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Counting the seconds
Addison Montgomery x Reader
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
ALMOST MET (Series)
Gwendoline Christie x freader
Chapter: One
Words: 1185 (short chapter)
Warnings: none that I know of well except maybe fake sword fights.
Summary: Y/n gets a role in game of thrones season three and happens to catch a glimpse of Gwendoline Christie on set. Will they ever meet ?
Authors note: I will update as soon as you want more. Already wrote chapter two and three so don’t worry. It’s not impossible that I’m to lazy to reread sometimes, so don’t be alarmed if you find larger spelling mistakes. Enjoy <3 (hopefully)
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She stood just beyond the flurry of crew members, her boots crunching softly on gravel, her breath slightly quick from excitement and nerves. Her short brown hair was a little tousled from the breeze, curls fluttering around her cheeks, and her dark eyes darted from tent to tent, camera rig to costumed actor. Everything was new. Everything was enormous. And yet, she couldn’t stop smiling.
“Alright, Y/n?” a kind voice asked, brushing past her with a clipboard clutched tightly in hand. It was one of the production assistants — Nora, maybe? Or Natalie?
Y/n nodded quickly. “Yeah! I mean—yes. Just… taking it all in.”
The assistant smiled and didn’t press further, disappearing into the organized chaos of the set. Y/n smoothed her hands down her jacket and inhaled, steadying herself. This was her first day filming for Game of Thrones — she’d been cast as a new character in Season 3, a minor noblewoman with ties to one of the northern houses. Nothing groundbreaking, but enough screen time to be noticeable. Enough to mean something. And definitely enough to make her knees weak with anticipation.
She wandered slowly, letting her curiosity guide her. She passed groups of extras in furs and armor, their modern sneakers poking out from beneath chainmail until someone inevitably scolded them. She passed a catering tent where someone laughed too loudly, the sound rising above the soft hum of conversation. She paused at one of the trailers to peer at the name on the door: Lena Headey. Her stomach flipped — the Cersei Lannister — and she quickly kept walking, cheeks warm.
As she rounded a cluster of prop wagons, the sound of shouting caught her attention. Not angry shouting, but the kind of intense projection used in dramatic scenes. Instinctively, she stepped closer, drawn toward the energy.
In a field sectioned off by equipment and lighting rigs, a scene was unfolding. Two actors were in the thick of a heated exchange — swords out, voices sharp. One of them, a tall woman in armor, stood poised like a statue carved from marble and fury. Her blond hair was cropped close, shorter than Y/n’s own curls, and framed her chiseled features with sharp elegance. She was captivating.
Gwendoline Christie.
Even from where she stood, Y/n could feel the strength of her presence. She radiated confidence, every movement controlled yet powerful. Her voice carried easily across the field, and not just because of volume — there was something magnetic about it, something that made people turn their heads.
Y/n didn’t realize she was holding her breath until the other actor lunged, and Gwendoline blocked the blow with effortless grace. It wasn’t a real fight, of course, but the choreography was so clean it might as well have been. Y/n found herself leaning slightly forward, hands curled in the sleeves of her jacket, a little starstruck. She’d seen Gwendoline on screen before, of course, but nothing compared to seeing her in the flesh — the raw intensity of her performance, the way she occupied space without demanding it.
As the scene neared its end, the director — a stocky man with salt-and-pepper hair and a bright scarf wrapped around his neck — caught sight of Y/n out of the corner of his eye. He turned away from the monitor, beaming.
“There you are! Y/n, come here a sec!” he called, waving her over.
Y/n startled, blinking as if waking from a dream. She gave an awkward, apologetic smile and quickly made her way toward him, boots crunching softly against the grass.
From the field, Gwendoline’s gaze flicked up just in time to see a petite woman with short, dark waves disappearing behind the tents with the director. She tilted her head slightly, catching only the edges of a smile before it vanished from view.
“Who was that?” she murmured, mostly to herself. The scene was called to a cut, but Gwendoline remained still for a moment, eyes narrowing thoughtfully at the space where the newcomer had stood. Then she shook herself, laughing a little under her breath. “Curious,” she said to no one in particular, and moved to reset for another take.
Meanwhile, Y/n followed the director toward a smaller tent set up beside one of the equipment trailers. The air inside was warmer, thick with the scent of coffee and freshly printed scripts.
“Sorry to pull you away like that,” the director said, offering her a seat. “Just wanted to touch base before we get into blocking tomorrow. You settling in okay?”
“Oh, yes! Thank you,” Y/n said quickly, sitting with her hands folded in her lap. “Everyone’s been really nice. It’s… a lot, but in a good way.”
“Glad to hear it,” he said, flipping through a folder. “You’ve got some good scenes coming up — we wanted someone with expressive eyes and a kind presence. You nailed the audition, by the way.”
Y/n blushed, lowering her gaze with a shy smile. “That means a lot. I really love this world.”
He grinned. “Well, you’re a part of it now. You’ll be in scenes with Robb Stark’s crowd, mostly, but we might have you cross paths with Brienne later in the season. Gwendoline, that is.”
Her ears perked up at the name. “Oh, she’s incredible,” she murmured before she could stop herself. “I, um… I saw her filming earlier. She’s just—wow.”
The director chuckled. “Yeah, she’s something else. Kind as hell, too. You’ll like her.”
Y/n nodded, but a flicker of nervousness danced in her chest. She wasn’t used to sharing space with people so… commanding. And yet, something about Gwendoline’s presence didn’t feel intimidating, exactly. More like… intriguing.
“Anyway,” the director continued, pushing the folder toward her, “here’s your shooting schedule for the next few days. Nothing too early, and we’ll get you into costume this afternoon for a quick fitting.”
Y/n took the folder, her fingers brushing the worn edges. “Thanks,” she said softly.
As she stepped out of the tent a few minutes later, the clouds had shifted. The sun peeked through, casting a warm halo of light over the fields and tents. In the distance, a tall silhouette with armor and golden hair caught her eye before vanishing around the corner.
Y/n stood still for a moment, heart ticking a little faster.
And somewhere nearby, Gwendoline Christie was asking a crew member, “Do you know who that new girl is?”
Neither of them knew it yet, but the first spark had already flickered to life.
<<To be continued>>
In every way (One shot)
Wanda Maximoff x Reader
* not my gif*
Summary: You developed feelings for Wanda, not knowing what to do you confront the older woman.
Warnings: really obvious mention of sex, making out, touching, kissing, soft domWanda, loss of virginity, flirting, age gap (reader is 22 and Wanda 31), tell me if there is more :)
A/n: my second one shot. I hope you’ll like it and please feel free to leave feedback and ideas or requests for further fanfics.
* englisch is not my first language.
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It had never been a problem. But now it was almost unbearable.
“Are you sure ?”
“Yes of course. She wants to torture me!!”
“Maybe she’s just horny”
“That’s the problem! Don’t you understand??“ you looked helpless at your best friend. She was smirking mischievously, not taking you seriously. You scoffed as you watched Natasha take a sip out of her drink, seeming unbothered.
“You should be happy. I don’t get how you’re sitting here crying about your hot milf being horny. Go and get some dirty sex.”- Natasha said, wiggling her eyebrows. You blushed at her words, shaking your head before you glanced at her annoyed. -“Don’t call her that” You watched Natasha chuckle as she lifted her head to look at you properly.
“Seriously, what is your problem?” Her stare was nonchalant but didn’t allow you to look away. You nervously fidgeted with your hands, thinking about how you should put it. It was simple.
“I’ve never been with anyone before- I mean intimate.”
Natasha choked at your words, her eyes widening as she tried to think of something to say. She didn’t have to tell you that she was beyond surprised, she made it clear with her reaction. The never even slightly shaken redhead, always completely nonchalant and relaxed, was speechless. For almost 5 minutes she just stared at you puzzled.
She finally spoke up again- „That’s- well new. I thought you- Never mind. It’s okay, completely normal.” she somewhat smiled, trying to comfort you. She sensed the distress this whole situation put you in.
„Wanda likes you. She really does. And I think she will take good care of you.” Natasha cringed at her choice of words, seeing you move uncomfortably in your seat.
“I mean, she probably has plenty of experience. And maybe that’s what scares you the most but she will guide you. Maybe you should just talk with her about it, I’m not the best option”
You nod- “Thank you, Tasha. I think that’s for the best, even if it’s going to be embarrassing. “
“Don’t be afraid to talk to her. Everyone noticed how deeply she admires you. And I’m pretty sure she will be quite happy to be the first one to have you like that. “
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After your conversation with the redhead, you texted the older woman, asking her if you could come over this evening. She immediately agreed after she read the message, telling you she looked forward to see you again.
It was new and you wouldn’t know how to call what’s been blossoming between the two of you. It started as a friendship. Wanda approached you one day, introducing herself as a friend of Nat. You remember that night quite vividly, it was one of the many get-togethers you were invited to. You rarely missed them but you never saw her before. Maybe you just haven’t noticed her but you thought of that as unlikely. She was the center of attention, confident, charming, funny, sweet and of course utterly beautiful. You’re not exaggerating when you describe how breathtaking she is. You were completely intimidated by her, not just her looks but her.
But somehow you managed to engage yourself in a rich conversation with the older woman. It was hard at first, being nervous and shy under the attention but it got easier and before you even noticed a hour had gone by, then two and three until you had to leave. But not before the woman got your number, smiling sweetly as she told you to get home safely, ensuring you would hear from her. And you did hear from her.
After that you spend many more hours in her presence, enjoying every second of it.
Things changed after some time, she got touchy. If it was a hand on your leg whenever you sat in reach, a hand on the small of your back guiding you, her arm always around your waist when the two of you where out in public. You where ashamed to admit that you liked the touching, it was fair to say that you even craved them. She always had a hand on you in some way and you happily let her.
The moment it all got more intense still lingers in your mind from time to time.
*You were sitting next to her on the couch, while she talked about some of her work stuff. Her hand lingered on your thigh like always, she drew small circles on your shorts comforting you in ways only she could. You watched her talk, seeing her lips moving but not really paying attention. Your lack of focus was to blame on her. The way she touched you, the way she looked. She was leaning sideways on the sofa, so she could face you, her head leaning on her hand. She wore a simple outfit which looked stunning on her. Her eyes were deep green and oh how delicious her lips looked.
“Y/n, are you listening?” Wanda watched amused as you collect yourself quickly. Blushing sweetly, as you catch her eyes again, seeming to have been somewhere else.
“Yes, of course” you swallow dryly as you saw Wanda tilt her head. You were lying and she knew it.
“Care to tell me what got you so distracted?”
“Nothing.. just- you are..” you stammer helplessly. The older woman watched amused as you got all nervous. She of course already knew what had stolen your mind. She noticed how you looked at her. And it drove her mad.
“Shhh it’s okay, sweetheart. I know exactly what you want.” Wanda leaned in, letting her hand wander to your waist pulling you closer. *
She kissed you the first time that day, it was passionate and still so soft. That day you also got addicted to the sensation of her lips on yours. You loved how it felt, how easy it was. Kissing her had become one of your favourite things to do. You never talked about it, it was just normal. The two of you would meet and talk, between those conversation Wanda would steal a kiss or two, leaving you breathless as she continued the conversation as if nothing had happened.
You like it that way but it also scares the shit out of you. You catch yourself thinking of her every free minute, longing for her, missing her. You have developed some kind of feelings for the older woman and that was definitely not good. You don’t even know what you are for her. What she thinks of you, if this is all a amusing game for her. It wasn’t that unlikely she never said she wanted something serious with you, she never said anything. And you where too afraid to ask, scared to ruin what you have.
A few days ago, maybe a week or two, Wanda started kissing you a lot more. The way she kissed you grew different too. It was more intense, you would even say heated and hungry. She let her hands wander more freely, normally they would just linger on your waist but now she caressed your sides, letting her hands wander dangerously close to your ass. Sometimes when you talked her hand would massage your thigh, letting her palm wander higher and closer to the space between your legs, making you squirm and forget your next words.
That’s when you searched for the advice of your best friend, leading to you standing in front of her house.
You knocked loudly waiting nervously, shifting your weight from one foot to another. As she finally opened the door you couldn’t help the smile that formed on your lips.
“Hey Sweetie, come in.” she greeted you stepping aside, so you could walk past her. She closed the door behind you, walking up to you with a bright smile adoring her lips. You put your hands on her arms as she pulled you closer, resting her hands on your hips.
“I missed you.” you confessed, your voice almost a whisper as you looked up to her.
“Ohh sweetheart” she cooed, caressing your cheek gently. You leaned into the touch automatically, scolding yourself in your mind. Nevertheless you couldn’t help put peck her lips, making her chuckle as she gave you a quick hug.
„Come on, I cooked something for us.” she revealed taking your hand leading you to the kitchen. You followed her eagerly, loving everything she does for you. She gestures for you to sit at the table as she walked behind the kitchen counter, taking out to plates and serving the fresh lasagna she just pulled out of the oven.
The dinner went by event less, with easy conversation and you praising her food over and over. You helped her clean up the kitchen afterwards, thanking her for the meal.
“Want some?” Wanda held out a bottle red wine, smiling charmingly already taking out two glasses.
“Yeah why not.”
She nodded satisfied, taking the bottle and glasses to the living room, smiling as you followed her immediately. She poured you a glass, making sure to fill half the space, handing it to you after pouring herself some wine. You sat down next to her, taking a sip of the rich liquid.
“So what is bothering you?” Wanda suddenly asked, breaking the silence. Her green eyes study your form thoroughly, letting you know she’s listening. Wondering how she noticed your distress, you try to think of ways to say what has been scaring you. You let it all out.
“I like you. I like you more than I should and I don’t even know what we are and what you think of me. I don’t know if you want me the way I want you. I think about you a lot and I miss you a lot and I want to be with you. A lot. Maybe this is just fun for you, a fling or I don’t know. But please tell me because I’m starting to- no I already have feelings for you. And -“ Wanda put a quick end to your nervous ramble as she pressed her lips on yours. Pulling you closer as she devoured you in a passionate kiss. She let go of you after you both ran out of breath, catching your eyes as she smiled fondly.
“I like you too.” she whispered kissing your cheek, her face hovering only inches away from yours.
“This isn’t just fun for me. I want you in every way possible.” she leaned in to kiss that surprised look on your face.
“Honey, don’t worry you’re already mine.” she stated, her voice full of lust and admiration. You sighed relieved, a weight falling of your shoulder. She still held you close, you both sitting sideways on the couch, her arm around your back and the other in your hair, gently massaging your scalp as she looked at you. No one said anything, the two of you just looking at each other, enjoying the calm atmosphere.
After a minute or two you blushed, your face heating up under the intense gaze of the woman in front of you. A grin formed on Wanda’s lips as she noticed, admiring your shy behaviour. Embarrassed you try to hide your face in the crock of her neck but she gently pushed you down onto the couch. Leaning over you, resting between your legs, her arms holding her up on each side of your head.
“How am I supposed to kiss you, if you try to hide that adorable face of yours ?” Wanda asked smiling as she watched you look up at her, nervous about the position Wanda put you in. She couldn’t help but lean in, capturing your lips in a delicious kiss, she moaned as she pushed her tongue in your mouth, really tasting you for the first time. You were startled at first, never having kissed like that before but you quickly got used to the new sensation, letting your tongue dance with hers until you ran out of breath.
The older woman leaned down to your neck kissing your soft skin over and over, nibbling and biting until silent whimpers left your mouth. Her hand wandered under your shirt, caressing your stomach, her fingers tracing the hem of your bra.
“Wanda, wait please.”
She immediately stopped, lifting her head to look at you, worry written all over her face.
„What’s wrong, sweetheart? You want me to slow down?” she kissed your cheek softly, her hand still under your shirt now slowly drawing circles on your skin. She studied you closely, trying to read your face as you struggled to say what’s bothering you.
“We can stop, if your uncomfortable. Watch a movie and cuddle, I’m not mad I promise.”
“It’s not that. I’m- I have never- I’m a virgin.” You looked at her, expecting annoyance to cross her face but you only saw a honest smile lingering on her lips.
“Oh sweetie, you should have told me. I was ready to pounce on you.” She chuckled, kissing your face a few times.
“I would love to be your first. Let me make love to you. I will make you feel so good, if you want me to.”
You nod immediately, making her smile as she leaned in to capture your lips again. Her movements now slower and if possible even softer, bringing you only pleasure and pure bliss. She made you come undone several times that night, on the sofa, in the shower and finally on her bed. The two of you fell asleep after, she was holding you close, your naked bodies tangled into each other.
Hey, any plans to continue the Addison fic? I’m obsessed🥹
I do, but I’m so busy I’m not able to get it done. I still want to tho, so the minute I have some time I will write the next chapter. I will try within the next month :) have a nice day <3
I’ll do anything (One shot)
Wanda Maximoff x fReader
*Not my gif*
Words: 5799
Summary: What happens if you’re suddenly alone with Wanda, just wanting to make her feel better ?
Warnings: 18+ ,milf!Wanda, soft smut, oral(w receiving), fingering(r&w receiving), breastfeeding, mommy kink, breast play, age gap (reader is 19), first time (r), teasing, if there’s more tell me.
A/n: My first time writing smut or even an one shot, sooo don’t be too hard on me. Well have a nice week :)
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You made your way up the stairs and left the old tunnel, seeing the bus stop not far from you . A warm wind immediately passed by as you walked across the street. You made sure to look for cars, but luckily its a really small village so cars are rare. You walked up to the station and sat down on one of the benches, waiting for your ride.
Closing your eyes you enjoyed the sun tickling your skin, the smell of wood and old buildings invaded your nose, listening to the rush of the wind comping through the grain. You quietly sat there as the time passed by and after a few more minutes, you finally saw the bus stopping in front of you .
On your way to the Maximoff’s you already felt nervous all over your body. You were babysitting the twins of Wanda, you would come over for a few hours and go back home, a few times a month. But it wasn’t the twins you were so nervous about, it was they’re mom. She isn’t rude or anything, actually she was always kind to you. Sometimes she would come home later than usual, being busy with work. On this evening’s she would insist you staying for dinner, she would even offer to drive you home, being worried about you taking the bus at such late hours. But her kindness wasn’t the only thing about her, she is truly the prettiest woman you’ve ever seen. It was really hard to interact with her, when just her voice would make you weak in the knees. But apart from that there is absolutely nothing, well your not expecting something. Nevertheless it was hard to keep your cool around her, something about her was just consuming.
The bus stopped finally in the village, Wanda lived in. You left the bus, looking around, already seeing Wanda’s door. Not wanting to let her wait, knowing how tight her schedule is, you wandered towards her porch. The twins were just a few month old now, almost a year, but you kinda grew close to them. And you looked forward every time to watch them. From time to time Wanda was breastfeeding them, but they mostly got baby porridge, so when they’re mom wasn’t home , your task was to feed them with porridge. You would often prepare it yourself, smashing fruits or vegetables and give it to them. On some days Wanda told you to feed them the milk she pumped up, having trouble, cause lately she produced a lot more than necessary.
You are ashamed, but often you thought about how her milk would taste, that weren’t the only thoughts in your head, when Wanda was around. You couldn’t help it but think of her this way, you tried to push the thoughts away, but even asleep your dreams were filled with naughty images.
Knocking, you waited a few moments already hearing shuffling from the other side of the door. Not even a few seconds later the door opened with a click, revealing the older woman smiling at you.
„I’m so glad you made it, I’m in a hurry but please come in.”she rambled letting you in, you closed the door behind you, as she already walked away. Wanda was wearing a tight black dress, hugging her beautiful curves. She was stumbling trough the house only wearing one heal the other in her hand, collecting a few things. She was obviously stressed, making you a little worried, so you decided to help her a bit, you quickly found her small handbag and keys and dropped them on a small shelf right in the hallway. You continued helping her collecting her usual stuff, so she could get ready. She smiled at you in thanks and walked up the stairs probably to use the bathroom real quick.
Happily you made your way to the twins, pulling silly faces making the boys smile, as you tucked them in. Wanda was already downstairs and watched you from the door, smiling to herself. She deeply thrusted you with her children, she was happy to have found someone like you. You always tried to make her life a little easier, it would be simple stuff you do to help her, but it meant a lot to her. You could only do your job you get paid for, this was exactly the think you did but you did so much more. She also really liked your company, being alone all day wasn’t easy. Not just that, you are really sweet and funny. Wanda always enjoyed to make you blush, it was a easy task for her, the slightest thinks made you flush and she would find a lot of joy in these moments with you. Wanda snapped out of her trance, as she realised how late she actually was. A quick loot to the clock and she already made her way to the door, walking past you. „I will be back this evening, have fun.” she said in a hurry, already halfway trough the door.
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It was almost time for Wanda to come back home , as you heard someone harshly knock at the door. You already laid the boys to sleep and read a good night story to them. You wondered who would disturb at such a late hour, as you made your way down the stairs to the door. It couldn’t be Wanda, she had a key and wouldn’t want to risk waking her kids with knocking this loudly.
When you opened the door Wanda’s ex husband hovered over you. Immediately you felt uneasy, you didn’t liked him and he didn’t liked you, but of course you were always kind. Well at least you tried for Wanda. Now he was just annoying you. „Do you need something?” you questioned, trying to sound less pisses you cleared your throat. He looked behind you for something or someone and then finally thought your worth looking at. He practically stared you down, as he tried to get past you. „Im here to get the boy‘s.“ he made his plan clear, but you wouldn’t let him do that before Wanda approved and you certainly wouldn’t just let him walk into her house. You took a step forward, walking out, leaning against the door.
„I’m sorry but you literally didn’t came to pick them up today, leaving Wanda in a lot of stress.”you raised your voice the slightest bit, still trying to be kind and you really didn’t want to wake the twins. You actually weren’t supposed to watch the boys today at the first place but Vision decided to don’t show up, again. And now he’s here, you really want to hold a lecture but held yourself together. „This is none of your fucking business”he attacked, suddenly trying to push past you again. This time you raised your hands to his chest and pushed him back, braking his patience. He had enough, he grabbed your collar and was about to slam you against the door as someone pulled him back. Still in shock you looked at your rescuer, seeing Wanda standing beside her ex. „Are you out of your mind? What do you think your doing, huh?”Wanda almost screamed at him, while she looked at him in disbelief.
„Y/n, can you please go inside?”she turned, questioned you with pleading eyes. You nodded but first you send a dark glare his direction. With a huff you turned around and left to go to the living room.
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20 minutes later you still patiently waited for Wanda in the living room, hearing the muffled noises of their arguing voices. You couldn’t make out what they’re were talking about so you just hoped vision would leave sooner or later. It was also a lot later than the other times you’ve watched the twins and the last bus you could’ve taken was already gone. Knowing that you had to walk home you grimaced uncomfortably, it’s not that far but would at least take an hour. Of course you don’t mind, spending your time at the older woman’s house has lately been you’re favourite thing to do.
Over the past few months, you slowly but surely grew fond of the ginger and her little angels. You would always be exited to spend yet another day with the sweet boys, seeing them grow up and blossom. Oh and how you loved the short moments you could spend with their mom, always eager to please her.
The door being pushed open rather angrily caught your attention as you saw the taller woman walking up the stairs while her ex husband following her with a smug look. You heard them shuffling trough the boys room, not even minutes later you saw vision walking down the stairs, the twins in his arms, this time Wanda following him to the door. „I’ll expect you to bring them back this Monday, on time.“ Wanda made clear before saying goodbye to her kids and gently closing the door. You heard her sigh as she made her way to the couch you currently sat on. You looked up to her beautiful features to lock eyes, she gave you a tired smile as she sat down beside you, leaning back a bit as she calmed her breathing. „Is everything alright?“you asked carefully, not wanting to stress her further.
„I’m sorry, you had to witness that.“ she ignored your question, apologising instead. „It’s not your fault.“you just said „I hope everything is alright but it’s really late and I should get home“you began, starting to get up from her side as she suddenly grabbed your wrist. You turned back , looking at her questioningly as to why she did what she’s still doing.
„How are you going to get home?” she let go of your wrist looking up to you worried. You were perfectly aware that if you told her, you had to walk all the way home, she would definitely insist on driving you.
„Like always” you smiled, hoping she would let you go. She scoffed, her eyes filled with a suspicious glint making you advert yours. „Don’t lie to me, darling. I know you have to walk, since I had you stay longer than usual.” she cleared in a low tired voice, almost making you regret your small lie. Wanda had already decided for herself that you’re going to stay tonight, she was to worried to let you walk home alone. So many bad things could happen to you and if she’s being honest she longed for your company right now.
She’s drained, she needs her favourite person.
„Stay” she demanded, her voice firm but reassuring as she watched a slight blush form on your face.
„I couldn’t-“ you were about to decline as she stopped you immediately. „You can and you will. It’s my fault you missed your bus, so please I insist.” she stood up laying her soft hand on your shoulder, as you nodded hesitantly, agreeing defeated, making her smile as she tilted her head to get a better look of your face.
„Let’s watch a movie, make yourself comfortable-“ she gestured to the couch you sat on minutes ago „ I’ll be right back, honey” she assured you as she walked past you, making her way up the stairs, leaving you alone. You sat down on one end to hopefully get as much space between you and Wanda as you could. Not that you wanted it that way but you were a nervous wreck around the older woman and couldn’t risk her noticing what an effect she had on you. You couldn’t help but notice how beautiful she looked every time you lay eyes on her and having her touch you just the slightest, lit your skin on fire. So it was probably the best to stay away, for your own safety.
Picking up the tv remote, you opened Netflix hoping to find a good series or movie to watch with the redhead. Minutes later, after scrolling trough at least thirty options, you decided for „ocean’s eight”. Right on time you heard Wanda walk into the living room as she hummed gently at your movie choice. You watched her take a seat next to you, she changed her clothes into something more comfortable, in her hands to cups of some liquid still unknown to you. She handed one to you immediately as you thanked her quietly to which she responded with a warm smile, her eyes still remaining on your tense form in the corner, for her liking to far away from her. She knew you’d be shy, you’re always around her. She found it cute but she wanted to hold you for a bit.
„Don’t be shy. Come here, sweetie.” she cooed, opening her arms for you and taking the cup from your hands, putting both down on the small table in front of you . You didn’t let her ask twice as you eagerly scooted over, letting her wrap an arm around your waist, while you leaned your head on her collar. She waited for you to get comfortable till she grabbed the soft blue blanket neatly folded on the arm lean on her side, pulling it over the two of you. You sighed happily being wrapped up warm and tight in the arms of the woman next to you. Wanda grabbed the remote, starting the movie as she smiled to herself, pulling you closer.
Thirty minutes into the movie you couldn’t help but get distracted by the literal goddess next to you, the small circles she drew on your hips with her finger, didn’t help in the slightest, the tickling sensation driving you insane. Being so close to her was new but also exiting and you loved it. She did hug you, held your hand or even put a hand on the small of your back to guide you a few times before but you were never this close. And it made you nervous especially when you could here the sound of her heartbeat and feel her chest heave evenly under you.
Turning your head carefully to get a look of her features you saw her concentrating on the movie, her green eyes shimmering in the lights of the television in front of her, her beautiful pink lips the slightest bit apart, as she breathed slowly through her nose.
Of course Wanda noticed you staring at her minutes after, as you still gazed up, your eyes lingering on her lips.
The redhead knew how you would always follow her with your eyes, this amazed look on you, making her smile over and over. She loved the attention you gave her, every time she felt bad about herself, about her body, more so after the pregnancy, you gave her new confidence with your longing looks. It was also quite amusing to see you get all flustered when she just looked at you for a second and how you were always so eager to please her, making sure everything is right.
A few months ago she began to notice, how your eyes would drift to her chest a few times mid conversation or how you pushed your thighs together when she gave you even just a small amount of attention. You were such a greedy little thing, but you were so obvious about everything, she didn’t even knew if you noticed all this yourself. She couldn’t blame you though, it was normal for people at your age to be like this. At first she wondered why you didn’t longed for girls or boys your age, surely being around them more often but she soon stopped, simply accepting the fact and even enjoying it.
„You need something?” she asked teasingly, fully aware of your embarrassed state as she looked down,catching you stare. You froze not knowing what to say „n-no” you got out your face probably red by the feeling of heat in your cheeks. Wanda chuckled earning a puzzled look as you turned your head away again, only to see two wet patched on the redheads shirt.
„Wanda” you carefully begann, getting her attention rather quickly as you mentioned to her chest. She groaned in displeasure „Oh damn it!” she cursed, looking at the leaked milk soaking through her shirt.
She sat up, making you scoot over to give her some place. „I’ll have to pump real quick, so be patient and wait for me sweetie” she sighed before standing up and making her way into the kitchen. You sank back into the cushion your face flushed completely because you couldn’t help but think of tasting her , this thought embarrassed you deeply. Not knowing how you could th- you were interrupted as you heard the redhead curse angrily under her breath causing you to look up.
„Are you okay?” you questioned loud enough for her to hear as she walked back into the living room.
„Not really, the pump somehow broke and now isn’t working.” she started to explain, the frustration heavy in her voice.
“It’s starting to hurt and my breast feel really sore.”she stated sitting back down with a helpless sigh. You nodded understandingly, feeling really bad for her, just wanting to make her feel better.
„Is there any way I can help you?”you wanted to know, honest concern laying in your eyes, making her look at you with a thoughtful expression.
„Depends on what you’re willing to do?” she cleared, still looking really upset about the situation she found herself in.
„I’ll do anything.”you somehow agreed immediately making her smile at your willing state. She didn’t thought twice about it, pulling you into her lap grabbing your waist gently, to pull you closer. You watched her stunned as she pulled of her shirt and tossed it to the side. You didn’t dare to look down, letting your eyes linger on her beautiful features as she leaned in. You felt her warm breath tickling your ear „Drink my milk” she whispered in a low steady voice making your face heat up in seconds.
As she leaned back again to catch your eyes, your mouth was slightly agape completely losing it, making her grin at your adorable expression. You couldn’t grasp your head around what she just asked of you, not really knowing if she was serious. But she cleared your inner questions as she nodded towards her still covered chest with an assuring smile.
Looking down you saw her breast perfectly cupped by the black bra. Wanda wanted you take the fabric of yourself and you knew it. She wanted to make sure you were aware that it’s your choice to continue and not only hers. Finally composed enough, you guided your hand to her back to find the clip, while your other hand slowly slid the strings, holding the bra partly up, of her shoulders, feeling her soft skin brush against your hand making you shudder in anticipation.
All this while Wanda watched you curiously, she could practically feel your nervousness and excitement bussing in your body. She didn’t had to ask if you did that before, it was obvious you didn’t, it was almost written all over your face, she enjoyed this discovery a lot more than she should, feeling honoured to be your „first time” in this matter.
And then with an almost unnoticeable click her bra fell down to her lap, your breath hitching at the sight, making the older woman chuckle silently. Her full round breast were now completely revealed, her rosy nipples perking up at the cold air, making your mouth water. Not knowing how to start you just longingly stared at the woman’s chest for a few minutes and she happily let you, enjoying the positive attention.
Suddenly reminded of your original task you looked up to ask for permission to touch her, which she granted immediately with a soft squeeze to your hips. Not wanting to wait any longer you carefully leaned in, supporting yourself with your hands holding on to her sides. You gave her nipple a small lick before you wrapped your lips around the small bud. You started sucking right after, feeling the sweet milk run down your throat making you sigh.
Wanda threw her head back, feeling the relieve wash over her as you eagerly sucked on her breast, the sensation making small moans leave her mouth. Her hand found the back of your head, pushing you down to keep you in position, not wanting you to stop any time soon.
Almost automatically your hands wandered to her chest, massaging her breast slowly, accidentally letting out a few noises of pleasure, making the redhead smirk mischievously, knowing she wasn’t the only one enjoying this whole thing.
Not even finished with the first one you moved on to her other breast, finally wanting to relieve her completely of the soreness. After a few minutes the redhead pulled you away from her now half full breast, seeing your aroused expression as you looked up at her in a daze, a few droplets of milk still lingering on your lips.
„Your such a greedy little thing.”she whispered out of breath as you blushed at her intense gaze, wanting to hide you adverted your eyes looking anywhere but her. Noticing this she grabbed your chin making you gaze up at her, as her attention fell back to your lips still covered in her milk, she just couldn’t hold back anymore. She slowly pulled you in on your neck, laying her soft lips on your own, tasting the sweet liquid on your lips. You closed your eyes and kissed her back after a moment of shock. Wanda gently licked your lower lip and let go to look at you.
„Y/n, are you a virgin?” she asked gently, wanting to know what to expect, before she could finally claim you. She watched you struggle to answer as you fiddled with your t-shirt, clearly embarrassed at this sudden question.
„I am”you stated unsure, searching for any kind of bad reaction in the older woman’s eyes but finding non as she smiled gently at your answer.
„Do you want me to make you feel good? I bet you feel all icky down there.”she mentioned down to your middle, you didn’t realised at first but you were somewhat grinding on her lap hoping to release some tension. „I- Wanda”you were just able to mutter, sighing in defeat, hoping she would understand that you wanted her so bad.
You never would’ve guessed to end up in this position, on her lap, begging her to touch you. You knew you liked her a lot but you didn’t thought you had a chance, always denying the possibility of her feeling the same.
„I need you to say it, honey”she made clear wanting to have your full permission if she was really going to take your virginity.
„I want you”you got out, her eyes darkening at your desperate tone, giving you a quick peck she stood up while holding you firmly in her arms before she walked to the stairs. „I certainly don’t want you to have your first time on a couch.” she chuckled as she carried you up the stairs. You hummed appreciating her care, as you kissed her cheek softly.
She didn’t waste more time walking straight into her bedroom, pushing the door close behind her, gently letting you down on her bed. This time she sat on your lap, beginning to kiss your neck. „I’m going to make you feel so good.” she said between kisses making you turn your head to give her more space, letting out a few moans in the process. Her hands begann wandering around your body, tugging at your clothes before taking of your shirt, leaving you in a black sports bra. Wanting to feel her again, you quickly captured her lips in a hungry but soft kiss. You groaned as she pushed her tongue into your mouth, exploring the new area as her hands worked quickly to open the zipper of your pants, pushing you down on the bed so she was hovering over you, not leaving the kiss once. She pushed your pants of your ankles, playfully removing your socks as you pushed yourself further on the bed.
She crawled back over you, while gently kissing up your stomach, right under your bra up your collarbone till she was finally giving you a sweet peck on your mouth, studying your face closely as she locked eyes. You breathed heavily, a slight blush covering your cheeks, your hands resting around her neck, holding her close.
„How do you feel? Do you want to continue?” Wanda wanted to know, making sure you’re still comfortable, flashing you a loving smile, while softly kissing your cheeks over and over.
„You make me feel so good Wanda”you chuckled still being flooded with kisses all over your face. As the words left your mouth Wanda stopped, looking back into your eyes, her smile now exchanged with a smirk.
„You’ve felt nothing yet” she implied cockily, her hand travelling down your stomach, halting at your inner thigh caressing it softly near your throbbing cunt still covered by thin fabric, feeling this you arched your hips into her touch letting out a breathy noise, Wanda now watching the way you squirmed under her, feeling proud to be the cause of your filthy noises.
The older woman sat up, hastily pulling down her pants, now only leaving her in the black lingerie hugging her beautifully, as you watched her hungrily, immediately pulling her back over you. She spread your legs, sinking in between them while slowly kissing your neck, her hands on your back sliding under your bra, pulling it up over your head.
She raised her head to look at the new freed skin, your nipples hardened deliciously by your aroused state. You almost grew shy under her intense stare, having the urge to cover your chest but she quickly stopped that thought of yours, letting her hands run over your smooth skin, her thumb twirling around your pink nipple making your breath hitch.
„You’re perfekt, honey.” Wanda whispered before taking one nipple into her mouth sucking gently while massaging your breast with her hand as you arched your back into the sensation. She didn’t stop, giving your chest all the attention, having noticed how worked up you get, also liking it herself. As she continued sucking, licking and massaging your breast, you felt sticky liquid running out your pussy, probably soaking your underwear, wanting to push your legs together but blocked by Wanda laying between them. Noticing this she pushed her leg against your cunt, letting you grind down on her thigh. As she felt the damp fabric rubbing over her, she chuckled „someone’s exited”she grinned looking up into your face, your eyes almost shut as the pleasure run through you.
„Wanda”you whimpered her name, wanting her to touch you, were you needed her the most. She catches on rather quickly on your desperate pleads, slowly pulling down the fabric covering your pulsating center, throwing it somewhere off the bed. She didn’t tease you further dipping her fingers between your folds causing both of you two moan. Wanda let two fingers slide trough your inner folds covered with warm slick, letting her slide trough easily.
She begann circling your clit slowly, pressing down softly while she kissed your nipple, her free hand kneading your other breast. Spreading your legs further to give her more space to work on your pussy, you grabbed the sheets with one hand, searching for hold, your knuckles almost turning white. Your other hand was on the back of her neck pushing her down, not wanting her to stop licking your breast.
As you felt Wanda circle your throbbing hole, you tensed slightly, never having taken anything before. The redhead noticed immediately giving you a sweet kiss onto your lips wanting you to relax completely „Let’s try one finger, sweetie. It’s going to feel so good, I promise.” she whispered against your lips, calming you down, giving you a quick peck as you nodded and relaxed again.
Wanda slowly pushed her finger into your cunt feeling your walls clamp tightly around it, as you let out a desperate cry. She muttered soothing words as you got used to the new feeling and she slowly begann thrusting her finger in and out, each time getting slightly faster as you moaned, enjoying the new pleasuring feeling. She begann caressing your breast again, sucking your nipple, massaging your clit while you met her trusts each time with your hips, feeling a knot build in your lower stomach.
„Mommy-“you moaned out silently as she pinched your nipple and curled her fingers just at the right spot, making you loose your breath for a second. You hoped she didn’t hear what just accidentally slipped past your lips in a moment of bliss pleasure, she didn’t stopped even for a second, so you figured it slipped past her.
As her thrusts got harder you were almost on the edge, only small moans leaving your lips as you let Wanda devour you completely. The older woman felt your legs start shaking, knowing you were close, giving your nipple a soft bite feeling you arch into her, your breathless noises like music to her ears.
„Come for mommy, sweet girl” she whispered nibbling on your earlobe as you tumbled over the edge with a long filthy moan, holding onto the woman above you. Wanda slowed down her movements letting you ride out your orgasm, whispering sweet words in your ear, as you fell limp under her, breathing slowly to calm down from your high.
The older woman laid down beside you, licking the cum of her fingers, while she let you snuggle into her, as you opened your eyes you met her green ones. „You did so good”she cooed, leaning in to capture your lips in a soft loving kiss, making you smile as you pulled back. She drew small lines on your arm, as she pulled you closer, enjoying the skin to skin contact.
„So.. mommy, huh?” she asked with a cheeky grin, making you groan in embarrassment hiding your face in the crock of her neck, as she chuckled lightly. „I’m sooo sorry”you let out not daring to look at her.
„Don’t be. I might like it.” Wanda confessed making you look at her again, seeing if she was serious. She kissed you again, both of you smiling, causing it to be over quickly, as you leaned yourself on one elbow, admired her from the side. You looked down at her body, taking in her almost naked form, smiling to yourself at how pretty she is. Not able to resist you begann stroking the swell of her breast, hearing Wanda sigh in contentment. At that you leaned in spreading kisses over her whole chest, loving how she felt. Your free hand wandered down to her thigh, kneading the soft flesh. „What are you up to?” Wanda wanted to know, watching you curiously as you shrugged giving her rosy nipple a few kitten licks.
„I want to make you feel good too” you stated like it was obvious, continuing with your sweet attempt. Hearing you say that, the older woman sighed happily, seeing again how eager you were to please her. „You don’t have to. Pleasing you made me feel good, you know?” she cleared, not wanting to overwhelm you, after all was it your first time. You nodded, understanding what she was implying but still not stopping, climbing in between her legs, leaning down to trail wet kisses up her neck, to which she smiled gently.
„I want to make you come. Please, help me. Tell me what to do.” you muttered shyly against her skin. The redhead moaned hearing those words, finally giving in, laying her hands on your neck, looking down to meet your eyes.
„Eat me out”she stated confidently, her voice low and seductive making you shudder. You knew what that means, having heard it from your friends a few times before. You slowly begann kissing down her body, leaving a wet trail of salvia on the woman’s stomach, as you tugged at her lingerie, pulling it of, revealing her glistening pussy.
You dived in immediately wanting to taste her so bad, moaning as her sticky slick coated your tongue,making the woman under you spread her legs further. You licked along her folds before greedily sucking in her clit, feeling Wanda arch her hips into you, her hand pushing the back of your head deeper into her pussy, as filthy sounds escaped her lips.
The room now only filled with the wet squelching sound of you sucking on her clit and the sounds leaving Wanda’s and your lips. You copied her moves from earlier but pushed two fingers into her cunt, receiving a loud moan as she met your trusts immediately.
„Such a good girl, eating her mommy out so well” Wanda cooed out of breath, the hold on your hair getting tighter, pushing you down with every trust, practically using your face to grind onto.
After a few minutes Wanda’s legs were shaking, similar to you before, she was close, breathy moans leaving her lips as she gave into the pleasure completely.
She came hard after your curled your fingers, hitting *the* spot, mimicking her movements. She closed her legs around your head riding out her high, as you gave her a few last licks on her puffy clit, savouring every last bit of her juices.
As she calmed down, she pulled you up into a kiss tasting herself on you, smiling. She broke the kiss still out of breath and pulled the blanket over the two of you, as you snuggled closer.
„Was that good?” you asked shyly, hearing her chuckle at your cute question. „Really good”she replied, stroking your back and giving you a peck on the head.
After a moment of comfortable silence Wanda spoke up again „You were so wet. I think I have to change the sheets tomorrow.” she chuckled making you blush as you playfully hit her arm.
„You’re fault.” you stated with an adorable pout covering your face, turning away from her.
„Oh I’m sorry darling.”she cooed, tilting her head to look at you, giving you a quick peck, to which you were still pouting. „Would you feel better, if I’ll let you drink mommy’s milk?” she smirked seeing you nod, agreeing to her offer.
You leaned down, kissing her nipple before taking it between your lips, sucking gently till the warm milk hit your tongue, feeling your eyelids get heavier. After some time you fell into a deep slumber, not waking up till the next morning, still securely wrapped in the arms of Wanda.
Counting the Seconds (Series)
Addison Montgomery x freader
Chapter 5: weeks
Words: 3260
Summary: Back in Seattle you're not just dealing with a tumour, you met a amazing woman that is eventually going to change your life.
Warnings: in this chapter fluff, flirting, exhaustion and neck kissing lol, later I promise you smut, cheating(maybe) and more.
Updates: Weekly ^^
A/n: I UPDATED EARLIER THAN USUAL!!! YAY My writing at the end is really shitty but just ignore it and stay HAPPY. Take care and have a nice week.
Part 1,2,3 & 4 you can find in Navigation
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Rain hit you immediately as you left the house, groaning you took your bag, holding it above your head, shielding you from the rain.
You made quick steps to the car, not wanting to get soaked by the cold water, falling from the sky.
The day Addison came back from her trip, visiting you, it also rained. You smiled to your self as the memory floated your mind.
„What are you thinking?“ Addison asked, staring at you in disbelief. Looking up at her, with no idea what she was talking about, you scoffed. „Honey, you know how important it is to eat. And now it’s even more important, you’re still recovering.“ she lectured you. You wondered how she knew about that. But then it hit you. Meredith.
Yeah she had most likely something to do with that. If not her than Christina or even both. At that thought you rolled your eyes but regretting it immediately after, as you heard Addison softly scoff beside you. You looked at her as she glanced at you angrily.
„I missed you, Addison.“ you told her, smiling cheekily at her. „This is not gonna help you know.“she again scoffed but you saw her smiling as she pulled something out of her bag.
You quickly got into the car, driving to the hospital. The rain constantly tapping against your car, kinda annoying you. So you turned up the radio, listening to the song playing as you waited for the light to turn green. But in your mind the images from 4 weeks ago still playing over and over.
She handed you a wrapped sandwich, looking at you strict. „Now be a good girl and eat up.“she demanded, as she looked down at your hands unwrapping the paper the second she finished her sentence. Luckily she didn’t saw your face right now, you were blushing. You’re whole body grew hot and a tingling feeling spread in your lower abdomen.
She finally looked up for your dismay, trying to catch your eyes as you did the exact opposite, trying everything to avoid eye contact. No one said something, Addison trying to figure out your sudden change in behaviour and you hiding it from her prying eyes.
Suddenly she chuckled, leaning closer and tilting her head as if trying to study you even more precisely. As she said the following words „You’re so good for me“ slow and her voice almost dropping a whole octave. You’re composure failed completely, your hands stopped movement and you couldn’t control the breathy almost not audible gasp leaving your throat. Still Addison noticed every move you made and if not the blush adoring your cheeks would’ve betrayed you one way or another.
She hummed knowingly, as a grin creeped up her face. She decided to tease you a bit more about the new information she got about you. Honestly she enjoyed it too, a bit more than she probably should.
She didn’t waste a second and stood up from the chair beside your hospital bed. She grabbed your shoulders, making you scoot a bit forward. She took the newly place behind you, sitting on the bed with you in front of her, her legs angled on each side of your body.
You didn’t dare to lean back, not wanting to get even more nervous. This woman was driving you crazy. But she wouldn’t have it, not even a moment after she settled in behind you, she gently pulled you back by your shoulders, making sure your body is laying on her completely.
You were stiff for a minute but her soft, warm body and her welcoming smell drew you in, so you let yourself go and cherished the moment. Sadly you were still hot all over and she hadn’t in mind to let you recover.
„You’re really bothered by this. In a good way.“ she said out loud as one of her hands rested on your abdomen. „By what ?“ you asked silently, looking down at her hand. „You know“she hummed, leaning to the back of your neck, skimming her lips over it, till she arrived at your ear, caressing it softly with her nose, making your heart beat faster. „You like it a lot“ she noted „when you’re being called a good girl.“ she whispered her hot breath meeting your skin. You gasped, this time a bit louder. You’re skin on fire and overly sensitive. „So good“ she said her voice low, leaving a kiss behind you’re ear. You tilted your head to the side, you’re mouth practically hanging open as slow long breaths left your mouth. Addison took the hint and left three more kisses on your skin, almost making you moan, since the pleasure was something you hadn’t experienced in your whole live.
„Good to know.“ she chuckled, caressing the skin of your arm with the other hand. She finally decided it was enough, for now.
„Now eat your sandwich“she demanded.
Even just thinking about what happened made your body feel heat all over. But the fact the sandwich was an Pb&J made your heart flutter. She remembered.
But enough of that, you left your car in the parking lot, making your way to the hospital entrance.
Walking along the main hall of the hospital, you got slightly nervous. This wasn’t your first day ever but your first day in this hospital. And you couldn’t shake of the unsure feeling that settled down in your body. You hadn’t really worked for 4 month and this is a really long period of time. At least you had some time to study as you rested.
You opened the door, finding an empty locker room in front of you. You hummed happily, finding your locker to change into scrubs. It wasn’t unusual that no one was around this time of the day. The interns usually started their shifts early or late and with the end of the shifts it was the same. So the fact that it was middle of the day explained a lot.
In your scrubs and ready to go, you looked for the so called chief Webber. He wasn’t easy to find, the annoyed nurses would ether brush you off or point you to all kind of different floors.
Arrived at the OB part of the hospital, you find the certain doctor in pink scrubs talking to a male intern, handing him the charts.
The man took the charts but said something with a smug smile leaning forward, making the red head chuckle but shake her head. An unwell feeling spread in your chest, as you saw the scene before you, but you brushed it of immediately, thinking there was no need to be upset. She said something and brushed him of with a push of her hand. He turned around beginning to walk away as he suddenly catches you in his way, the same time Addison spotted you.
He pushed out his chest, making a straight line to you while he put on a charming smile. Your eyes still lingering on the women a few feet behind him as he began to speak. „Hey they’re. You’re staring at me aren’t you.“he decided taking a step forward. You were to perplexed to react to his bold sentences. You didn’t thought there were people just walking up to you, talking such none sense.
„So you’re a quite one, I get it but don’t worry I can make you scream in no time.“he prompts proudly, leaning forward about to touch your arm as a strict voice behind him made him freeze „Walk away syphilis“ Addison huffed annoyed. He groaned but turned around, not before winking your way.
There she was, standing a feet away in all her glory. You’re heart warmed as she laid her all to familiar eyes on you.
Still you greeted her in the respectful, appropriate manner your supposed too, since she’s practically your boss now, if not even mentor. „Doctor Montgomery“you greeted looking up to her as she crossed her arms, looking down at you with a amused glint in her eyes.
„Oh, now I’m Dr Montgomery?“ she more stated than asked. You let your eyes wander for a moment or two as you nodded. The pink scrubs really were adorable, suiting her hair perfectly. She was perfect.
„I can’t find the chief, do you probably know were I’m able to find him?“ you wanted to know, looking up at her hopeful. She seemed to think for a moment looking around, suddenly she stopped looking in a certain hallway. The moment you wanted to follow her eyes, she already looked away.
„What do I get? For telling you were he is.“she asked with a grin on her face, making you groan. You didn’t want to be late, a quick glance to the clock made you even more desperate.
„Anything, just tell me. I don’t wanna be late.“ you responded, mentioning to the clock, underlining how urgent this is. Your response clearly amused her, you could tell by the exited glint in her eyes.
„Anything?“she asked again, now clearly trying to annoy you. You took a deep breath, trying to ignore her teasing. „Please, Dr Montgomery.“ you begged, now visible desperate for the information. Addison found a liking in teasing you, it was thrilling. But she didn’t want to make you late or harm you in any way, so she finally gave in. „He’s just over there.“she pointed down a hallway, to a rather tall man, talking to some other doctors.
„I owe you one“you thanked her, already making your way to the chief.
You clearly didn’t think, when you promised the tall woman anything.
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Writing the last few sentences of your report, you reached for the cup next to you. Not even checking where it whiled you blindly searched it with your hand, accidentally spilling it over the freshly written sentences.
„fuck,fuck,fuck“you cursed silently, trying to save the neatly written page but it was to late, the ink already smudged over the whole page and the water soaked the paper. It was just one page and of course the back too but you sat a long while, drawing each word with care and slow lines. The whole work was approximate 15 pages, two of them written with hand the others on computer, like the Regulations told.
And of course the exact two pages had to be destroyed. You took a dry towel, drying the table and stacking the remaining pages on the side.
The last three weeks, since your first day were difficult to say at least. As the new intern no one trusted you, so you had to work really hard, not having a calm moment. The whole three weeks you were home two times, getting clothes and other supplies you needed. You practically moved into an one call room, not to mention the quick naps you took every other free minute.
You slumped down in the chair, holding your head in your arms, feeling your whole body ache from the exhaustion. The stress and lack of sleep finally got to you. But you couldn’t rest now, so you took a blank paper, starting again.
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Finally done, you closed your eyes for a moment, stretching your body and already raised from the chair again. Taking the whole 15 sides, you made your way to the chiefs office.
As you closed the door to the office again after handing the reports over to the chief, you turned around, being stopped by your favourite red head.
„Dr.Montgomery, is there something I can do for you?“ you questioned her polite, your head still focused on working but you’re body sore and hurting all over. She smiled, but looked a bit worried as she placed a hand on your shoulder.
„Actually there is.”she let her hand run down your arm„follow me.”she demanded, turning around,positive you would follow her. She walked quick, her hips swaying, the heels clicking each time she took a step, as she walked proudly in front of you. Not even a few minutes were over as you already stood in an on call room. Addison in front of you closing the door gently, as you heard the lock click.
„How about you rest for a couple of hours.”she shared her idea, making you consider it for a second but you quickly denied, thinking about all the work you want to finish today.
„Thank you, but no. I still have a lot to do.”you told her, giving her a small smile, thanking her for the offer.
Addisons smile dropped, she wouldn’t let you leave before you at least lied down for an hour. She hadn’t had a chance to talk to you or see you really rest since the first day you started here. It was really worrying her, seeing you always on your feet, not even sitting but walking around for hours without brake. So she decided to talk you down until you would do what she said.
„I don’t know if you understood me correctly. This wasn’t a question or an offer.”she said, her voice low, her strict eyes piercing you right trough your body. „I want you to lie down.Now.”she took your hand leading you to bed „And don’t even try to talk back.”she made her point clear.
The quick change of her mood kinda scared you, not wanting to upset her further, you sat down on the bed, taking of your shoes.
Practically ready to lie down, one thing still bothered you. You were longing for her warmth, not just now but since the last time you were close. That was seven weeks ago and it felt like a withdrawal. Being busy the whole time, distracted you a lot, but with her standing in front of you, next to a bed, it was hopeless.
„Can you like… you know.”you tried to ask, your voice suddenly small under the observation of the tall woman, looking down to you.
Seeing that you finally gave in, she smiled in triumph. But the fact that you wanted her to hold you exited her a lot more. Of course she wouldn’t just give you what you want, not till you asked her clearly.
„You want something?”she teased, but decided the same moment to not tease you too long, since she would love to have you close.
„Yeah, can you lie down… with me?”the last part more hushed but she was still able to hear you clearly. And the question made her grin cheekily at you.
She took of her heals, smiling to her self as she saw how your whole face brightened, while you lay down scooting over to make her place.
She hadn’t even touched the mattresses as you slung your arms around her, making her laugh silently. Ending up with your head by her neck and one leg of yours hugging her legs.
You both laying in silence, as the clock on the wall got louder the longer you listened. But the small ticking was nothing compared to the loud beating of your heart, that possibly the woman next to caused.
„You feel good“you broke the silence, not knowing why you said that but it was true. She felt good, hell she made you feel good.
„I do?“she wanted to know, her voice not giving a clue about what mood she was in or what she thought.
You nodded, making her hum happily. The way you could feel it vibrate under you as she did hum, kinda comforted you but also made you want to be even closer. You wanted to feel her on your skin, you wanted to feel your skin on hers.
You didn’t even thought much about it as you leaned in kissing her neck softly. Shocked but still exited you waited for an reaction, the seconds getting longer and longer like gum.
But suddenly you witnessed her moving her head to the side, like an invitation to kiss her again. And you did once, twice, now feeling one hand of hers caressing your sides and the other on the back of your neck, holding you in place.
You now kissed purposely a way up her neck, along her ear, up to her chin and finally to her cheek, where you found the woman with closed eyes, breathing slowly.
Not feeling your lips on her she opened her eyes, seeing how you were laying on top of her, your arms on each side supporting your body weight.
You smiled, studying her closely with curiosity written all over your face. She smiled back her hand still gliding over your sides.
„Honey?“Addison called out, as she gave your sides a slight squeeze.
„Hmm“you responded, still caught by the beauty in front of you, well beneath you.
„Your supposed to get some sleep, not turn me on.“she stated, with a serious face, looking up at you. Feeling heat rise to your face, because of the thing she accused you with, you huffed embarrassed,turning away from her, you’re back now facing her as she laughed loudly.
It felt like a long moment she couldn’t get herself together, laughing as you sulked in your embarrassment. But somehow she stopped, now looking to the side were you sulked around.
Eventually she spooned you from behind, holding you close as she told you amused over and over how sorry she is.
„You’re so sweet but neck kisses do turn me on“she confessed, waiting for any kind of respond from your side but you just scoffed, making her grin. Now she had to tease you.
Leaning down to your neck, she did the exact same move you did, making you squirm in her arms. Having enough, she stuck out her tongue giving you a few kitten licks kissing each lick after as you’re breathing grew heavier. Small gasps leaving your body under the heavenly sensation you were under until she decided to bite your pulse point gently and a breathy moan slipped out of your lips. You felt her grin on your skin, as she soothed the bite with a longer kiss than usual.
„Someone’s getting exited.“ she whispered in your ear, before she lays back down, still spooning you.
Clearly this wasn’t going to go any further, because wtf.
>>What just happened<< you thought, your head full of images,trying to calm down. But still you decided to ignore this happened, trying to sleep.
Counting the seconds (Series)
Addison Montgomery x freader
Chapter 4: days
Words: 2754
Summary: Back in Seattle you're not just dealing with a tumour, you met a amazing woman that is eventually going to change your life.
Warnings: in this chapter fluff, flirting, mention of sex ,blood, angst, later I promise you smut, cheating(maybe) and more.
Updates: weekly (but yk)
A/n: I‘M SO SORRY IT TOOK THAT LONG. I know last time I said I will do better but I’m just really lazy. So this update is a bit longer than usual. ^^
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„Ready?“ Amelia asked, her comforting smile well hidden behind the blue mask, at least the crinkle of her skin right beside her eyes revealed the purpose of soothing you. The woman wasn’t a friend but not a stranger ether and hopefully she will be the woman saving your life. Derek’s sister, you trusted her, the shadow of him still lingering in her eyes as she looked at you.
„No, but go ahead.“you answered, turning your head, focusing your eyes on the ceiling above you. The room felt big, so big you could get lost by walking a bit to far. The greenish light was pulling on the atmosphere and the clear smell filled the hall like room. You heard the voices around you as a nurse held the mask above your face. A fuzzy feeling spread in your whole body, head to toe. Your bones got heavy, the faces around you blurry and the light around you got brighter. Gone.
Outside in the hallway, not far from your limp body, Addison was doing rounds. Checking in on the patients she got assigned. She was thinking of you, even if just for a minute. Hoping everything will go well for you, for her. Not willing to thing of loosing you after she just got a chance to experience you. She liked the way you talked, telling her about your day. You were like a small vacation in her brake. You would take everything so lightly, making her wonder if there’s something you wouldn’t be able to carry. Also did you make her laugh, like a lot. Sometimes her tummy would hurt from laughing so much. Her eyes would tear up and she would forget about the patient for a moment, she lost hours ago. You weren’t supposed to leave this world just yet. And she almost didn’t worry about you leaving because you wouldn’t.
„Any pain?“ she wanted to know, looking down to the tired women, laying there. The future mother just smiled and mentioned no with her head. She was holding her belly with one hand, caressing it with the other. It was beautiful, a sight Addison truly loved. The baby not even born and the mother already loving it as if it was.
She herself couldn’t experience a moment like this. The faith just hasn’t given it to her. „That’s good, but if you should feel contractions or any kind of pain let me know.“ she added, already walking out.
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„Scalpel“ Addison called, holding out her hand. Seconds after already cutting the soft, stretched skin. The beeping of the monitors in the background, the supposed future mother on the table. It shouldn’t be like this, the women shouldn’t be laying here. Minutes flew by, as Addison still tried to stop the bleeding. The blood pooling out, like water coming out of the sink. It didn’t stop, it just didn’t exactly like the monitor getting louder and faster each time she moves her hand. Her movements getting more forced, the gentleness pushed out of her body long ago as the panic took in.
„The baby is in distress, we have to get it out!“Carina pushed from the other end of the room. Addison still standing there, changing the fabric filled with blood. „Now!“Carina yelled, shoving the redhead aside, prepping for a C-section. „I have to save them.“Addison whispered looking down, from her gloves dripping the warm blood, forming a tiny pool of red on the floor. Not even hours ago the woman laid there in her bed, caressing her unborn child. Now she was laying on this table, blood caressing her skin as the other surgeon took the baby out.
„Don’t.“ Addison said over and over, the flatline in the back, making it a song. A song of loss. She was gone the woman was gone, the mother is dead.
„Time of death: 8:56 pm” you could hear her say loud and clearly.
„We did it!”Amelia celebrated, stretching her back while letting out a breath. The surgery was a success, the tumour out. You of course wouldn’t know that till you wake up.
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Days had gone by since the surgery, the successful surgery. Your friends couldn’t wate for you to wake up. Always being by your side, holding your hand, talking to you about they’re day. It was exiting and stressful, hoping everything was alright. You weren’t alone at day, but when the night came and the hallway gave an apocalyptic vibe, you were laying there. Trapped in your body, eyes closed and your mind far away.
It wasn’t four days after the surgery that you finally had the strength to wake up. Meredith to your left, happily calling the others. It was late but still your friends decided to come and celebrate your awaking. The time you spend in the hospital gave you a new grumpy friend called Cristina. She was funny, had an unlikely humour but still you were fond of her personality.
It wasn’t until the next morning that a certain woman decided to show up. Her smile growing as she saw you looking up, feeling like you weren’t gone just frozen in time. You were the same, the same toothy grin, the bright happy eyes and the thick beautiful hair falling a bit in your face. „You got to keep your hair.” Addison pointed out, stepping to your side. „I did, well most of it.” you chuckled. Amelia used a method, in which just a tiny part of the hair on the back of your head had to be shaved. A really tiny piece and with the other hair above it, you really can’t notice the part. The read head just hummed happily, sitting down in a chair next to your bed. She was wearing casual clothes, well not really. Addison always wore expensive looking clothing, but that’s not the point. She wasn’t in working clothes, she came on her free day to visit you. She came back to her workplace, even on a free day.
She was searching with her eyes, making sure you’re fine. Almost like a mother that looks for injuries on her kid which stumbled over a rock. „I’m fine.”you said, making her look up into your eyes. „I’m glad.” she almost whispered. The proving look she gave you almost made you laugh. You laid they’re smiling right before her eyes and still she had a hard time believing you were okey.
„Test me!“you chuckled, holding out your hand. She looked at you for a moment before she took your hand in hers. Feeling her soft hand giving you a light squeeze you smiled. It was good, it felt good. For a moment you just held hands, looking down at them. You gave her hand a soft squeeze back „See, I feel you.” you told her. „That proves absolutely …. n-o-t-h-i-n-g.” she answered dramatically. You scoffed, pouting a bit as she leaned closer. You were about to give up as she looked daring at you. „Close your eyes.”she demanded. Not even considering to think about it you did as she told. She chuckled but said nothing. You heard her shifting a bit and felt the weight of the bed dipping a bit at the side. Probably she sat down beside you or leaned on the side or something. Closed in complete darkness you felt her withdraw her hand, disappointing you for a moment. Not long after you felt the sensation of her fingertips caressing your arm. Almost gasping for air, a strange sensation run trough your body, leaving goosebumps behind as her fingers still slowly trailed up. Arrived at your shoulder she leaned in „You feel that?”she asked knowingly, beginning to draw tiny circles on your shoulder. You nodded trying to capture the feeling of her fingers on your skin. This simple gesture wouldn’t normally bother you, now making you feel warm. „Use your words, honey.” the woman said with a low seductive voice, almost making you whimper.
„Yes”you breathed, the only thing you could say right now since your brain was suddenly cut short. Surely your cheeks were all red by now, the heat crawling up your face told you. Addison suddenly stopped her movements, letting her hand while on your shoulder. You gasped as you felt her lips pressing a tiny kiss on your pulse point. As her lips left your skin she blew a tiny huff of air on the skin she just wetted with her lips, making you twitch.
„So sensitiv.”she chuckled „Now I believe you.”she whispered in your ear. Still trying to calm down you opened your eyes, meeting the blue greyish eyes of the women in front of you.
Realising in which state you’re in, you turn your head away from her intense stare. Did she knew which affect she has on you? Was she playing games? You don’t know but the way your body responded to the simplest movements of the red head kinda scared you. You hear her chuckle a bit as she shifted to stand up. „Okay sweetie, I have to go. But it’s nice to know your okay.”she told you while smoothing out her clothes. She gave you one last smile and left trough the door.
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Again a day was over, a day laying in the hard hospital bed. Surely it would be better to have a roommate but on the opposite was it kinda relaxing. Currently you were studying for your intern exam you still had before you. To be more specific your at the end of your intern year. Just like Cristina and George but they can actually work and you have to sit here. But at least you have time to study.
„Hey, what’s up ?”Mer walked in, swinging her hips a bit as she smiled down at you. „Nothing really just curing cancer while I lay in bed”you joked, a bit upset about the fact you have to stay here on more week.
„Yeah right.”she laughed but still grinning like an idiot. She batted her eyelashes looking at you, expecting something. „What do you want?”you groaned right as Cristina strolled in. „How is it going with your girlfriend?” both women giggled. Confused what these two have in mind you scoffed „Who?“you asked tilting your head a bit as you grabbed your Pb&J sandwich. You unfolded the rapping paper as the two women whispered exited like children.
„I saw her kissing your neck. I knew there was tension but I didn’t thought you two would do it in the hospital during your recovery.”Cristina revealed making the other woman laugh. At that you your face got really hot and you shuffled uncomfortable in your bed. “We weren’t doing anything. She was just testing my senses!”you shouted frustrated.
Mer and Cristina continued making fun of as you refused to listen to their chaos. Not even moments pasted as clicking heals were heard, making their way down the hallway. Trough the windows in you room you could see your favourite red head making a stunning appearance like always. Like someone who has seen something really amazing, Mer and Cristina looked at each other knowingly. „There she comes!”Mer celebrated, standing up and taking Cristina with her to leave the room as the tall woman opened the door. It was an awkward sight as the two chuckling women pressed trough the door held by Addison. The read head just scoffed amused but ignored the strange behaviour, finally looking to you. She didn’t say anything until she sat by your side, looking at you with kind eyes.
„How are you?”she wanted to know. The light coming trough your window caressing the side of her face was just underlining her breathtaking beauty. You admired her for a short moment before you answered, the pink scrubs again. You really liked them, you liked how they looked on her.
„I’m great. How are you doing? Any babies born today?”you asked making sure to give her on of your smiles. Rewarded with a toothy smile from her side made you want to smile all the time. Her delicate features glowed in the evening sun, making you question why she didn’t already counted as expensive art, you couldn’t afford until you did some really dirty business. „Actually three babies, all in four hours.”she mentioned proudly, her eyes giving away the joy she must feel.
„Pb&J sandwiches ?”she added, taking the second one you neatly stored on the small table beside your hospital bed.
„Indeed, there’s nothing better in the world.” you mused making her chuckle. She unfolded the rapping paper, taking a small bite, humming at the taste. „Actually there is.” she said wiggling her eyebrows. You needed a minute before you understood what she meant. You scoffed as you realised, looking at her with disbelief. „I wouldn’t know.”you shrugged making her snap her head to you. She scrunched up her nose, looking at you shocked. „You’re a Virgin? You never?”she asked the sandwich in her hand long forgotten. „Well not really, there was one time.”you told her, hoping she wouldn’t make fun of you. Not like you didn’t trust her, but you had a few friends that thought it would be funny to make fun of you. A few jokes are alright but they treated you different, telling it everyone the second you first met. They said it wasn’t normal and stuff like that. But it was totally normal and you knew that.
„Well I didn’t expect that. Are you asexual or do you just haven’t had the chance? Or was your first time really that bad, honey? You don’t have to answer of course.” she said with a soft voice, her hand wandering to your upper leg , just resting they’re. Like a support kind of thing, telling you she has your back. „I’m not asexual.”you stated surely. „I don’t know, the first time was forced and my boyfriend at the time kinda pressured me.”you answered one of her questions. She nodded understanding but still thinking about something. „I’m sorry to hear that but why haven’t you slept with someone after that? Sex is really good.” she prompted making you laugh. You again just shrugged your shoulders, taking a bite out of your sandwich. She looked at you for a moment and did the same.
After that you changed the subject, telling her about your internship. You talked a lot and laughed as you enjoyed your sandwiches. At the end she offered to help you study for your exam sometime. You of course eagerly excepted, as she put her white coat back on, since her break was almost over.
„I come visit you again in two days since I have a trip to a patient of mine. See you soon, honey.”she said standing up from her chair. „Goodbye Addison.” you smiled, watching her leave. The fact that she had to leave for two days kinda upset you for a reason you couldn’t wrap your head around. The last sunbeams slipped trough your window as you got back to reading a medical book.
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The time moved slower, well it felt like it. The visit from Addison isn’t even 24 hours ago and it still feels like a week. You tried to find something to do, but all you could do was lying around and reading. The fact that you couldn’t move around just yet made everything worse, you just didn’t got tired. You tried to sleep several times but nothing worked. So as your boredom grew, your appetite disappeared.
The nurses told you to eat something but all you could do was take a bite or two, the plates of food getting brought more often as you sulked around.
But there were still good news, Amelia told you about the complications when you would fly back to your hometown. She said it would be easier if you stayed here and of course that isn’t possible. Your internship ist 6 hours away with a plain, to be specific the hospital you currently worked at. So there was a big problem at first, but somehow Miranda heard from it all. She made you an offer to transfer to Grey Sloan. Normally it would hardly be possible but thanks to your medical condition, things will get arranged.
From now on you will work in the Grey Sloan memorial hospital.
Counting the seconds (Series)
Addison Montgomery x freader
Chapter 3: hours
Words: 1.802
Summary: Back in Seattle you're not just dealing with a tumour, you met a amazing woman that is eventually going to change your life.
Warnings: in this chapter fluff and a slight panic attack , later I promise you smut, angst, cheating and more.
Updates: Weekly
A/n: Sorry I really needed long to Update. I WILL DO BETTER. Maybe. Anyway, have fun.
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,Do you like women?" Arizona asked softly, as she leaned forward, looking into your eyes. Do you? You never thought about it, the idea of liking woman never even dared to cross your mind. You were raised to think that it's wrong to love the same gender but of course you don't have the same opinion as your parents today. But you? You thought about what you could answer to this question, it was a yes or no question. You would say no obviously.
»l don't know, I never thought about it.“ you confessed feeling really confused. You would've noticed by now, wouldn't you? You never felt so puzzled because of a simple question, honestly it kinda scared you. Feeling uneasy under all the observation you decided to leave. „It was nice talking to you all but I'm gonna go and take a nap, I feel really tired." you added getting on your feet. No one tried to stop you, probably they understood that you needed time to think. After they all said there goodbyes, you made your way down the hallway.
Finally back in the safety of your room, you decided to sit down for a minute or two. The confusion was still pulling on your whole body, making you feel heavy and tired. The possibility of liking women was new to you. Your parents wouldn't approve this change, if you would tell them.
Minutes passed by and you realised something. All these years you found women awfully attractive but you never thought about it as something to do with your sexuality. To busy thinking, you hadn't noticed Addison coming in your room. The tall woman immediately took note of your thoughtful state.
As she neared you, you felt the presence of someone and turned around, feeling your heart skip a beat at the sight. She was breathtaking, you couldn't describe it different. She implied to sit next to you and you happily agreed, making her smile. You scooted over to make room for her on the small bed, as she sat down beside you looking at you for a few seconds, letting out a huff.
„How are you?" you questioned, aware that she must be tired. You studied her soft features, now that she was so close to you. Soft that's what you would call her but she truly had a sharp experience, confidence was something she owned. Nevertheless you felt secure by her side, it was new for you to feel that around someone you just met a few days ago. She was beyond beautiful, so beautiful it can be intimidating but you felt drawn to her, like a lost puppy.
„l'm exhausted, what about you?" she asked, while looking out the window. Her voice was a little raspy but sounded awfully soothing and surrounded you like a warm blanket. It was hard, almost impossible to look away. She looked amazing in the pink scrubs, you would even say she looked cute. „l'm okay:" you muttered absently, gazing at her side profile. You could imagine how tired she might feel right now, being a doctor yourself. You tried to think of a way to make her feel some joy. ,,Are you on a break?"you questioned, leaning on your elbows to get up. Confused by your question she turned to you, being met with your cheeky grin. She couldn't help but smile as well and scoffed. „Obviously, why?"she wanted to know tilting her head. At that you got up, as your feet touched the floor you walked around the bed and reached your hand out. Addison looked amused at you but took your hand immediately. Her hand was soft and warm and you remembered that you never felt her skin on yours before . It felt good, really good but you had to focus, if you don't wanna embarrass yourself in front of this amazing woman. So you gently pulled her up, following every move she made with your eyes, until she stood in front of you. You should take a step back, you were so close to her, if you leaned in you would feel her breath on your skin.
Okay now you’re were just imagining, if you would lean in, the lips of yours would met the skin under her chin, as she was a bit taller than you. But that could be interesting to, her skin looked soft and you would really like to kiss all over it. You couldn’t believe yourself, it was wrong to think like that. You continued looking at her skin, her neck, her collarbone, wanting to know what it must feel like to let your fingertips run over her.
A gentle squeeze on your hand, pulled you out of your thought. Looking up you found the older woman already looking at you. She tilted her head and raised an eyebrow „ Are you alright down there?” she asked, making fun of your high difference. Realising she must have noticed you checking her out, you slightly turned your head away, looking down and taking a step back. As on cue, your cheeks turned warm, letting you know you’re turning red. Trying to hide your state, but still holding her hand, you made your way to the door, pulling her with you. To your dismay you heard her chuckling behind you, as she leaned down to your ear. „ You’re blushing, honey.” she whispered, making your heart skip a beat or two at the pet name. You weren’t sure if you could talk properly, so you just gave her a pouting look.
„Where are we going?” Addison wanted to know, as you two left the hospital. „Just for a walk.” you told her, hoping she would come along. She was, still holding your hand.
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Over the next two weeks, Addison came to your room every day to talk, go for a walk or grab lunch together in the cafeteria. You would enjoy this time a lot and still thought about all of your many conversations. You mostly talked about your lives before you two met and you learned a lot about her.
„Y/N, your surgery is planned for this evening, so prepare yourself and don’t worry, I will take good care of you.” Amelia informed you, while checking your chart again. Slowly you started noticed the time until surgery was getting shorter and shorter. The realisation hit you and it felt too real. You were going to have surgery. You were scared that something could go wrong, you could loose your ability to speak, hear, see, walk and it wasn’t unlikely to die. You already decided that you wouldn’t want to be hooked up to machines for the rest of your life, so as you came to the hospital three weeks ago, you made sure to sign all the papers.
As Amelia left the room, your fears pushed down on your chest, it felt harder to breathe. Your hands started shaking and you couldn’t think. It felt like all the air was gone and the room got smaller. Struggling to get air in your lungs, you panicked, pulling with your hands on your t-Shirt trying everything to help yourself breathe.
After a minute fighting, you felt soft hands taking yours, pressing down on each finger, trying to distract you. „It’s okay, breathe with me.” you heard Addison’s voice. She started breathing with you, still gently pressing on each of your fingers. „Everything is gonna be just fine.”she cooed caressing your hands. Slowly your breathing steadied and your hands stopped shaking. Finally able to look up, you meet her kind eyes looking worried at you.
„I’m really sorry, I didn’t mea-“ you started. „Shhh, come here darling.” she whispered taking you in her arms, laying down on your bed with you in her arms. She adjusted your position pulling you on top of her. Your head was on her chest as one of her hands caressed the baby hair on the back of your head. Her other hand was placed loosely on your back, holding you in place. It was the first time you were so close to her and if you’re honest it felt really good. Taking the opportunity, you hugged her closer and snuggled into her. Your legs hung around her middle almost hugging her. As she noticed your needy behaviour, she chuckled but didn’t say a word about it. After a few minutes she pulled the blanket up, on the two of you , tugging you in, caressing your back. You really enjoyed having her close to you, it felt warm and comfortable. Letting your eyes close you drifted off to sleep, relaxing completely in her arms.
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Feeling well rested and comfy, you started to wake up, stirring a bit in your sleep. You laid really soft, at first you didn’t realised you’re on top of Addison, letting your hands wander, as you woke up completely. „Are you enjoying yourself?” the older woman chuckled, amused at your hands caressing her side. At that you almost jumped, looking around startled. As you noticed your position your cheeks grew hot, making you huff in embarrassment. As you were about to stand up, you felt her pulling you down. „Relax honey, It’s fine.”she assured you, making you smile. At that you laid back down, snuggling into her. You never slept this good alone or with someone else.
But soon realisation hit you. „I’m gonna have surgery, what time is it?” you asked Addison, still laying on her chest. She started playing with your hair, as she took her phone out, checking the time. „Your surgery is in an hour.”she told you, trying to catch your eyes. You never told her when your surgery is, so she must have informed herself or she just saw it on the surgery board. „We can stay like this for the next hour.”she mentioned, looking down to you hugging her tight. You nodded exited, and looked into her eyes, as she chuckled at your joy about cuddling with her. As she stopped laughing, you stared into each other’s eyes. And for a split second you thought about kissing her, licking at her bottom lip, pulling her in until all of the air left your lungs. The minutes flew by, with the two of you just looking at each other, enjoying the calm moment.
„You’re warm.” you let her know, making her smile. She is really beautiful, you thought. Again you wanted to lay your lips on hers, the image playing in your head over and over. Making you blush and hide your head under her chin, you snuggled your face between her neck and shoulder, smelling her perfume.
Strangely you wanted to stay like this forever, in her arms. But for now, one hour is enough.
Counting the seconds (Series)
Addison Montgomery x freader
Chapter 2 : minutes
Words: 1286
Summary: Back in Seattle you’re not just dealing with a tumour, you met a amazing woman that is eventually going to change your life.
Warnings: in this chapter none but swearing and mention of sex , later I promise you smut, angst, cheating and more.
Updates: Weekly
A/n: This is my first fanfic and English is not my first language. I’m sry if something isn’t perfect. Anyway my first project will be a series obviously. I just thought I’m going to start with something big. And I’m open for requests ;)
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You looked up from your dry food and saw Meredith walking up to you with a smirk on her face. You hoped you would have a calm minute after all the test you had to run after you managed to flee from your little walk. As Meredith sat down she looked like a teenage girl about to talk about some gossip.
„What was that about?” she asked you leaning forward and looking at you exited. “What are you talking about?” you mumbled but you knew exactly what she was talking about. She huffed and looked across the room, searching for something or someone. As she found it she looked back at you and smiled suspiciously. „Seriously, why did you run away earlier??“ she questioned you. You wished you knew. Addison made you nervous, like really nervous.
„I had to go, you know making tests and stuff like that” you replied after staying quiet for a while. „Yeahhh, is it possible that you got nervous?” she assumed in a high pitched voice making you groan. „Why would I ?” You almost shouted. She just sat there chuckling and shaking her head. „Why wouldn’t you?” she asked as if it was obvious. You scoffed looking back at your full plate taking a bite.
Meredith always liked to tease you. So as she didn’t stopped, you could just roll your eyes at her over and over. She looked really excited talking about you and Addison. You didn’t knew why and didn’t want to know. But as she started waving someone over, she got your full attention. You almost spilled your juice as you saw who was walking over to you two now. It was no other woman then Addison.
She looked stunning. Her Hair surrounded her beautiful soft looking face. And you felt nervous all over again. You couldn’t risk Meredith teasing you in front of her. So you told Mer you had to go and quickly left the cafeteria. Your full tray was still standing there, like the two women who looked at the door you just walked through.
You didn’t dared to look back and made a straight line to your room. Of course you felt bad for fleeing from the woman twice. She must think you have a problem with her. Well you have one but you couldn’t possibly tell her that she makes you nervous.
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You felt the cold sheets on your skin as you looked up from your bed. It was quite inside your head and you enjoyed laying there, in the middle of life and death. You were existing in a world, you would simply stop existing after your heart failed or at least when you’re buried deep in the ground. You liked playing with those thoughts as the minutes were slipping away like sand on bars.
Eventually, you decided to let your eyes rest. You tried to take in your surroundings with closed eyes and you could swear someone came into your room. The smell of coffee and something you couldn’t describe invaded your nose. You really liked the smell, it made you feel like a summer morning. Like one of the moments where the sun is caressing your skin.
„Seems like you don’t really like me.”said the familiar voice . The sound was floating and running down your throat like honey. You slowly opened your eyes, feeling oddly relaxed by the smell and the slight raspy voice. Your eyes adjusted to the light and you were met with greyish blue eyes. They were calm and robbed your speech. You followed her nose to her lips and imagined to trace a line on her face. Letting your fingers travel trough her hair and your eyes getting lost in hers.
You snapped out of your trance as she snapped her fingers in front of your face. She smiled as you quickly sat up and looked like a startled bambi. „Are you alright?” she asked and lowered her voice to not startle you again. Just now you noticed that she was sitting at your bed, her hands resting on her knees as she looked at you concerned. „Addison.” you breathed out like you didn’t noticed her before.
„That’s my name.” she whispered, chuckling at your perplexed state. She stood up and grabbed something. You looked at her as she offered you a glass water, realising how idiotic you must look, you grabbed the water immediately. You took a view sips and cleared your throat. „Thanks” you uttered avoiding her eyes, instead looking at your hands.
She sat back down and it was quite for a few moments, you wouldn’t call it awkward but you also didn’t enjoyed the pause. „Why are you avoiding me? We don’t even know each other.” she asked searching your eyes. You started playing with your hands, stressed about telling her the truth or lying. Because of a stupid, unknown reason you just couldn’t lie to her, you didn’t want to. „I was nervous, I don’t know why.” you mumbled looking back up, meeting her soft gaze.
„So you just left.” she remarked amused , trying not to laugh. You couldn’t help but laugh with her, she made you awfully relaxed. „Yeah, I did.” you affirmed smiling to your self. She looked at you with a grin and playfully shook her head at you. „Do me a favour and don’t run next time.”she whispered , leaning forward before she stood up and left. You couldn’t help but look after her, taking in her tall figure as she walked out your door. She was truly beautiful. You thought about having her as your friend, having her near you. Being able to look at her whenever you want.
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„Tell me Y/n, is there a secret lover you haven’t told us about.” Arizona asked excited , looking at you. She sat on the couch with Amelia. On the opposite sat Meredith, her legs over yours, all three women now looking at you. There wasn’t for a long time actually, you dated a few men here and there and had a boyfriend once, but you never really felt anything for them. „No, there isn’t.”you responded shrugging, looking down at your now folded hands. As you looked up, all three women looked at you surprised. Like you just told them the world is going to end.
„Why?” Mer asked stunned, still looking at you like the other two women. „I don’t know, I dated a few times but I never felt attraction or anything to one of them. Maybe I haven’t met the right one jet.” you explained, not knowing what else to say. Arizona suddenly started smiling knowingly, looking at you with kind eyes. Confused why, you sat up looking back at her muddled. “What?” you questioned her, leaning forward.
„But you got laid, right?” Mer asked. You almost choked looking if she was serious. She was. „I did.” you paused „once.” Now everyone was clearly shocked of the new information. It was a long time ago but you had sex once. It wasn’t good, not in the slightest. Back then your boyfriend always pressured you and when you finally gave in, you regretted it immediately. The good thing was, it was over before it started, he came and pulled out. After that you ended it a few days later.
„Let me guess. You didn’t enjoyed it, not one bit?” Arizona figured. You nodded not feeling the need to probably answer to that. Suddenly it was quite, as a question was thrown in the room.
„Do you like women?”
Counting the seconds (Series)
Addison Montgomery x freader
Chapter 1: seconds
Words: 1444
Summary: Back in Seattle you’re not just dealing with a tumour, you met a amazing woman that is eventually going to change your life.
Warnings: in this chapter none but swearing, later I promise you smut, angst, cheating and more.
Updates: Weekly
A/n: This is my first fanfic and English is not my first language. I’m sry if something isn’t perfect. Anyway my first project will be a series obviously. I just thought I’m going to start with something big. And I’m open for requests ;)
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Rain pooling down the drained window like the tears you kept in, now freely falling. Too long you were standing there, just staring at the wall, the floor, the ceiling. Funny isn’t it ? How fast time can run, chasing the long gone minutes.
Shit, I don’t wanna be late- you thought. You grabbed the few things you haven’t packed jet and stumbled out the door.Your flight to Seattle in 2 hours is leaving your throat dry. But to be totally honest you’re excited to see them again. Mer and Arizona were pushing you to visit them again. Yeah, anyway now you’re the one pushing with a tumour housing in your brain.
Lifting your large luggage off the ground and on the treadmill, to finally get checked in, is the last thing you do before you sit on the plane and lay your safety belt on. 6 hours feel long, so high above the ground. You’re not willing to stay awake the whole flight, so you shut your eyes, slowly drifting off as you hear the soft humming of the plane getting quieter.
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After being undisturbed for almost the whole flight you finally wake up. The tall, slightly scary looking man sitting next to you, wasn’t too thrilled by the crying toddler a few seats ahead and decided to murmur and huff complaints in his beard. You use the left time to think about Seattle, to be more concrete you think about the people in Seattle, your people.
You haven’t seen them too often, after Derek died. It just hadn’t felt right to come and visit, you should’ve, now that you think about it. The distance being so short, makes you miss them even more. But this time you visit not just as a friend, you’re a patient. The word never scared you -patient- it sounds so small. Now you’re the patient and it scares the hell out of you. Why?
The plane is about to land and you’re about to see your friends. Stepping of the plane, you lift your head and take a deep breath , inhaling the fresh air seeping trough your lungs. It feels okay to be back, maybe even great.
You pick up your luggage and leave the airport to get a taxi. You already talked to Meredith about your visit and she gladly offered you to crash at her house. Not wanting to spend your first day back in some random hotel, you accepted thankful .
The ride was calm and you thought about ways to don’t make the reunion awkward. You couldn’t blame Mer to be mad. You just left and barely even called. As the taxi neared the location you couldn’t shake off the nervousness climbing up your throat. Too long you were gone, too long you missed mer.
You paid the taxi driver and left the car, headed to her front door, gulping down a not exisiting knot. You counted the steps you made and took one last long breath before you knocked. It didn’t took long for the blonde women to walk down the stairs, straight to the door.
She looked at you, she nearly stabbed you with her sharp stare. Probably you would’ve end up running if she hadn’t stopped looking at you like that . Instead of the nearly cold stare she offered you one of her smiles. „Well, look who decided to actually visit.“ she grinned at you, taking your wrists pulling you in a warm embrace. „I missed you.“ you murmured in her hair hugging her even tighter.
„No need to strangle me!“ she laughed pushing you inside. „You can have your old room back.“ she said practically dragging you and your luggage up the stairs. You missed this. You couldn’t wait to see the others. „I will probably spend the whole time in the hospital.“ you mentioned tapping on your head. To point out the thing with the tumour chilling in your brain.
„Yeah, probably.“ she whispered turning around to look at you. You just looked at each other sharing unspoken words. You were both scared, even if you wouldn’t say it out loud. You shake your head trying to throw the odd feeling away.
„Anyway, today is the day. So hospital is my next stop, do you mind coming with me later?“ you asked trying to lighten the mood. „Of course, I have a shift later so it’s perfect. How about we two catch up ?“ she ask throwing herself on your bed. You smiled, laying next to her.
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There you were, walking trough the hallways of the grey Sloan memorial hospital, with Mer on your left and Arizona on your right side. In every step you made, laid fear. Would you walk out again? Would you survive? You were promised on of the greatest neurosurgeons, one that ist going to help you. And hopefully save you.
„Here we are. You can settle in and Dr. Shepherd will be here in a bit.“ Arizona told you smiling. „Thank you, see you two later.“ you said reaching your bed and laying your stuff on it. They walked out, looking happy to have you again, even as a patient.
You took your clothes and put them in your wardrobe, feeling kinda weird. Obviously you aren’t used to live in a hospital. Finished with organizing your things you sat on the bed, staring at your hands. Damm it, why would you of all people get a tumour?
Clicking heels break your thoughts, urging you to look up. A woman with dark long hair walked in, smiling , with a nervous looking man by her side. “Hello there. Deluca would you mind presenting?”she questioned even if it wasn’t a question. “But make it simple.” you said, not wanting to hear more than needed.
He nodded “ 28, female, with a tumour in her head. Here for a final removal of the tumour.” presented the young man fast, holding your chart in his hands. “So Y/N the plan is that I will observe your tumour over the next couple of days. We will make daily tests to make sure we don’t miss anything and after that you can say your final goodbyes to the tumour.“ Dr Shepherd told you looking at the charts.
„Sounds good“ you said trying to smile not really happy with your long stay at the hospital. „Can you change, I would like to do a Ct.“ she added, looking at you with kind eyes.
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After spending two days in the hospital, you got bored staying in your room all day. Deciding to stop sulking around you got up and found things to do. Currently walking down the hallway with Mer, to kill your boredom, you saw her.
Orange locks effortlessly laying on her shoulders, confidence laying in her step as she made her way towards you. Addison Montgomery, yeah you knew her. Well you never really talked but, the beautiful woman was well known across your friends. You stopped, not daring to come one step near her. So as she stopped in front of you and Mer, piercing right trough you with her daring eyes, she knocked your breath right out of you.
„Hey, Addison“ Mer smiled at her. But Addison was still looking at you tilting her head with a curious smile. „And you are?“ she questioned. You couldn’t stop looking at her, she was literally perfect. She raised her eyebrows, wondering why you wouldn’t answer. „That’s Y/N, you might have seen her before. She is a really good friend of mine.“ Meredith answered for you, chuckling at your loss of words. At that you took your self together trying to get at least one word out, not wanting to look like a complete fool. „What she said.“ you said looking anywhere but at her.
Addison smiled clearly amused by the strange behaviour you showed. „What are you two up to?“ she asked still smiling, lifting her hand to push a strand of hair out of her face. „Walking.“ was all you said trying to find a way to leave this conversation as fast as possible. „Yeah, I see that.” she remarked holding her laughter back. „Y/n here, is bored so she forced me to go on a hospital walk with her.” Mer mentioned looking at you, acting annoyed to tease you. „How about you go on walk with Y/n ? I’m sure she wants to get to know you.” she asked Addison, clearly trying to kill you.
Before anyone could say a word, you turned around. „You know what, I forgot I’m pretty busy dealing with my tumour. I have to go!” you announced, already running of. Leaving the two women stunned behind.