Sometimes I call you an asshole in my head. It sounds angry, like I'm ready to hurl some sort of accusation at you. Sometimes I do, actually.
You asshole. You made me fall in love with you. Everything I'd worked so damn hard to have that kept people out of the places that hurt the most since losing him. Since leaving him. You decimated them. Fuck. Fuck I hate that.
Except I don't. I don't hate it. You're not an asshole. Smart ass, yes. Obviously. But not asshole. And I say 'made'. Well that's an exaggeration too, isn't it. You didn't make me do anything.
Yet I didn't really ever have a choice in it. Just like you.
I've said it and I know you've heard me. But you haven't really called me out on it yet either.
Why? I almost ask some days. But then I wonder if I'm ready for whatever answer you'll give me.
I am yours though. Have been for a while.
I'm yours. And Isaac's. You're Mine. And Deidre's. Time is funny that way.
I really do love you. You stubborn wolf.










