I don't know if I should tell you, I don't know what I'd say, but I guess I'll start here.
I remember that night, the one with the moonlight in your hair, wanting to light a candle. I remember showing you Rent and Mimi and Roger was us. I remember you showing up out of nowhere. I remember your voice, and the sweat on your skin. I remember your shaking. You never wanted me to know, but you wanted someone with you when you put your worst fear to your skin.
I remember holding you into me while we laid there, and I did my best to hush my sobs while you shook and twitched and cried and sweat in my arms. I remember your tears, I remember wanting to make that all disappear.
I remember when Brian and Markus found you 2 months later, after not hearing a word, and we all thought you were going to die. I thought you did. I remember your face when you came to, I remember your delusions and illusions. I remember your amnesia. You didn't, of course, but I did.
I remember what it was like, seeing you 10 months later, the weight on your bones, the light in your eyes. No more Under the Bridge, now we were Fast Car, and I loved your arms around my shoulder.
I remember your first line though,
I remember my last.
Don't do drugs kids, you'll have to watch what you destroy and hope you can walk uphill from there.
This is just sugar coating.