#agnusdeisanctus

[dannymolloy]

"Why are you so interested in us?"

Daniel looked at the young faced vampire with full focus, but then his violet eyes darted around the both of them, seemingly slightly worried. Eyes fixed on the ancient again then. He hesitated for a long while in silence, but then spoke silently. “Are you alone?“

[everarddelanden]

Honestly, how do you feel about Benedict?

“You make me sound like a perpetual liar.“ he answered with a raise of his brow. “I have always been honest about him. We share a history. One no one else knows, which makes him annoyingly reliable. We get along yet we don’t. We can easily live without each other, but can not avoid one another. He knows me, when I don’t know if I truly know him.“

[desanctii]

"You look as though you want to scream -- but keep swallowing it."

Santino glanced aside, jaw grinding slowly. “Is that so? And what business is that of yours?” It was a snap rather than a question and Santino heard it as clearly as anyone else. His expression eased and softened into a mask of politeness. He lowered his shoulders with a deep measured breath. 

“Can I help you?”

[actricedesvampires-blog]

agnusdeisanctus replied to your post: Did Rhosh make you kiss Benedict too?

“I’m not sure how to feel about questions like these.”

“Sweet Benedict. Don’t let them bother you, people have always loved speculating on the scandalous. Don’t share what you don’t want to be shared.”

[everarddelanden]

What was the worst present you have ever gave to someone?

“I might have put decapitated doll heads on all the lights in Benedict’s Christmas tree two years ago.“

@agnusdeisanctus

[everarddelanden]

FIVE HEADCANONS ABOUT YOUR MUSE

REPOST, DO NOT REBLOG.

tagged by: @sacredvein

tagging:  @rhoshamandes, @dark-eyed-elegance, @immortalboywonder, @of-ivory-and-gold

1. Everard, whenever he is deeply hurt, either through loss, betrayal or disillusionment, retreats to places that are familiar and where expectations are zero. Back in the day, he would turn to the friends that had helped him resettle in the world after leaving the Children of Darkness. Because of this, he trusted the coven fully and any old or new member that was welcomed by them. It was a place where he could be himself and they knew how to behave around him in those times. It was anonymous, it was safe and it was familiar. But they were destroyed by Akasha. Despite his bad relationship with them and it on the surface seeming to be illogical, he now ventures out to go to Rhoshamandes and Benedict. Though not understanding him, they know him fully. It's just as anonymous, because they are such recluses. In a way, it is a safe place from outer threats in a moment of weakness and despite walking on eggshells, it's familiar. It is, in fact, the only place he can go.

The following insight was provided by @helloitsfeffsagain:  Being so attached to people who used to spend so much time in the same place and to the castle (that has in itself the concept of the hermit), is very comforting for someone like Everard who loves repetitive actions to rock himself like a nervous child. He loves new people obviously, but he needs to surround himself by himself, so of course he seeks the place where there is the core of his essence, so where he was born again, to enter physically in his mental nest.

2. Everard experiences emotions purely as feelings and will act on them in the moment. He rarely expresses or puts them down in words. He feels strongly and deeply, but never lingers on their possible origin. At least not further than its initial instigation. So if anyone actually asks him about the reasoning behind (perhaps in their eyes) odd behaviour or extreme coping mechanisms, he kind of short-circuits and will find it extremely hard to explain it to them. His response to his emotions are almost instinctive and he does not question them, because they got him this far. This is mainly the reason he ‘bounces back’ quickly after certain trauma, because he does not dig as deep as calling things a trauma, but merely an inconvenience thrown his way to overcome. This can to others come off as indifference towards certain situations or it can later catch up with him because he’s not fully recovered from it. Imagine him then as the Shocked Pikachu meme.

3. Point two is also the reason why he has no idea, that his preference in lovers, who are often handsome, strong and confident, but also caring, gentle and kind, are a direct reflection of what he found in Rhoshamandes and Benedict. But then the best parts of them combined. His turning was chaotic and unwanted and the only thing he had as point of reference, was them. It is often said your current emotional state is hardwired tenfold in you, once you’re turned, which makes a lot of sense. Again, my darling @helloitsfeffsagain added the importance of his homosexual awakening through it all. Back in 13th century France, loving another man was forbidden. So even if he had these feelings all along, he did not foresee a future where this was a part of his life. being taken by Rhoshamandes, whom of course was undeniably and inescapably triggering these preferences in Everard, to go from living in a world where such a thing is forbidden, to then live it constantly and without limit, must have been earth shattering for his conscience.  He has no idea how all of this left a huge imprint on his existence, influencing a lot of his choices. It also propelled him in an eternal conflict how to feel about Rhoshamandes and Benedict.

4. On a more positive vibe, Everard is quite the idealist! He believes people are good by nature and can always strive to become better. This is what makes it so hard for him to understand people can act purely evil acts. It often makes him unable to forgive repetitive acts of injustice. The ‘punching down’ principle kind of applies here. 

Being an idealist can come off to others as naive and makes him vulnerable to manipulation. But, this also means he will never just dismiss someone for trivial reasons, because there is potential in everyone. He for example allows anyone in his territory, because he gives everyone the benefit of the doubt. It makes him gravitate towards younger vampires, because they don’t have the arrogant and pre-set attitudes many of the elders have. Spending time among mortals and young vampires helps him stay grounded, connected to current times and keeps him humble.  The stance towards elders having attitudes, of course, is a prejudice in its own. He is aware of this, so also for those older than him, he offers the benefit of the doubt and is not at all too stubborn to change any preset opinions. He also does not approve of forming opinions about people by association or over what they might have done to others. It’s why he has no issues getting friendly with Daniel or Benji. They are not their Makers. As he would not want to be judged by his association with Rhoshamandes either. 

Trivia 1: This doesn’t stop Everard mentioning Rhoshamandes’ name to stranger’s threats to save his own neck, though... :'D. We can also add Opportunist to the list of default characteristics I think, haha!)  

5. In opposition to the college AU, Everard’s pretty invested in the mechanics of running a business. He owns a few auction houses in the province of Siena and goes there quite frequently to stay in contact with his employees. His whole house is decorated with antiques he gets to pick out before they go off to be auctioned. When he runs into a prettier piece, he will quite easily distance himself from the old one and have it auctioned off instead. His Siena home interiour therefor rotates quite often. He likes it like that. It’s like breaking routine, without upsetting the routines that really matter to him.

Trivia 2: What no one really knows (except perhaps David at this point) is that, despite being quite conservative and holding rather old world views himself, he actually owns a stand-up, drag, cabaret and burlesque bar called ‘Tre Fenicotteri Blu’. He quite enjoys being among the eccentric, creative people of this age, which tickled him since the 1980′s. He does however not visit there often enough, because the enthusiastic hosts always put the lime-light on him and believe it or not, he doesn’t like this. He would much rather just slip in, enjoy his night just watching everyone have a good time and slip back out at his own convenience.

[everarddelanden]

✘ Could you ever forgive Armand and Benedict?

“Armand? Absolutely not. Retroactive kindness has no say in the matter. And when it comes to Benedict, maybe. Give it a couple of millennia and I will get back to you on that one.“

[everarddelanden]

"Have YOU ever made out with a woman?"

He cleared his throat. “Yes, actually. I was twenty-two and quite inebriated. I would not have remembered it, if my brothers had not reminded me of it the next morning.“