#amandakin

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I miss John SO bad and I know I shouldn't but fuuuuuckking helllll. No one accepted me as he did no one looked after me like he did even if he hurt me maybe it was for a REAAASONNNNNNN HHHHHH

-Amanda (Saw) kin

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I'm Amanda from Dream Daddy and I'm looking for my dad, or anybody really. I was gay as heeeeeck. I think my dad dated Damien but I'm not totally sure.

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So, my birthday is coming up again this weekend and there’s been a lot of good and just as much bad that’s happened since last year…

I thought I made peace with things from that life and this one, but now I’m wondering if I haven’t. I want answers that I know I’m never going to get from any of those people who hurt and used me. I don’t even know if it’s going to help.

I’m angry. I’m anxious. I want people to stop using me and leave me alone.

- Amanda (Saw)

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On a slightly more positive note compared to my last Invincible related ask, it was pretty funny the looks Rudy/Rex (whichever he'd prefer to go by after the last episode) and I would get whenever we'd go out together. At the time it was a little annoying that people would look at us like "why are these two middle schoolers out having dinner together by themselves without their parents" and then on the other side you'd have people looking at us like "aw how cute the two 12 year olds think they're dating." and we're both literally in our mid 20s. In hindsight though I can't help but laugh because it was pretty funny. It was also annoying as hell having to order a coke or something each time because no one would believe I was legal drinking age, and I couldn't prove it anyway because I was too young when I got my powers to even get an ID. And even if I had, no one who was unaware of my curse would believe me anyway since I would look significantly younger than in the ID. As funny as the scene of Rudy and I having to trick our way into an R rated movie for our first date was, that was only the tip of the iceberg.

I know that our relationship ends really, really badly and that he becomes a villain in the comics and I'll be surprised if that doesn't happen in the show. For now though, things are looking up for us. We've worked on our communication, he's found a way to stop me from aging backwards, and I've told him that I love him. I fear it may be the calm before the storm but I'm enjoying it while it lasts. Still holding out hope that things will maybe be changed for the show or that I'll turn out to be canon divergent but I guess we'll see.

Shit this was supposed to be a positive ask. I guess I got really sentimental and worried about stuff that is from a past life and already happened. I just hope that when this ends, I don't hate him. If I react the same way in the show as my comic version (who I personally don't identify as) I will in that life, but I hope my feelings for him don't change back from love to hate in this one. I don't like hating people I loved, all it does is makes me sad. -Amanda/Monster Girl (Invincible) #🌙🌹🐚

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Been watching Invincible some more, I'm still on season 2 haven't caught up to season 3 yet. I took a long break. Kind of like Mark in the 4-oh sorry- 3 1/2 month long vacation he took in the middle of season 2! /ref

But, anyway I finally got to the episode where Rudy and I had our first official date. And I'm like really happy about that but I'm also spiraling quite a lot because of everything comic readers have said about our relationship. I know that in the comic it not only doesn't end happily for us but ends with me absolutely hating him. I don't have all the context but that's what I've heard. And I guess there's always a chance, however small, that things will be different in the show but so far that doesn't seem to be the case. I may not have gotten to season 3 yet but I know that I got my belt from him in that season and I am for sure grateful for that. But that is a part of the comics so...so far it seems like our story is being adapted at least somewhat faithfully.

I just hate knowing that I'm almost certainly going to have to watch yet another one of my past life romantic relationships not only end in tragedy, but with us as enemies after everything. The one person who could in a way understand how I felt being trapped in my body because of my curse. Who saved my life after I got my brains split open by Battle Beast. Who worked to help me find a solution for my de-aging, even if he didn't always approach that the best. But he tried, I believe that he tried. Our relationship has had its ups and downs in the show so far but I love him. In fact...I'll admit even though I haven't watched season 3 yet I watched the scene where he gave me my belt and I cried. I was so happy knowing I could live a somewhat normal life. Again I don't know all the context and I'm show only both in my consumption of Invincible and the events of my canon but I'm scared.

It's funny. For a while while I was watching season 1 I thought that my relationship with Robot/Rudy would never become romantic like it did in the comic. I honestly wasn't sure if it would in the show anyway, but I thought that if it did my canon would've kept things platonic between us. I was dead wrong about that. Oh well, as much as I am a huge enemies to lovers fan being from a lovers to enemies storyline might be interesting, however much I'm sure I'll hate it. -Amanda/Monster Girl (Invincible) #🌙🌹🐚

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o_O???? ??????!$!$????? i didnt see this kin coming but it hit me like an epiphany. man. i miss my dad.

-#⭐❤️‍🩹🫧, amanda from amanda the adventurer

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Fuck you Rudolph Connors. Robot. Rex. Rudy. Whatever your name is. I loved you more than I’d ever loved anyone. I loved you for eight hundred years and you still undermined me, made me feel like I was nothing. Denied me the chance to raise a family. Took my son away from me. Sent me back to square one after you made me feel like a human and an adult again. I guess I can thank you for my belt. Whatever. Fuck you for everything.

—Amanda/Monster Girl (#🌿🏹🐺)

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To Rudy/Robot, Rex, and the rest of the Guardians of the Globe, Happy Valentine's Day! You guys were all such great and supportive teammates, and Rudy, thanks for being such a great friend to me, especially when I was struggling with my curse. I miss you all and hope you're doing well in a world where we don't have to fight monsters anymore. -Amanda/Monster Girl (Invincible)