#alwayseverme

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Me, thinking I should totally be with someone who's ace.

I'm not ace, but people who are actually interested in sex are...too much for me?

It's like everyone sexualizes everyone and everything all the time? And I hate that. It irritates me on a level...

Or perhaps it's because we live in a patriarchy, and there's so much misogyny...

I know there's people who are interested in sex that are also deeply irritated by the general oversexualization of... everything, but I don't know...

It just feels simpler to be with someone who's not gonna sexualize the world 24/7, even jokingly.

For example: I remember one day, I wanted to make someone I trusted watch a TV show I really liked... They could not even go through the first episode because the villains were using weapons that apparently looked like dildos...

I had NEVER even thought about it like that. For me it was just weird sticks that inflicted magical pain wherever they touched (a chest, a shoulder...).

Now that I am much older I get it. The women using these weapons are dressed in leather, look like dominatrix, etc... But that person should have been able to immerse themselves in the show without thinking "dildo" every ten seconds. 😑😑

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Gotham fanfictions/challenge:

Since I started the Gotham Bingo challenge a bit late, I have only checked three boxes at the moment—meaning that I have posted three fanfictions.

(People can do whatever they want for the challenge: drawings, playlists, gif sets, montages, videos... I write fanfictions because that's what I do.)

Now, I have seventy three days left to write twenty two fanfictions—because of course I chose the largest card.

I don't know how I'm going to do that because...life, and chronic illnesses, and my capacity to write is limited due to my shaky English level...

Add to that the fact that each time I say that I'm gonna write a lil' short fanfiction, the thing ends up being at least a thousand words. Which is (relatively) not a lot, but when you think it's gonna be just a few hundred words, and then you write more than a thousand, it's a bit more work. Regarding my level too. 🫠

Anyway, I just wanted to complain, and also share the excitement because I have lots of ideas and I can't wait to post them! But this means I have to write them, and that's another story. 😭

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Me, randomly: I think I will have written this multi-chapter fanfiction by the time I'm thirty.

Also me: I will be twenty seven in about two weeks.

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The urge to sit at a café and have a writing session with you. @ghost-bison

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I joined AO3 in 2022. I've only now added a profile picture...

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I received bad health news yesterday so I'm not in the best mood.

I don't want to elaborate, but I figured I'd notify you people.

Fanfictions being edited. I'll do my best.

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When you're at the restaurant and the waitress is so cutesy and her voice is so cutesy too... 🫠

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Having mutuals around the globe means that when they go to sleep, you're already up.