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[fangirlstill]

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@fangirlstill what has the spoiler actually said? I love my Caryl family but we do tend to get worried over nothing lol!

It is pretty specific :( so it could be our worst nightmare.  I think it all depends on what other scenes there are, and so far we have no information. For me, any C@rzekiel is too much, so I’m not watching until it’s over, but I still ship of course, and I don’t think it’s the end of Caryl. 

Spoiler is. 

“shiny on TSDF:  UPDATE #4 6/18/18: We have now corroborated with multiple sources that Carol and Ezekiel will develop a romance. We were told that something happens in episode 9.1 that makes a romance between the two apparent. However, we do not know the actual status of this relationship. We don’t know if they are already an established couple at this point or if they are on their way to becoming canon in this episode. All we have right now are multiple reliable sources indicating that these two will be getting together.”

[vicivefallen]

"Despair" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs, or "I Guess I Should Go To Sleep" by Jack White :)

Why not both? :D

Despair by Yeah Yeah YeahsMy favourite lyrics are:Through the darkness and the light, some sun has got to rise.

I Guess I Should go to Sleep by Jack WhiteMy favourite lyrics are:Keeping quiet is probably my best bet yet, ‘cause I ain't managed to say the right thing yet.

Leave your favourite song in my inbox! I’ll listen and tell you my favourite lyrics from it.

[thereadersmuse]

Hey! I just saw on na-bruma-leve's post that you said you'd done a caryl Hunger Games AU too! Can you post a link to it, as I'd love to read it!

Oh- of course! I did a caryl one and an aaric one, actually. They are really just quick drive-bys I took at the idea after watching the movies a while back.

Even the Phoenix (needs ashes to rise)   - caryl

Our names (on tongues that are not born)  - aaric.

[jeeno2]

No. 1 and whatever pairing makes you happiest!

Oh my god – you’re in love with her (Cassian x Jyn)

———————-

Jyn thinks of lots of different ways to tell him.

This is something he’d wanted – that they’d both wanted, really – for so long.  Ever since the war finally ended and they realized, all at once, that they no longer had to be afraid.  

It was so long ago, their decision to do this, to just go for it, that in truth she’d almost forgotten all about it.  But last night, while Cassian was sleeping, she’d had a strange, indescribable feeling that something, deep inside of her, had changed in a permanent, fundamental way.

An hour later, she sat crouched in a small ball on their bathroom floor, shocked out of her wits, gripping the little test with the two pink lines on it tightly in her fist.  

And she continued to sit there, staring at it, until the suns rose.  

Does she still want this to happen to her?  To them?  For the first time in her life she feels safe, secure, happy.  She knows Cassian does as well.  

Now that it’s finally happening, she feels… confused.  

Either way, she supposes, there’s no denying that this is here, and it's real, and it's happening.

“I’m pregnant,” she tells him when he comes home the next afternoon.  Just like that.  Jyn’s never been one for ceremony or for mincing words.  In the end, she decides there’s no need to hide the news from him or to wrap it up in a pretty bow.

He’d been out all morning, chopping wood for their new fire-burning stove.  At her words the logs in his arms come crashing down to the floor.  He’s across the room in two long strides and he gathers her into his arms, picking her up off her feet and spinning her around and around, laughing and crying with giddy joy.

As he spins her, as he kisses her, she realizes this is everything she never knew she wanted during all of those horrible years -- the way Cassian looks at her right now and the safe, loved, cherished way he makes her feel whenever she looks back at him.

When Jyn feels the baby move for the first time her life divides, in a clean instant, into a before and an after.

The rational part of her brain knows this is normal.  That this is exactly what’s supposed to happen.  But rationality evaporates like dew in the morning sunlight with the first flutter flutter kickkickkick she feels not so much in her belly as in her very soul.  All at once, all of her old fears of death and abandonment come back, unbidden, crashing down on her in a torrent of blinding pain.

“I think I’m in love with you,“ she admits to their child, choking out the words on a quiet sob, standing on the stool in their new kitchen, as she rubs her hands over her swollen stomach.  She wills their unborn child to understand what she’s saying and what she isn’t.  "And gods, I’m terrified.“

That night she spends hours locked in the sorts of nightmares she hasn’t suffered from in years.  In her dreams she’s running again.  She’s killing and trying not to be killed.  She’s hanging on for dear life to that terrible ledge back in Scarif while Cassian falls to his death beside her, over and over again, as she looks on helplessly, powerless to save him.  

It takes Cassian hours that night to coax her awake and bring her back to the him in the present.

"What if we can't keep her safe?" she asks him, sobbing, tears streaming down her face.

He tightens his hold on her and kisses the top of her head.  "We can," he promises her.  He kisses her again, and again.  "We will."

The months pass quickly, and yet so slowly.  Jyn feels like she’s trapped in a horrific, sticky resin that makes all her movements sluggish and slow.  At the same time she’s also full of an uncontrollable, fidgety energy that makes sitting still impossible.

Jyn doesn’t think she could really describe it to anyone, how she feels.  So she doesn’t try.

She gets big, and bigger, and then bigger still in what feels like the blink of an eye.  She hates it, though she won’t admit that to Cassian, who still looks at her blossoming body every night like she hung the moon.  Her body is not truly her own anymore, and after years spent running and hiding and fighting for her life that’s something she’ll never get used to.

She still goes flying as often she can, trying to ignore how much harder it is now to wedge herself behind the control panel of her jet.  

About two years after their Lyra is born, the three of them are having a picnic together in the meadow near their home on Fest when their daughter says her first words.

“Dada! Mama!” she says, giggling and dancing and jumping around in that special way of hers. She has her smile, much to Cassian’s delight, and his bright brown eyes.  Lyra toddles over to them from where she’s been playing all afternoon, chubby arms outstretched, her sweet tiny fists crammed with wildflowers.

“Oh, Lyra  -- they’re beautiful!” Cassian exclaims, grinning from ear to ear, so besotted with their daughter it makes Jyn's heart ache.

“Oh, my god – you’re in love with her,” Jyn says, teasing her husband.  But her smile is as wideas his.  She takes the flowers from her little girl and brings them up to her nose.  “Lyra, darling– they smell wonderful.”

Lyra laughs, then, turning around and around in circles the way she does whenever she gets very excited.  It isn't long before her infectious energy brings Cassian, and then Jyn, to their feet as well.

They stay there for hours that day, dancing and playing together, and creating beautiful new memories until the twin suns set over the horizon.

[jeeno2]

omg, All I Want by Joni Mitchell is one of my all time favourites too! The whole Blue album is sheer perfection - like - every single track on that album is beautiful. *sighs forever*

Oh god, I know.  I listened to that album over, and over, and over again from like 1998-2005.  In fact, I never actually stopped.  

So. Many. Feels.

[drivebyanon]

Pass the happy along! When you get this, reply with 5 things that make you happy and then send it to the last 10 people in your activity! 🌸✨💕

My little crazy Dori

All my wonderful friends

Sunny days I have off

Archery

Tropical vacations!

[jhutchmyanchor]

Pass the happy along! When you get this, reply with 5 things that make you happy and then send it to the last 10 people in your activity! 🌸✨💕

Thanks!

1. my husband

2. my family

3. my dog

4. chocolate

5. organization

[geektaire]

Tell me your favourite band/artist/album/song! And that's all four please... fave band, fave artist, fave album, and fave song :)

I’m so bad with music, really. I can’t really say like what’s my favorite band like some people can. I used to be crazy for the Backstreet boys back in the day, and I think that might be the last band I religiously followed? Last album I bought... it was Rob Houchen’s debut LP and that’s more because I really like him as a person over him as an artist? so I’m trash. 

I don’t got to many concerts, mostly cause they’re crazy expensive here. 

Favorite album? This I can answer. As an album itself I absolutely love both the Hamilton OBC and In the heights OBC recordings, I have had them for over a year both in my phone and I get all pumped up whenever they shuffle on. 

Favorite song? ... again Musical Theater trash... either Do You Hear the People Sing or One Day More. I’ve been banned from walking the dog with ODM on cause we were like 3 blocks away before I realize I hadn’t given him time to pee.... Tiger does not like Les Miserables since then.