Jun 20
Abelard in the lower decks: of course they thrown things at me. it's my name signing off on every bad thing that happens to these people
Abhinav: ...so?? ...do they need to be taught how to suffer properly???
#Abi: do they know they're in the wh40k universe???#also context time#Abhinav was strongly inspired (and synonymous for a while) by the pain cultist Abdirak of BG3#as such there a lot of pain veneration in his narrative that was inspired by the lore of Loviatar goddess of pain in D&D#that damn character literally changed how i process suffering and feeling anguish through reading about pain and suffering#after becoming aware of the lore of Abdirak and Loviatar#i'd latch onto mentions of pain/suffering/etc. in books about mindfulness radical acceptance emotional processing etc#from this came real-world suffering management strategies#and so you get snippets like this that are funny only to me#it's because i'm processing living in my own hellscape and practicing coping skills and fear/anger management regularly#i'm genuinely the happiest i've ever been in my life in the year of our lord 2026#but not so with Abi though he is built to be tortured coping skills or no lol#my emotional support whipping boy#anyhow#i'm sure that this is interesting to no one except me but i've already written everything out so why not hit post#rogue trader live blogging#Abhinav#Abdirak#Loviatar