how I’ve been looking at my assignment for the past hour because it looks like too much and I can’t lock in :

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how I’ve been looking at my assignment for the past hour because it looks like too much and I can’t lock in :
Adhd
Some rare days I get this surge of energy and feel like I can overcome adhd.Those times I like to believe I can be normal and live life like others if I put in some work.The truth though i know is I need to work with my adhd it's not a thing I can "overcome".I need to live with it.Its painful living with invisible disabilities.People will recognise the pain and struggles of a crippled person.There are ramps and accessible places for them.Imagine telling a crippled person to use the stairs like "normal" people and berating them if they aren't able to.That's what living with adhd is like.Noone sees your pain.Noone acknowledges your pain.You are forced to use the stairs.No ramps for us.Eventually all the insults get to us and we question ourselves why we can't be like the other people.We tell ourselves maybe they are right we just aren't working hard enough.So we struggle everyday and blame ourselves for it.We blame ourselves for our pain.I hope the world becomes more kinder and accessible for people like us.I am tired.
First cry at the state of the world and my life in 2026 alriiii lets go
(the adhd enduced spirals are so real, surprised it took me this long)
Me: *makes a organized schedule*
also me 30 minutes later: i don’t want to go grocery shopping tho, i’ll do it later
*proceeds to watch anime for 5-6 hours* me: *checks time* fuck…
anybody else like this??
I don’t see what the big deal is. I’d rather have BioSteel, if I’d only remembered to bring it #ADHDsucks (at West End YMCA) https://www.instagram.com/p/CbODuQzvdcy/?utm_medium=tumblr
Just me, taking a break from my assignment, looking at memes about my assignment
Don’t mind me, Imma just lay here and continue to suck at life, k thanks.
one of these things is not like the others
three weeks out from dr. appt. for g to determine if adhd is the culprit or if it was the uncooked hotdogs and excessive amounts of doritos i consumed during my pregnancy that is to blame. damn chemicals and gmo's.
there wasn't a 'straw that broke the mama's back' moment for us, really. just a realization that our son was about to be nine years old and it feels to us like he is still a toddler some days with all.the.reminders. he has his moments of typical nine year old behavior, sure. but boy, those moments feel few and far between most days.
a lengthy email, a couple of phone calls and boom: we have an appt. to get our beautiful first born boy tested. for what we *think* must be adhd. (all the books i've read confirm it) and all i can think is, thank god! it's adhd. all this time i thought i was just a really shitty mother. whew. except not.
i just really want a complete CTRL/ALT/DELETE on the last few years. all the frusteration, yelling, consequences, tears, hurt feelings, misunderstandings, all of it. we just thought we have got ourselves a really headstrong, stubborn, strong-willed kid. maybe we do. maybe there is a reason.
we just want to do what is best for our family. g's issues have really put a stress on our whole family, even though we try hard not to let it. we want a less stressed out situation for all involved.
i've lost count of how many times i've left our house in such a state that my husband legit says, "you're coming back, right?"
like i said...CTRL/ALT/DELETE.