#adhd speaks

[rudavoidish]

And when they transvestigate me, they'll find nothing more nor less than the threads of dreams forming into a mock of God's creation

[amysteryandamess]

Today, I shall become an expert in grey squirrels.

[tandy-angel]

i always get rlly annoyed when my irl implies being neurodivergent or talks ab hyperfixations because by god she has never seemed as troubled as i know myself to be by neurodivergency. she always talks about the quirky sides of being neurodiv and not the debilitating effects of things other than "omg im so obsessed w this show" or "aw im so fidgety" or "cant sleep before 2am :(" or something when she only presents or talks about the socially acceptable adhd/neurodiv traits

girl i dont brush my teeth or hair ever, at most once a month. i only shower because of my food service job, so thank god for that. hygiene is truly one of the biggest, least talked about problems of people w adhd. plus, i have terrible impulse control, lashing out most often in the form of harming myself, having deeply rooted self harm tendencies interlocked w adhd tendencies that enable them. i suffer from mild echolalia at times, which though it isn't particularly troubling, is embarrassing af. i often have a hard time understanding what people are saying, whether irl or on tv, and struggle w/o captions in most cases. i have trouble understanding meaning behind words, and am told i take everything literally to the point where my family harasses me about it. i have trouble regulating my feelings, easily becoming distressed at the slightest stressor. by god it is not easy, it is not quirky, and i truly hate neurodivergency. i would give anything not to be this way

but then i have to step back. i have to realize that we can never know everything about someone. she could be struggling with all those things. while i'm a mess and most people i interact with know. probably a lot of people dont know all of that. they don't know every thing that i struggle with. and while it upsets me that maybe her adhd/neurodivergency isn't as visible as mine, that doesn't mean it's not there

she could be one of those "omg im so quirky i get distracted sometimes" adhd girls. but she also could be someone who deeply struggles as i do, and i cannot fault her for holding space for herself

by god i need to do the same.

[cyber-inkblot]

Okay.

*breathes calmly*

angry rant (Inky-Style) on prescribed medicine below

AAAAAAGGGHHH people who joke about ADHD kids being ‘off their pills’ or ‘happy pills’.

GUYS

SIT DOWN

STORY TIME

Not so long ago, there was a little girl. Let’s call her Beth. Now Beth is very agressive and hates writing and can never concentrate. So her parents, the Darlings go to have her tested. It turns out she has ADHD. So her loving parents tell the school and she gets extra time, is allowed a computer and is given a pill.

Over the next few years, the girl finds her right dosage.

During this time, she takes up rugby, gets known for her temper, and makes a friend.

All goes well until one day, when the girl is 14, she forgets to take her pill when she goes to school.

When she arrives, no one know her.

In a way, she doesn’t know herself