Man iam sad not just for akbagi, but also akmoon, she was everything bagi needed, but unfortenaly came to late. I fucking love teaduo but in'st wrong to say that in qbagi/akbagi life she need something sure, something she never had with qtina, all her life she suffered of unsure things, like: if shes gonna find her brother, on how she will take a purpose on her life, what the future will hold. And the relantionship with tina
Bagi always showed how much she wanted to be with tina, how much she wanted tina to be sure of her, trought the letter, trought the ring, trought the scream of love she shouted for qtina on purgatory 1, trought her making a whole area for her date with tina.
But qtina never had the time to be sure, because she was insecure (which is totally undestable when you know her lore.)
And qbagi just accepted this unsure condition, because she cares more about the others than herself ( she accepted qtina unsure feelings towards her, she accepted qcellbit unsure feelings about their past, and her unsure life.
But she never trought of something stable for her.
And when a stable person came into her life
Ak!moon, who was always sure of what she wanted with qbagi, always toke care of her, loved her, made a whole explosion (just because she knows bagi likes explosion.) That maked a whole hole shaped as a heart on the ground, who fucking made a serenede for her with the music " love like you - Steven universe" who accepted her even If she was having to use the same body as akmatt. Akmoon was even planning to ask her in marriage.
But even so, akbagi choosed death over her, because it was late to recieve such a stable thing on her life, her mind was alredy damaged.
cause is just like cc!bagi said sometimes if some people are loved, cherished,liked. They can still have suicidal troughts, and a damaged mentality , because the damage alredy has been made. Someone without love for herself, will not content with the love of other people.
Because they live on the suffering of the past and present
And now akmoon is alone, sad, and is blaming herself , she now always will carry the burden of not being able to save the woman she loved, because the woman she loved lived on the past, lived on the suffering, and choose that over moon
:(