[2k12 Rasey] ❛ i jus’ wanted t’ make sure yer okay.❜
| Muse Interaction
The first time Casey reached for Raph's mask, he just turned around to kept the knot out of their reach. When they tried again he turned and twisted out of the way. Even if he was playing it off with a laugh it was a bit odd that Raphael pulled away before Casey could grab at the tails of his mask. At least it should be odd, he never took issue with them doing it before. Setting a hand to Casey's shoulder to push them back slightly leaning back and ducking out his reach. Casey had the advantage with those long arms of his. So it took a lot of effort to keep out from his reach. Free hand grabbed at a pillow before he swung it over to slam into his boyfriend. Trying to keep to the playful act as he looked to Casey.
"Quit it I know I'm handsome unda' the mask an' all. But I ain't plannin' on sticking around long tonight. Be easier to keep it on so I don't gotta go looking for it in the dark."
Raphael excuses before falling back on to Casey's bed, arms folded behind his head, ignoring any of Casey's protest or complaints. Letting his eyes close as he went and turned them out a bit.
"Jus' go ta sleep dontcha got stuff ta do tomorrow?" he brushes off with to try and get them off the topic of getting his mask off. Despite what he said, though, he found the lure of sleep easy here, blaming it on Casey. Of course, they always found comfort in them. No struggle for rest. It was hard to resist.
Listening to Casey talking, feeling them beside him, Raph found himself turning his head to look at them as they were talking. A soft smile on his beak as he found himself moving in closer towards Casey. Tucking in against them to soak in their warmth. Raphael found himself yawning, telling Casey something about how he wasn't going to fall asleep he was just simply resting clearly. Even as his eyes were growing heavy, taking in his boyfriend's scent, arms moved to hold around Casey's frame so he could get in closer. Another yawn was followed by another protest about how he wasn't going to be falling asleep. Of course, he was. He was tried, and Casey was just so comfortable. Face nuzzle in against them, and that was the last thing he remembered. Being I'm Casey's hold, the tail end of their voice lingering in his ear, the feeling of their hoodie against his face, the beat of Casey's heart. It was soft.
Once feeling so light and clam as he felt his body succumb to sleep. Soaking in Casey's warmth, how their arm arm laid over him, how the ends of his hair slightly brushed against him as they got in closer. just them over all. He wished that feeling stayed when soon he found himself lost in the dark. A voice echoed in his head, giving him orders he tried to resist but couldn't feel his body move as if being pulled by strings. Eyes forced open as he rolled away to his shell. Everything in him was screaming. That fight or flight feeling he knew so well was crushing him against the mattress. As if someone was pressing a foot to his plastron, the more vulnerable side of his shell.
Raph had moved out of the bed, panicked, and breathed hard. He was tugging his mask down so he could feel over the space between his eyes a moment. He could still feel it. Feel how that thing went into his head. How all he heard was their voice. How he knew what he was doing but couldn't stop. If shredder told him to kill, he would..he almost did to. Almost took his own brothers life even. That's the worst part he could see that so clearly standing over Leo, a lifeless Leo. Just like his nightmares. Sometimes, it wasn't inly Leo. He dropped to his knees and started the shake as his body shivered violently. He felt colder. His breath was growing, and his rapid eyes searching the room now till landing on a trash bin he managed to get himself to move to it.
Get it out, get it out, and get it out!
Raph's mind may as well be screaming as he forced his body to start dry heaving hunched over the bin. He needed that damn worm out! Slow to move away from the bin, certain nothing was left he felt his shell hit the wall beside him. Only now recalling where he was. He was at Casey's. Fuck. Near slamming the heels of his hands against his eyes as he pulled his knees up and tried to get his breath under control again. Shaking again as he tossed his head back, letting it knock back against the wall softly.
The fuck was wrong with him.
That's when Raph pulled out his phone. When Leo finally answers Raph voice was quite he doesn't want to wake Casey. Leo's didn't sound groggy when they answered, a glance to the window Raph could see it was still somewhat dark out but the sky was getting lighter.
"Leo?" Of course, he answered stupid. "Uh yeah, it's me, sorry, just..Don and Mieky? Splinter? They're fine, right?" He paused to listen to Leo talk, settling when he was told there were.
"Yeah, just dozed off at Casey's, that's all.." keeping his voice low as he could so not wake them either. Raph felt over his face moment. Leo was ready to go off about curfew and whatever else. "Le?" he says softly into his t-shell. "Could ya meet me turnstyles?" There was a pause on Leo's end now, but when Raph speaks again, there was relief "Thanks I'll head out now." Moving from his place on the floor, as he hung up tje call lifting his mask back in place over his eyes.
I was just about to make his way out and head home without a word. He paused to look to the bed. Eyes landing on Casey in the dark. He bite at his bottom bill, questioning if he should just text them he left to go home. But soo je found his feet, taking him back to the bed. Moving to the side, he set his hand on to Casey's shoulder to shake them a bit, assuming they had been asleep the whole time.
"hey bonehead." He offers a slight smile that was likely hard to see in the dark "I'm headin' out alright?" That was where Raph wanted to leave it as he moved to get up only stopped by Casey's expression in the room. "sorry but I already got Leo covering for me I don' need Splinter on my ass for being out so close to mornin. Again." He tries to brush off "ya know, mutant turtles are bit easier to notice when the sun is out."
i jus’ wanted t’ make sure yer okay.❜
Casey was one of few people who could read Raph and the only one who seemed to understand his actions best. It shouldn't be a surprise they could tell something was up. Something seen as both a blessing and a cruse at times.
"who me? yeah i'm-" Raph cut himself off, lying to Casey, who was not something he liked to do, but at the same time, he just?
So instead, Raph leaned forward a bit, dropping his forhead to rest on their shoulder. It wasn't the answer Casey was going to want, but it was at least a way to explain it. He let him.self stay like that a bot longer before speaking, sharp breath drawn in.
"No, but i'm handlin, it so i will be." Pulling back soon after, he was sure Casey wasn't going to like that answer after all. He wasn't okay, but he wasn't saying why, lifting up a bit so he could give them a light head bump
"Aye gotta go, it's still dark enough I won't have ta worry 'bout being seen. I'll text you later, okay?" In other words,'I ain't talkin' about it'. And ysing his uqinue circumstances as the excuse to get out of it right now. Which might be worse considering all they have been able to say to each other before.
Raph pulled away and made his way for the window, not wasting much time to leave fast as he could. If Casey tried to protest or offer to talk still he wasn't listening. He did miss how it felt to lie in the bed with them but he needed to go Leo was likely there by now as he paid a quick glance back towards Casey's place. Nah it wasn't anything to worry them about, like everything Raph would just get over this too. Wave offered and a cheesy moment to kiss against his fingers and aim them towards Casey before he he made his way to the nearest rooftop to get going. If he acted like he was fine then surly it be fine. That lie might be more himself than Casey though.
















