#alimentarys

[drbrucebananer-blog]

absinthe and milk please? (that sounds like a disgusto cocktail that i would actually drink tbh)

omg same lmao ok

absinthe - do you drink?i rarely feel like it tbh but i dont, like, not drink

milk - describe your family gay chicanx mom (parent? maybe?) i live with and mostly always have and “my family” like 80% of the time is just... me and her. since always, tho girlfriends/partners have came and went. my dad was a Deaf white mechanic (not just as a career, u know, like, all mechanic all the time lol) and a really genuinely good person. he had a kidney transplant when i was like 10 or sth and he died like... going on 3? years ago and i regret not talking to him at least one more time before he did. also stepmom and stepbrother but i just got a notification and i think someone else asked this too so ill save it lol.  extended family on both sides is allll white republicans so lol i uh. i dont really know or associate with any of those people

[drbrucebananer-blog]

alimentarys replied to your post “i saw a picture of a hamburger and im angry”

i had pimiento cheese on a burg yesterday and it changed my life fyi

im torn between my jealous rage and my happiness for you tbh what hte fuck kind of thing is this to say to me right now ;-; 

[jedilukeskywalkers]

alimentarys said: i think this sometimes too but i know i’d only freak out whoever i pick up bc we’d be fucking and i’d be whispering “i’m human i’m human thank god i’m human” because i am messed up with a lot of problems, so i just stay home instead

Maybe i would start crying? For no reason...just...lol crying...and be like “its okaaay its fine sob sob sob” 

Then i would inmediatly feel ridiculous for being doing that i would be “emotions...gross” because thats how i feel after doing something emotional that makes me vulnerable...i feel stupid and weak and embarrased i need to fix this because is so terrible

[drbrucebananer-blog]

alimentarys replied to your post “watashisophia replied to your post “sure why not take a dex and crack...”

this is the cutest thing i have ever read in my entire life

i knowwwww  watashisophia

[drbrucebananer-blog]

alimentarys replied to your post “alimentarys replied to your post “leading ofc to a very important...”

i hope i am always remembered as a piss floodgate opener thank you (i got waylaid in my due south watching by other things but i still appreciate your poasts)

it will be there whenever u might return to it, the important thing is u know who im talking abt lol i mean

imo one can appreciate trash no matter the characters but sometimes it’s just so much better when u know them and i think benton fraser is one of those characters that ohh my god. it’s SO much better when u know who he is and what he’s like bc he’s just so ??????? ugh

[drbrucebananer-blog]

alimentarys replied to your post “leading ofc to a very important question of is he ticklish”

pls understand that i have liked this post before even understanding the context

i do understand this 

i understand so well 

[drbrucebananer-blog]

alimentarys replied to your post “how much do u start to make posts and then cancel them and it feels...”

this sums up very much my life on tumblr. "these ppl don't want to hear abt my problems or triumphs they want another photoset of birds w their heads in yogurt cups" (i also delete posts that don't get notes within a couple hours im trash haha)

im like well u clicked the follow button buddy im just here doing what im doing lmao / altho... i have done the same a few times more recently ......... maybe i am becoming too concerned with my image or sth idk 

well also you know, sometimes i wonder abt ways that like, getting notes as positive feedback almost certainly must shape what and how i post??? (also i think tumblr has made me kind of a better writer when it comes to Actual Things like when i have a point to make, just by a combination of example and getting notes on things that i probably did better at writing? which is great bc i love getting better at things with no conscious effort lmao) 

caelarue replied to your post “caelarue replied to your post “how much do u start to make posts and...”

Agreed (and your tags are one the things I enjoy most about following your blog.) I guess I just have a moment of "does anybody really care that much", assume they don't and then delete as I feel is warranted. :/

thank you :) ahh well like i was saying, we chose to follow you, rite. but at the same time yeah, like earlier i was gna post abt wanting a certain type of pencil and then iwas like omg what am i even trying to get out of this post honestly is any interaction from this post going to really be fulfilling (ok that’s not precisely my thoughts at the moment but like now that im thinking abt like how do i decide when to cancel a post that seems like the likely reasoning?)

like even if anyone did care abt a post like that would i even care?? 

but when it comes to my personal stuff, like the real shit, sometimes it’s just like... sure a few people might care and have nice supportive things to say but if they dont then i dont wanna feel bad about it and plus usually it is just like a few likes and a few nice words when maybe i wanna talk about it for reals. so i just dont wanna risk it. which is basically me all the time lol oops