided the relationship further. You're certain even Pink can see that, but is scared to say anything for some reason.
First, you had to actually find them.
Checking the café, you saw it was bustling with mainly Cyber residents. Swatchlings were sweeping the floors as Rabbicks sat on their shoulders collecting lint, and the Tasques and Maice were getting along quite well, meowing and squeaking idly.
Alas, there was no sign of your partner. But you didn't give up yet as you walked up to the counter. "Hey, Swatch. You got a second?"
"Welcome back, young master." The head butler finished cleaning a glass, smiling at you in greeting. "How may I help you?"
"Have you seen Pink around lately?"
"Strangely, I have not seen them all day. They were suppose to bring me tea boxes when we opened, but I have yet to receive any. We're running quite low on our popular bran-"
You were both rudely interrupted by a Werewerewire storming up to the counter, slamming their fists on the surface as they buzzed with impatience. You flinched slightly, but didn't dare call them out on their behavior, knowing their temperament.
Somehow Swatch understood their request, only to regretfully nod. "I do apologize, but we are currently out of Werewire Tea. Could I interest you in a substi....oh, they're leaving." The electrical creature left the café, annoyed.
"Werewire Tea?" You tilted your head.
"It's their favorite." Swatch shifted their gaze back to you. "Tastes like energy drinks according to Pink. But back to our discussion...it is unusual for them not to show up, especially when this is their livelihood. Perhaps they're not feeling up to par?"
"That's what I'm worried about. They're acting emotionally distant, too, and...I feel like something from their past is still haunting them."
"Hm, well whatever it is..I have faith you two will sort it out. I would check their place of residence next. I'm not in dire need of tea, so you can tell Pink not to worry about it today."
"Alrighty, I will." You smiled at Swatch. "Thanks."
"Of course, young master. Take care."
Heeding their advice, you decided to check the Addisons' shared home. It was in one of the neighborhoods deeper within the town, resembling a large storefront with electronic ads all over it. With all the flashing lights it was impossible to miss.
The passcode to enter was one that only Addison-related Darkners were meant to know, but Pink was nice enough to give it to you. So you inputted the numbers 1997 and invited yourself inside upon hearing the door unlock.
"Hello?" You called out, wondering if anyone else was home, though the silence made you worried Pink wasn't here.
You ventured further anyway and eventually came across their room. All of the Addisons had color-coded doors, with your partner's having hearts etched into the pink painted wood.
The second you raised a hand to knock, the door swung open and you saw your beloved Addison in their usual suit and lime green pants. Though you noticed their suit was unbuttoned and looked horribly wrinkled, not to mention their ponytail wasnt up at all, leaving their hair unkempt.
Usually they obsessed over looking their best, so something was clearly wrong.
"I-I'm so sorry! I must've overslept! Oh jeez oh man I need to get these teas to Swatch ASAP-!" They rambled a mile a minute as they scrambled to steady the boxes in their hands, only to pause as they felt two hands on their shoulders.
"Pink, it's me. Calm down."
It took them a moment to realize you weren't an Addison, and they sighed tiredly, their shoulders relaxing a little. "O-Oh..hey, sweetheart. Wanna help me get these teas to-?"
"Swatch doesn't need them today. I just wanna talk to you."
Despite Pink's eyes being closed, you could see they were struggling to keep them shut--a sign of great stress. "Talk? What's....there to talk about? Except the sweet deals I'm gonna make today??"
"How about we talk..about the fact you've been avoiding me and not being honest about your feelings? Especially about that day?"
"...right..I...I know and I'm sorry, but I can make it up to you! W-With a free sample of my new and improved-!"
"Pink, I'm not drinking any more of your teas until you tell me what's wrong."
A sharp gasp escaped them as their eyes snapped open in shock. A box unconsciously slipped out of their grasp, but you caught it and took the rest from their hands. The last thing they needed was to stress over dropped tea boxes.
As much as you hated to say that, you had no choice. It was the only way they'll listen to you.
"Hun..look at yourself. You look exhausted and anxious. Don't tell me it's because of work because we both know that's not it at all. I wanna know the truth. You're not fooling me again."
After a few moments, they wordlessly nodded and went back into their room. You shut the door behind you and set the tea boxes on one of the chairs, though you heard a sniffle.
"O-Okay..okay..keep it together, Pink.."
You looked back to see them curled up on their bed, covering their face with their hands. Now their shoulders were trembling with small whimpers, and they shrank away from you as they sensed you sitting beside them.
"I-I'm sorry..I'm so sorry..I shouldn't be like this at all. N-Not in front of a beautiful Light neR like yourself." Their voice was glitching slightly, though not to the degree of Spamton's. But they were still very stressed out.
"Hey, it's okay. It's nothing to be ashamed of." You gently pulled their hands away from their face, your heart breaking upon seeing the tears. Some slid onto their nose and dripped off the tip of it, splattering onto their pants. Their messy bangs did little to hide their eyes--voids with tiny pink lights that shimmered with those same tears.
Only now you can see just what a mess they were behind closed doors. It made you wish you've been more persistent in the past, but at least now you were.
"Will you hate me if I told you the truth..about him?"
"No, never." Cupping one side of their face with your hand, you made sure they knew your response was genuine. "Please talk to me."
"Okay...to be honest..It..wasn't just all of us who decided to stop hanging out with him. It was me. I made that call." They confessed, squeezing their eyes shut. "I-I told him "you left us in the dust", "you don't need us", "you'll find better friends." But when Blue..s-said he went missing a month later, I thought I screwed up. I thought he died, [y/n]! I thought that for years. I feel like I played a part in destroying his life. It was my fault..my stupidity and jealousy that ruined everything for him!! I hurt him so much and...and I can NEVER take any of it back!! I-I hurt him, lied to you..a-and...god why do I keep doing stupid things to people I care about?!!" They began to yell and tremble.
Seeing them at their breaking point, you brought them into a hug. And that's all it took as they buried their face into your chest. Their cries were quiet and muffled against you, but it wasn't any less heartbreaking to hear.
"It's alright..shhh..let it all out." You comforted, running a hand through their hair.
It didn't take them long to break down, and to see them reduced to this much of an emotional wreck ached your SOUL. But now you understood why they wanted to hide this side of themselves for this long. They didn't want you to see them as anything more than a salesman with romantic marketing strategies.
"I-I'm sorry...I'm such an idiot. H-Had I known...I never..I never would'a-"
"Darling, it wasn't your fault that his life went downhill. Nobody could've known that was gonna happen to him. You didn't make his business fail. So it's not your fault at all."
"That doesn't..ch-change the fact we weren't there for him when he needed us most. Why did I have to get so jealous? Why me? I-I feel awful and sick.."
"Jealousy isn't good, yes..but it's more common than you think. It can get the best of many people, even me." You rubbed their back. "What matters is how you feel after it blows over. Either it consumes you and turns you into someone hateful, or you feel guilty about it and realize it's wrong..like you are now."
"S-So..I'm not awful?" They mumbled into your chest, still sobbing.
"No, and you're certainly not an idiot."
You could feel Pink relax slightly as they hugged your waist, nuzzling into you once they realized you're not angry at them. At this point, you two were just cuddling on the bed together with them on top of you.
As you looked at them, you could only imagine how long they must've been waiting for someone to come down here and tell them that.
It's what they deserved to hear. They helped heal your physical wounds from fights when you first met them in the city, flustering you with flirtatious remarks that made your days brighter. Now you were returning the favor by being a shoulder--or chest in this case--for them to cry on, helping them heal their emotional wounds from an inner struggle they've tried burying under smiles and funny advertisements.
For a few minutes no words were exchanged until they slowly started calming down. "I'm..sorry for avoiding you. I just..didn't think you'd love me anymore after hearing the truth. That I made such a stupid, silly mistake."
"I know you were afraid, but... I forgive you and still love you. Absolutely nothing in this Dark World will ever stop me from loving you, hun."
"..h-hah..usually I'm the one with the cheesy romantic lines." They looked up at you with their eyes closed. "Thank you for listening..I-I promise I won't let this whole thing drag me down again. And...sorry I'm such a mess. You have your own worries and shouldn't have to see me like-"
But you shut them up with a kiss on the lips, which made them blush as you pulled away and smiled. "Pink, relationships are a two-way street. I care about your feelings just as much as you care about mine. We're equals now, remember that."
They nodded and snuggled up to you. "I'll try...you mind if we stayed like this for a while? I feel like I owe you TLC big time." They planted a soft kiss on your neck.
"I'm fine with that." You chuckled, relieved that they opened up to you and finally started treating you like a partner.
You couldn't erase all of their guilt, but you'll help them cope with it better.
