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⭒ ⇢ angry & half in love with you & tremendously sorry i turned away . / aes 001 .
ft. @alderess
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HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO @alderess / @thirtor !!
since march, I’ve been honoured to call sunny my writing partner, my twin, and my best friend. I have met few people in my life that I clicked with as quickly as I did with sunny, and it’s been an absolute treat talking to her since then. she is someone so spectacularly talented, kind and funny that I absolutely marvel at her. she carries so much strength and resilience within her that has allowed her to face every challenge head on. writing alongside sunny’s fantastic prose, coupled with the endless support and feedback she’s provided me, has elevated my own writing to a level I could not have achieved otherwise, and my creativity has flourished thanks to our plots. during my first semester back at university, sunny's support helped me through the transition, and her cheering me on (sometimes at :knife: point) really did push me to succeed to the degree that I did. her knowledge of and passion for theatre was absolutely instrumental in helping me prepare for my successful audition for my uni’s musical, and I can’t imagine facing my upcoming show without telling her everything about it. and through everything she’s done for me, she’s done even more for herself. I’ve seen sunny push through some rough patches to succeed and thrive this semester, and I couldn’t be prouder. she deserves every accomplishment, she’s earned everything she’s achieved, she is generous and smart and talented and inspiring. her generosity and humility pushes me to be a better person. I could gush about sunny endlessly, to be honest, but to keep this short(ish) and sweet, I truly am thankful for her friendship. whether we’re crying about our angsty, OP twins, complaining about the latest bullshit in our lives, streaming a mish mash of whatever random crap we’re feeling, or just chatting about our day, I cherish our interactions and our time together. happy birthday, my friend. here’s to an incredible 2019 -- this year is our year, and we’re gonna make the best of it !! xoxo ♥♥♥
* ROLEPLAY POSITIVITY / POST 01 ! happy roleplay positivity week / month / day / idfk . while i am not aware when this commenced and when it shall end [ though i am a believer it should never end ] i thought i would toss my two cents into the mix . and not only that , but it has been officially three months as of MARCH 27TH that i have had this account !! and not only that , i am pretty close to 700 FOLLOWERS !! lots of excitement .
anyways . i’d like to take some time to talk about some amazing people in my life . over the last few months , i have grown immensely close to a specific group that i would never trade for the world . they truly mean everything to me . the fact that i get to meet some of them in just three months is amazing and i am beyond thankful . this is in NO particular order . so shut up .
@bloodofvader : renee . you are literally are one of my closest friends and i would die for you . your friendship means everything to me . our bond is something i am truly blessed for . you are such a ray of sunshine . you are so talented . your characterization is astounding . youre astounding . youre always there for me . you have such passion and it transfers into your writing . i am beyond proud of you !! i mean , you just signed up for your last college class !! what the fuck !! im so proud of you !! you are such an incredible young woman and i am truly thankful for you . thank you for being you . i love you .
@forcedpower : lucy . you . . . you are so beyond talented . you dont give yourself enough credit for your creations and edits . you taught me so much about photoshop and i am so thankful for that . hell , thats how we became friends !! i normally am never comfortable with voice chatting / calling others when i havent talked to them long . . . but you were so easy to talk to and you were so helpful !! i know you’ve had your hardships on this site . . . but i am so grateful that you found the courage to come back . you are one of my closest friends , lucy . and while you call yourself the devil , you are nothing but an angel to me . thank you for sharing your love and kindness with me . thank you for being my friend . thank you for being you . snoot snoot . i love you .
@forcebound : kat . your alias suits you . starry . because you light up the sky with your smile . you are so generous . . . so generous . you have such a kind heart . you are so patient . talented . so fucking talented . god . it kills me that we’re 33 hours apart . . . but ya know what ?? we’re still close as shit . . . and id never trade that for anything . im so proud of you for going back to school and taking that first step towards a bright future that i know youll reach . reach for the stars , huh ?? you are beautiful and kind and funny . thank you for being you . i love you .
@hechose : ray . fuck we instantly clicked . literally when we first started talking u kept saying hold my hand and i literally would die each time . you are such a precious soul . . . nd lets be real , sheri adopted u so we’re like sisters Uh Oh . you have such an empowering attitude . . . you want to make change in this world . you want to kick ass and make this place better than you found it . like a fuckin girl scout man . and thats inspiring . you are so fucking funny . . . and really ?? you read the shit outta that fanfic . i support you 10000000% to become a producer for films . like you said , one day we’ll be each other’s date to the oscars . you are absolutely gorgeous . thank you for being you . i love you .
@fawnbuns : cynthia . you stink . calling me out ya Nasty . im kidding omg i love you . you literally are gorgeous , both inside and out . you are so talented !! i mean , bro ?? you capture rey so well . it makes me a happy camper . you have such a kind and loving spirit , babe . even tho u like the color shit brown . probs why you stink . but really . . . i love you so much . you are so funny with ur damn jar jar binks bullshit and jabba the slut . even though you can drive me nuts with that , i still am bawling with laughter . you have such a captivating personality . you just light up a room the minute you say hi . you are so lovely and kind and awe inspiring . thank you for being you . i love you .
@jedibetrayed / @horrcrshow : emma . ok literally . . . we slept on such an amazing friendship for so long and honestly ?? thats nasty . shit ok so . you are !! so cute . you are such a generous and loving person . youre so funny . and damn , you write so wonderfully . your ability to prose the shit outta things is so cool . . . and i definitely can find inspiration from your work . you are so wonderful and are always there for your friends . its amazing . you have such a hopeful personality and its just . . . wonderful . god , youre wonderful . you care so much about people and its truly inspiring , babe . you inspire me . god . ok thank you for being you . i love you .
@alderess : sunny . youre the newest in the group , but honestly ?? you fit right in . your alias fits you so well . . . youre literally the personification of sunshine . you care so much about people and you are so kind and its . . beautiful . theres not enough in this world . and not only that ?? but you capture leia so well !! i mean damn !! and your writing is beautiful . absolutely beautiful . just like you !! and an added bonus ?? you like theater . i mean , ,, hello ?? thats amazing . youre amazing !! thank you for being you . i love you .
@chromedwill : leo . man you are generous as fuck . how can you be letting all of us stay at ur place ?? ur nuts . i love you . and im so proud of you !! i love hearing about roller derby and how you kick absolute ass !! im amazed !! and im so ready to see you in action in june !! thats gonna be so cool . youre so cool . and youre such a strong person . and im so , so , so proud of you . you are beautiful and funny as hell . and bitch the way you write phasma ?? amazing . absolutely amazing . youre amazing . shit . tbh you inspire me to want to work out again tbh ?? maybe that sounds weird but ,,, the way you kick absolute ass ?? its inspiring dude . and i love it . thank you for being you . i love you .
this is quite a long post . and tbh ?? i didnt say all that i wanted about my friends . i could write a novel each about them . and im so blessed for that . im so blessed for them . these people mean so much to me . . . and i just want to thank them for not giving up on me . for always being there . for always being kind and loving . im truly , truly blessed for them . thank you .
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The air of Hoth was frigid, and caused the rebel to tuck his jacket further around his frame -- albeit, they hadn’t been settled on Echo Base for too long, and the Captain hadn’t had much of a chance to inspect the new terrain during his recovery ; as he had been confined to either his quarters or the infirmary -- even his transfer to Echo Base from Yavin had been confined and restricted as he had still been classified as wounded ; even if he insisted that he could move himself -- they hadn’t wanted to take any chances. The terrain, almost, in a way reminded him of Fest -- even if the only thing within view to the horizon was the snow and blinding light reflected off of the sun ; Fest had been much more industrial, residents or factories within view as opposed to rolling, white hills and mountains. It was colder than home, albeit -- he could be wrong, he hadn’t been back to Fest since he was a boy; and he was in the understanding that -- after the civil war on the planet -- it was under Imperial rule. ( Another spark to fuel the flame against the Empire, as if he truly needed anymore. ) He starts only slightly when he hears the shifting of snow with the betrayal of someone else walking up to join him, turning over his shoulder before greeting the woman softly, “Princess-”
nightfall instills the air with a chill, nipping at his skin and seeping into his bones. a looming darkness accompanies it like an old companion, a familiar living shadow that creeps into the camp, wrapping itself around his sense, a tendril of dark probing at him -- carrying his name upon it. luke has difficulty telling where the chill in the AIR begins and where the one in the force ends, and he knows there is to be a reckoning soon. it takes a few deep breaths to centre himself, to grasp his own light, to keep control of what he knows he must do. reconstructing his mental fortress, luke brings himself back to the moment, back to the woman before him, staring at him with those earnest, earthy eyes of hers. she isn’t going to like what he has to say -- stars know she doesn’t need any more burdens to bear -- but he can’t keep this from her any longer. tatooine had taught him that things don’t always go as planned, and the possibility of his death -- of his FAILURE -- seems all too real in this moment. some truths just need to be spoken, no matter the pain they cause. in leia there is STRENGTH and resolve, everything that has brought them all to this moment. despite the uncertainty looming over them, luke clings to the strength within her -- she blazes with a fire and a determination she’s going to need in order to succeed. ( and yet he’s caught somewhere between faith and FEAR where she’s concerned. ) ❝ vader is here. ❞ the words remain steady, but he draws them out with difficulty, uncertain what effect this conversation might have on that quiet blaze within her. ( she needs to know -- she needs to know !! ) ❝ now. on this moon. I’ve felt his presence. ❞ the force shudders in response, pressing that cold down upon him, battering against his defenses, threatening to consume his light. ❝ he’s come for ME. he can feel when I’m near. that’s why I have to go. as long as I stay I’m endangering the group -- and our mission. ❞ each word he speaks bears an increased weight, heavy upon his soul. he’s let them down once already, the loss of han still sending shockwaves through the rebellion. they had trusted him -- LEIA had trusted him -- and now they’re without one of their best pilots. the longer luke stays with everyone else, the more likely it is that he draws the empire right to them, demolishing all they’ve worked for in one fell swoop. no, he would have to leave, have to face vader on his own, if only to protect his friends and everything they stand for. the rebellion will NOT fall here, but his presence puts them at risk of doing so. ❝ I have to face him. ❞ he takes a breath, knowing that everything that happened on bespin and everything since has been leading up to this point -- it’s all culminating in THIS MOMENT. finality laces the air, wraps itself around his voice. he’s not said it out loud since that one brief slip aboard the falcon, gripped in the throes of shock and uncertain if he’d even used the word at all, but as he turns his gaze downwards ( away from leia ) he steels himself and allows himself the relief of the admission. ❝ he’s my father. ❞ once again, the force shifts, as though something clicks into place, and the TRUTH sparks in the air. he knows now, and so does leia. it hangs between them, thick and palpable. as he lifts his eyes to once more meet hers, luke finds himself holding his breath. tension creeps into his muscles without him realizing it, and he waits to see her reaction, to see if she’ll look at him differently, knowing the truth. ( and how might she react to the truths yet to come ?? )
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❝ COME ALONG, LEIA. ❞ For all he may be emperor, Padmé still reigns control over the time he spends with his children. A matter he’s been attempting to untangle since Padmé recently returned to him. She thinks herself ill-fitted for the title of empress, but she was royalty before she met him.
Even in the same palace she insists on periods of separation. On some level he’s grown mature enough to understand why. The horror of his transformation can be difficult to comprehend. But not to his children, who share this terrifying, wonderful power; whose definition of fatherhood has always been monstrous.
He stops before the cave, his head like a brazier of spilling embers that blink && gnaw at the air. Where he walks he leaves shadowy tendrils to slither over the frozen ground.
❝ Do you know why we’re here? ❞
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@alderess ( companion drabble to this )
RELIEF floods over him as he lays his eyes upon her -- battered and exhausted, but whole and present nonetheless. in an instant he’s at her side, a newfound guilt churning within him as she scolds him for the worry he really can’t help. from the moment they met, he’s felt responsible for her, felt the need to protect her. they are TWINS, equals, but -- foolish as it might be -- he carries an instinct within him as though he were the elder. another apology rises, but he allows it to die on his tongue. any more remorse from him is likely to go unappreciated, and instead he breathes, long and slow, to centre himself once more. ❝ I know. ❞ the words are whispered, a quiet affirmation of her insistence, and he returns her grip with a squeeze of his own. she is certainly NOT a child, and it’s unfair for him to treat her as such, but she is his student and his sister, and at the end of the day, his duty is to keep her SAFE. ❝ missions go bad sometimes, I know, and -- I should have trusted the force to be with you. ❞ a soft chuckle breezes past his lips, and he smiles down at leia, whose eyelids seem to be growing heavier with each passing second. he should have known she’d feel his unease, should have shielded it better, and a fresh wave of guilt washes over him, though he’s quick to push it back down. ❝ it’ll be better next time, I’m sure. you won’t have me distracting you, I promise. ❞ as leia drifts into unconsciousness, fingers still laced through his, luke’s smile fades and his expression grows sombre, because that’s a promise he’s not certain he can keep. she deserves the opportunity to learn, to make her own mistakes and become a stronger jedi because of them, but when those mistakes can quickly turn deadly . . . there’s no doubt as to her potential or the eventual skill she will achieve, but there is doubt about HIS ability to guide her there. he can be a brother and he can be a teacher, but not both at the same time, it seems. he would much rather be there with her, fighting at her side, together each step of the way. there’s a chance she’d do better under somebody else, somebody less attached, because when she tells him to worry less, he can’t help but worry MORE. ( he doesn’t think he can bear the pain of losing her . . . )
❛ i don’t know what to say , but i’m going to want you till the stars evaporate ❜
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