ok, but punk agender!derek who is full of anxiety and cuts his own mohawks but they are forever crooked and his nail polish is always chipped and his hair is like dead from bleaching it constantly to dye it pastel colors and his cuticles are just as fucked and almost constantly bleeding from him biting them, but then like maybe he also plays guitar and that's the only time he can get his hands to stop because maybe like it was his dad's and that's the only time he can really be still, really feel whole, only maybe he kind of sucks, but he doesn't care and he plays any way and his voice is always rough and gravely from all the screaming and yeah...