#aly.txt

[strangerstilinski]

I've somehow reached a level of delusion wherein Eddie centric fix-it fics are actually canon to me and ST5 is just an AU in my brain so things are all good here in my lala land

[soleillunne]

Can someone hit me up the head so I'm normal about selfshipping again please for the love of gods I want to think about it but it makes me want to crawl up in a hole and die.

[deathsdivinity]

anyone else ever think about the fact that grace straight up says "imagine you're a good christian. sometimes you have to listen to people and believe what they say even if it sounds crazy, against everything you know, in spite of all common sense"

like. the implications. the implications.

directly implying that she herself listens to other christians and believes what they say even though to her it sounds crazy, against everything she knows, and against all common sense. that's not a "my faith has been tested these past few weeks because of The Horrors" statement, that's a "my faith has been tested all my life but i keep listening and believing because that's what i have to do to be good" statement.

grace lies to herself. grace believes what she has to believe. we see that in the musical itself, especially with her initially considering max's death to be an act of god because the alternative is that it was her fault and she Cannot Handle That. she blames anything and everything, anyone and everyone, EXCEPT for herself for the things that go wrong, except for in the single scene where she admits that she knows it's her fault. she DOES blame herself, underneath it all. she genuinely believes that she's the one who ruined their lives and who made this whole mess. not an accident, not an act of god- it's her fault, directly.

i don't think it's a stretch to believe that grace has BEEN lying to herself about her own beliefs and faith, to the point of forcing herself to believe in god and to be a "good christian" because its whats expected of her and arguably quite possibly the only thing she's allowed to be due to the seemingly unwavering faith of her parents.

its just so unreal to me that one sentence so casually and so easily implies that grace is nowhere NEAR as devout as she pretends to be, and even more unreal what exploring that belief implies about her character throughout the rest of the musical.

[silverplatedd]

today at work we were poking fun at my other coworker (who wasn't present) because on a greeting card that we give out to guests he wrote "have an excelent day" and misspelled "excellent"

One of my coworkers said "He's so (r-word)" and I was like "Aw that's not a nice word." Like clearly uncomfortable but I wanted to say something? I felt like I was gentle parenting lol. She then apologized but after that it was a bit awkward.

Am I overreacting? I feel like using that word in that way is so mean spirited and that your vocabulary speaks volumes about who you are as a person. I really don't appreciate that word being thrown around in that context, and so many of my coworkers casually say it. I don't really care if no one likes me (because currently no one likes me much anyways) but I'm gonna keep speaking up when people say things like that. And let them know that it's not okay

[ahgastae]

♥ major update ♥

hey everyone.

i've been sitting on this for a long while, but i think it's about time i just come out and say it: i won't be updating this blog anymore. i don't really have much in the way of a reason. school and life and an awful case of writer's block originally got in my way, but now i've graduated (finally!!) and it just. feels weird trying to come back to something i started my freshman year of college.

i've kind of moved on from writing regularly and no longer feel a need or desire to post my work online (rip in pip lol), especially as i focus on moving into the professional field. twelve hour shifts won't really yield much time to get creative, you know?

anyway. i just wanted to pop in and let those of you still following me know what's going down. these past few years have been fantastic and i am eternally grateful for all of your kindness and support. i've just... grown out of this blog, i think. i'm ready to take on other things now, and i'm looking forward to the future ahead of me.

thank you all so much again and i hope you have a wonderful day ♥

another lil note

i'm not really planning on doing much in terms of content creation nowadays, but i have a youtube channel where i post videos playing games or messing around with my friends (as well as the occasional dog video). i also have twitch and tiktok accounts but i don't really stream/post that much on either of those :)

♥ youtube ♥

♥ twitch ♥

♥ tiktok ♥

[ironictears]

harry styles really rubbed his loving relationship and my mommy issues in my face all in one

[invaderzy]

Currently sobbing. How’s everyone else xd

[sookiestjames-moved]

this blog is old as shit but in case anyone is still around i used to be sookiestjames on here for like 7+ years and i’m @janesloan now