#adhd intensifies

[art-of-mathematics]

procrastinating so hard rn

"The feeling of unproductvity needs to stop", he said while typing this post on his phone, not really being sure whether he is knowledgable about the consequences this thought might offer if acted upon.

and so, he continued to procrastinate... and occassionally he might ask himself what he could do now.

He remembers he needs to go grocery shopping. As it is saturday, and tomorrow the shops are closed, he really needs to do it today. But he procrastinates as he dreads the sensory hell that it will be, he dreads the travel with the overcrowded and unpunctual tram, the intense summer heat, the hurting bright sunlight - and, after all, his executive dysfunction prevents him from putting on proper clothes and hat that might help reduce the brightness of the eternal sunny day. As if he's a prisoner of his own executive dysfunction, he writes this post, feeling defeated, dramatically so.

He laughs about it and attempts to put on clothes.

In three hours he will - hopefully - be in that shop, midst a large castle of food and stuff, and hopefully not so much overwhelm.

[art-of-mathematics]

How I coordinate my chaotic life right now:

I wanted to share some of my solutions for helping myself with my desorganization and clumsiness:

1. My "wrist office":

(The bracelet-bag-thing was called that way when I ordered it.)

I added a solution for attaching a transparent bag onto the "wrist office" - so I can directly see the content (like some notes).

I added a velcro place for two numbers onto the tiny transparent bag - say, to attach the current date:

I created some number velcro patches. (I created 1 and 2 twice, as there are two dates per month were you need two same numbers - (11 and 22). Hence, the other numbers are only made once.)

Then I created a patched ruler where I can collect all number patches, so I can fastly exchange them at the transparent bag when needed.

2. My wallet:

- with a 4-coloured ballpoint pen (for quick notes)

- with an attached spiral notebook at the back

- with a tiny booklet with PVC sleeves (for collecting important information, and/or storing pictures/quotes/affirming or inspiring stuff I enjoy) [not filled yet]:

- The notebook at the back has the perfect length so I can secure the front with a hair tie:

As the notebook's back is "porous" (It's cardboard material, which suffers under being carried around all the time), I Improved by attaching an additional PVC sleeve.

[art-of-mathematics]

Put that into recursive loop mode, and I'm in!

(Until it loops into itself (like a tangled hierarchy (referring to the book Gödel Escher Bach here)) and becomes an iterative rendering process of cyclically updating the big picture by the dynamical implementation of details...)