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Witch hunter

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Chat

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Scene from an AliLuci oneshot im writing, "This Gentle Surgery" ^^

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And I must go mad

Cover piece for a fic I wrote recently!!! ^^

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Much ado about everything

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🫀 Mon Waxë Wod 🫀

A triptych tale of grief and psychosis.

" He finds nothing during these nightly ventures, but when he comes to after several hours, he turns to see his Speaker, his joy, regarding him with a face that’s unbothered by Alistair’s ineffectual little spats. And for those moments, those scarce moments, Alistair can forget that he is missing something. And Lucien can forget that he is slowly watching Alistair slowly die. Slowly, slowly, slowly. "

Read Chapter One here on Ao3

A penny for your thoughts? I thrive on and greatly appreciate asks and comments about my work, even if it's as simple as saying you enjoyed it, so please drop by and tell me what you think! ^^

↓ Story Notes Below ↓

The crux of Alistair's character for me is his lack of identity. He doesn't remember anything prior to the year he spent in prison. Scenes and anecdotes from his childhood are vaguely alluded to in his dreams, or suggested in muscle memory when he flinches away from a touch, but he can never quite grasp them. They haunt him, this past that seems to have never existed, and the future that keeps bending and curving in unnatural ways. It is from here his madness is born

Whenever I write him, and especially for MWW (whose second chapter is currently twice as long as the first one... oops), I try to convey this Lovecraftian sense of nothingness. I try to make the reader feel as though they too are dissociating. Nothing in Ali's life is linear, nothing makes sense. I took a lot of inspiration from the Amnesia games, Miracle Musical, Dostoevsky, Edgar Allan Poe, Kafka, and Cormac McCarthy.

In any event I've been working on this bad boy for maybe a year. I write often but I seldom publish anything; it's half my dedication to the cause and half my perfectionism. I've been sitting on MWW since last summer and it was only recently that I was pleased with the themes and ideas I wanted to convey, and began writing. Even if it's just a fanfiction for my own darn OC I have to put my entire soul into it, that's how I worship God

I hope the message and vibe I'm going for communicates well. English is also not my strongest language so I'm going out on a limb here with my flowery, formal prose. To my one fan (me) I hope you enjoy! <3

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Chapter 1 of MWW is finished! In the editing phase now, should be out between now and Saturday :)

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We get it you like your boyfriend