Aimless Days🔥[Self para]
In which Gem spends his first month in prison, awaiting trial...[takes place: month of August]
[cw -- violence; thoughts of death/suicide (vague)]
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a few notes on this series moving forwards: i have never been to prison!! and i hope to never be incarcerated. i am very anti-incarceration!! it is something i am very passionate about and one of my big motivators for telling gem's story.
however, again, i have not been! i've done research, i've read about experiences, watched documentaries, etc. but i can only do my best!! and some things are dramatized, not to be sensationalized, but for the narrative of the story i am telling.
and, finally, throughout the narrative, i am referring to the people in the prison as "prisoners". even though "incarcerated persons" is the more thoughtful term, this narrative is told in a close 3rd person and it felt more true to gem's voice to call them prisoners, as that is how he views himself and them.
ANYWAY -- i know this is a heavy plot and i know that it is something can be sensitive, so, i wanted to take a moment, like i do with any big, serious plot i do, to give a little explanation as to my thought process so i feel less self-conscious about it, lol. :)
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As Gem stepped out of the van and onto the familiar gravel of the Abracadabra prison grounds, he felt the echo of every step that he had taken, leading him once more to the horrible stone building looming above him now.
It felt so trite for the regret to be burning in his lungs, so hot that it stole the oxygen and squeezed him tight. What a stupid emotion: regret. It didn’t help anyone. It didn’t fix anything. It was an emotion for wallowing like a pig in mud.
He didn’t want to let it in, but what else was there? Gem felt made of regret.
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