#alpha rambles

[alphasunpup]

in the mood for soft pets and to be gently fed on rainy thunderstorm days. Want to be slowly fed and cradled until I'm sleepy from the full belly I have. Then give me a cup of hot mint tea and let my stomach slowly soothe itself as I'm rocked to sleep.

[alphaofdarkness]

Okay Dany, convince me to ship Kidge. What is the appeal of this ship? (genuinely asking because I've only watched season 1 and I'm curious)

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Not gonna lie anon, your question caught me off guard at 2am on a Sunday,, I was like 😳

“Oh shit someone's asking me?? About a ship?!” The intimidating question was so real and all I could do was literally go on a feral tirade on why I love Kidge so much and legit made no sense and just kept wondering in between moments of clarity on how I can properly defend myself on why I like the ship 😩 (not that I need to or have too, enough time has passed where I can say,,, just let me ship and be blissfully happy UwU, I do not car e anymore lol)

I will say that I want to keep this brief (as best I can, because heck I went feral just talking to myself on why I like the ship), I’m not the best at explaining things like some other amazing people might in the ship tag. But take what I say with a grain of salt and hope I don’t scare you off with whatever I do type.

**Note: This is not entirely brief liike how I wanted and I hate myself,, feck,,, I failed step one immediately**

Imma do bullet points, thoughts and prayers y'all cause I did my best to explain my chaotic thoughts lol ;;w;;

First and foremost! I definitely recommend that you watch the show in the general scope of a viewer and not just focusing on a ship. I think everyone should and would be aware of that~ but much like my initial watch I wasn’t paying much attention to the show and lore and story because I was distracted~. It wasn’t with Kidge at the time, but it definitely impeded my watch in the beginning as well as me falling off the fandom for a while into season 3-5. Plus, me rushing through those seasons when season 7 was coming around like, blood hell Alpha.

I think it goes without saying because the show is really good and love the found family aspect of it most importantly 👏🏼👏🏼 I am a sob and a fecking mess about this trope and I will forever cry over it.

I highly recommend watching the show in increments too instead of just binging it because you will lose information much faster 😭 and also it is just so fun to look forward to watch it the next day. I had so much fun this month just rewatching the show and am kind of depressed that it’s over lol 😔

Don’t cry because it’s over be happy for the journey (and all the fanfics you can reread again with full, understanding knowledge 😌)

Additionally, it is fun to reflect on the episodes re-watched, to better retain the info, at least for me, I can be slow with digesting new information (especially after so long), but it also made me giddy just talking to myself about the silly or serious shenanigans happening in the episode.

Second of all! I don’t want to convince you to ship Kidge 😩 I want you to convince yourself on why they would be good and cute together from your perspective! 👏🏼👏🏼

I personally think that they just work so well together, and while their initial interactions are short and brief, I love seeing them just standing next to each other or sharing panels during the fight sequences through much of the early seasons! I will say liike season 7 (even season 8) is like a holy grail for Kidge shippers because— 😩👏🏼 AH, took a while to get there, but we made it besties!!

Considering you’ve only seen season 1, I won’t dive into too many spoilers! To the best of my ability, I will say, I tended to focus on where the two stood by one another a lot and how they interacted in their lions and as Voltron and outside of it! ~

1. They both have family members/familial others on the trip to the Kerberos mission and just the whole concept of them looking for their respective familial figures.

Like that’s is the first part of the whole “WE COULD HAVE HAD IT ALL 😩” the way the two of them are shown to fight tooth and nail to save and go out of their way to figure out where their family members are is just 🤧✨ I truly believe if there was an opportunity to grow and develop them together it would have been over this.

I also find it incredibly fascinating that they are two of the most prominent characters that dive into their backstories in flashback sequences through the seasons ahead (we got a glimpse of Pidge's backstory in season 1 with a few more down the line). And how similar the two are in some of their experiences like school and being bullied and how their familial figures guide them (Shiro to Keith and Matt, and her father, to Pidge).

Hell, all of this could have been played as platonic all the way through or something more. Like I was there for it 👏🏼 I feel like this is a strong cemented stone on why I ship them a lot and keep me going on the potential their relationship could have been if they knew one another before the pilot episode. I just think it would have been cool, two conspiracy theorist bypassing the government to search for the truth!

2. They are literally the right and left arms of Voltron; the sword and shield ✨

I sincerely wish so much that again their relationship could have been developed more in the early seasons with this aspect, especially since we see how developed both Lance and Hunk are with each other (I mean they are literally best friends at the Garrison, I needed most of that with Kidge especially since they would be the opposite to them so it would have great to see them develop together as the arms of Voltron 🤧).

I just think it would have been nice to see it play out on how well they work together on the field and off it. I will say! It isn't all lost, especially into season 3 and like late season 6 and onwards! I say the dynamic of Shiro and Pidge in their lions and as Voltron currently is what kind of develops in Keith and Pidge later! I hope you can make sense of that later on as you keep watching 👀!

3. Other general things about their tropes and personalities just give me more fuel to ship them, such as:

Them both being introverted to heck in their respective ways; the techie nerd and the emo loner like,,, sillies!

I am always someone who loves looking at character color palettes and how they mesh well together; so believe me I lost my mind when Kidge shippers literally came up with Kidgemas cause of their red and green colors and I just *screams* 🌿🔥

I love both their personalities and how similar, yet different, they are to one another in that respect; they both have a drive and fire in them, their sarcasm and jibs to the others is so funny.

I'm not over season 1 episode,,, 2? Of the team training together and like,,, first of all, the two's small spat because Pidge couldn't concentrate during the mental exercise, but literally leaping to her defense when Allura threw food goo at her like,, Ah I just love her sarcasm to Allura then "The princess of what, your not ours--" and i just like go off queen, but also please no fighting 😩 y’all are going to be family ah,,, i love my dysfunctional family so much ya'll

Keith making a face at the action and immediately "Go loose, Pidge" LIKE AH! 👏🏼👏🏼😩😩

But they also have their calm moments of serene clarity and peace that is heighted with their interactions with the other characters as well!

I also noticed how they both tend to be the mature ones in some cases and some situations when around the other or a shared mature figure like Shiro; Keith by like a lot, clearly, but I was increasingly surprised by how Pidge maintained some serious temperament during missions, especially when around Hunk and most definitely around Lance lol (It is funny tho how serious and mildly annoyed she gets to his flirtatious ways, but can also immediately just let her guard down and have giddy fun with him when something catches her interest, it's so cute and hilarious 😌).

I also just love their development through the show of just letting their guard down around the others overtime! Especially with Keith and how his lone wolf personality melts away (believe me I lost my mind at how many sweet moments were between him and Hunk and IM just here crying at how Keith was able to smile and have fun around him 😭 💛❤️ got me all emotional i fecking criED). As well as Pidge with the others, especially after she told them about her true identity and how she wants to be able to work with them better without any secrets (On a side note, I wish there was more moments with Allura and Pidge earlier on ;;;o;;; SHE LEARNED ALTEAN FOR HER AND CORAN AND IM JUST,,, sweetie I love you! YOUR HONOR THEY ARE SISTERS! 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼).

Ah shit, is that season 1 or 2? ;;w;; well, she learns it a nice fact! My girl is such a genius like how did she not like,,, move up grades in school, she is so intelligent , i could never. Not gonna lie, I feel like the team wouldn't be as successful with intel if they didn't have her and her tech wizard skills because DAMN.

Also how Keith was so up and arms when Pidge wanted to leave initially like!? Please ;;w;; sir has abandonment issues, please don't leave sweetie (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀); but also a similar scene occurs, very briefly, later on in reverse :) so take that as you will! It is very small, almost negligible if you aren't paying attention to it.

It is made better by a concluding panel that Kidge shippers just lose their minds over ! (Me, I am kidge shippers and I lost my mind over and over because they are just — *cries and sobs* perfecto!)

Very minor thing, but the height difference (in general im weak in the knees for this) always gets me crying, screaming, throwing up, going feral on the ground. My dearest Pidge, she may gain some legs later in life, but like she is definitely still tiny and I sob, give us short queens some representation because it is so hard out here, and we will kill you (not Allura bending down to her height in that episode she was planning to leave; how NOT to talk to a short person Allura lol 😩)

I think it goes without saying that the whole team, including Keith, are protective of Pidge like as they should be and I just *grins mischievously* can say with confidence that he do 😌

Definitely more of a personal headcanon, and there is a Kidge art of it floating around somewhere in the tag, if they actually had more moments and trained together, but I love Pidge being taught on how to defend herself, especially one on one and like her managing to take down Keith in training and he's just like "⁉️⁉️😳⁉️⁉️” God, I love a woman that can kick my ass trope *chokes*.

I am a sucker for hearing their voices and tone and emotions, so you know for damn well I am listening to them just say the others name in a soft or sarcastic tone lol (I love Steven Yeun's voice, my Glenn 😭, I am a mess for not appreciating Keith before in my initial watch of the show).

Ah, I can go on and off about them, especially about the later seasons but like you're just going to have to take a look of it yourself as you go into it 😌

Once again, I definitely recommend you watch the show for what it is in its storytelling and lore and character development; you can keep a close eyed view of Kidge in the background, but definitely rewind for the moments or stop and pause or rewind for the information given in story.

I hope you enjoyed my nonsense speak and take something away from it or ignore it altogether. I don't mind, I want you, overall, to convince yourself on why you would like to ship Kidge as you watch the show, if at all! We are all here for a fun and good time after the show's initial debut 😌🌿🔥

Have a small doodle of Kidge! My first time drawing them after like 4 1/2 years and I am just,,, yelling at my growth in art and how cute I made them look; mild spoiler, I suppose, of their older selves appearances~ Hope you like! 😌✌🏼

Enjoy your day anon!

[alphasmoonlit-selfships]

Just a soft note for anyone that cares to know  (灬ºωº灬)♡

AtsuDany Wedding date will be moved to Dec. 18th! A Sunday!

Things have been hectic recently with finals and being sucked into a new fandom and having just been frantic with inspiration that I have been late on drawing something sweet for AtsuDany Wedding 🤧 I’ve made a nice mood board, but want to get an art piece done for the special event, even if it is just half finished ✨

I hope y’all dont mind the change and look forward to soft wedding asks and things 🥺🤍 we are very excited and enamored to be officially married 🐯🤍🐺

[ourochoco]

every1 talkz abt finding the right song for a character/story and then my ass is over here like. “this vine works perfectly”

[alphasunpup]

this might sound stupid but I'm lowkey envious of fat people's arms because now you got more space for tattoos. I feel like this is such a silly non-feedist related thing but I'm being serious. I was thinking about a tattoo I wanted on my shoulder and yeah, sure, t has made me more muscular but that doesn't change the fact that my upper arm isn't all that bigger. And then I thought how dope it must be to have fat arms because you have more surface area for an artists to work with and put tattoos on. Anyway, silly thought but Idk there's something about having fat enough arms I can get the tattoo I want on my shoulder. Might turn this into a little drabble who knows! Anyway, happy new year and be gentle with yourselves.

[alphasunpup]

Just remembered there was a full moon. Well time to do my due diligence and give you some fat werewolf dribble but this time featuring arcane characters and weight gain/feedist situations!

Viktor & Jayce

If Jayce is the werewolf he's already big and very muscle fat type because he works in the forge.

Also Latiné family means lots of meat on full moons. He probably has soft fat and in his werewolf form is very hig and cuddly.

He's sometimes so hot because of the fur and working in the forge all day, he almost smothers Viktor to death from his body heat alone. Viktor loves it but also has the windows open because he's also way too fucking hot.

Jayce constantly brings food to the lab and stuffs himself on full moons and forces Viktor to do the same. Only because his wolf principal brain isn't happy with the idea his mate is skinny.

Also when machine Viktor remeets wolf Jayce, Jayce still recognizes him and I bet still tries to stuff him and doesn't understand why Viktor isn't eating (Jayce finds a way...and it terrifies Viktor)

Viktor is very gangly as a werewolf and skinny. He still struggles with his disability but amongst humans he seems normal (except for the switch between healthy and deteriorating)

Probably a scavenger type werewolf because there was never enough food to go around in the undercity

Almost seems fox like and gets confused for a werefox due to his unhealthy weight but cunningness.

Jayce probably leaves him food on full moons. Viktor at first is confused but slowly begins to accept the gifts. Viktor probably begins to put on the weight and starts to look like an actual werewolf.

Still never loses the scavenger instincts so he always eats everything off his plate. There are never any leftovers so sometimes to overfeed him on purpose Jayce will bring a lot and Viktor will make sure to eat it all. Viktor does catch on to it but by that point doesn't care. He loves having a fully belly and being soft. It's a strange new experience and one he would like to enjoy

Vander

Built like an ox as a human built like an even bigger ox as a werewolf

Probably isn't really into feedism but likes the idea of gaining weight as he gets older. Probably gains more muscle than fat like Jayce but still incredibly big (whatever Arcane equivalent is to a grizzly bear, people think that's what he is)

Loves snuggling his kids and they end up saving on electricity and gas cause his body heat is enough to warm up the whole tavern

Fat evenly distributes across his body but has really soft pecs and belly. They take a little more notice in his shape.

If he had a partner and they were into feedism he would help them gain weight. Very much a coach/encourager, likes to be gentle. Also would go out of his way to hunt fresh meat for you to eat, especially if you were another werewolf.

Cait & Vi

Cait would also be lithe as a werewolf in a regal way. Would gain weight from Vi subtly bringing her more food thinking she needs more meat on her bones

Still an excellent shot, human or werewolf. Almost seems like a lioness when hunting (knows when best to pounce)

Doesn't really have any feelings towards gaining weight but likes to see Vi happy and see her enjoy the weight on Cait's figure.

Actually would be a hardcore feeder to show off her wealth among the aristocrat's. Probably relentlessly stuffs Vi and probably a bit of a sadist as she does it. Loves to see Vi gain weight and see her muscle get covered in fat

Vi as a werewolf is built probably like a honey badger: short, stout, and enough anger issues that she can survive anything. Vi is probably a submissive feedee who enjoys getting taken care of but also likes to take care of others.

Is used to hunting for a lot of people so when it's just her and Cait she doesn't know what to do with the leftovers and just eats them all to not let them go to waste

Has a square build as she gains weight. Isn't used to being pampered so she tries to work out to compensate. Until Caitlyn gets her to stop and just enjoying being spoiled (very fit to fat jock, still a jock)

Alright well I'm sleepy and on my period. Probably will do better drabbles tomorrow, goodnight 😴

[alphasunpup]

I don't know if it's the spring weather (which is BS if you live on the east coast. Feels like mother nature is punishing us for global warming. One week 90 degrees and my underwear sticks to my ass, next day 50s and my blood moves sluggishly through my body...anyway), the upcoming full moon, or the recent stress of transitioning from undergrad to professional and reapplying to PhD programs but I have been fucking starving recently.

Yesterday ordered Chicken Katsu curry rice plate with a taro boba and auntie anne's

Day before got a chicken sandwich and fries from a local area and them chicken sandiwches are the side of my wee head

Today I ordered 3 sushi rolls, shrimp tempura, miso soup, coke can, tempura cheesecake, and a salad came with my meal.

Ate.

It.

All.

I be forgetting I have an insatiable appetite when my funds allow for it. And of course I whined to my gf about her not being there to encourage by debauchery and she whined back over the phone and then we ended up stuffing ourselves over the phone. Fuck. Anyway, thought I'd at least give updates. I've been thinking about writing some kinky fan fiction or short fiction but I gotta figure my shit out first. Definitely growing more gluttonous as the weather gets warmer and the moon rises. I just feel hungrier, ya know?

All well, local werewolf/werebear tings. Till we meet again or I remember to stop lurking on my own damn account. Ta!

[alphasunpup]

Yall ever read your own work and realize how good it is? Because hot damn I am a good writer. Might have to get back into it once I get home from this conference. (I should also get back into writing Vander fanfiction but neither here nor there) Also, please stay safe and warm in this possible snow storm. Don't panic buy but make sure you get groceries to last the week in case the roads aren't clear for a couple of days.