Jan 23, 2018
ahaaaaa, thats why i felt like shit last night.
#dasfjkhlskdjg#asdgfakdfg#adfgasdfg#asdg#adfgdfg#adgf#personal /#yesterday was my grandfather's birthday.#i forgot to visit his grave last year when we were in town#and the trip happened to coincide with the anniversary#i still feel bad about it.#i wish so badly that i had just. a photo. or a recording of his laugh. just. something.#and im still so angry depression fucked me up that year. i didnt get to enjoy the time i had with him#and i didnt even get to grieve properly.#now im thinking about it and turning into all kinds of a wreck fklsjdghldfghj#im going to go play da:i to distract myself. make kissy faces at blackwall and what not.#friends and mutuals i want you all to know i love you so so much okay?#dont take that in any kind of an ominous way just. loss really does cast those things in a brighter light.#im sorry im bad at communication and staying in touch#but i love you all so very much you're wonderful and dont ever let anyone tell you otherwise#you're goddamn blessings each and every one of you