My last farewell to amazing Jonghyun... Ever since the very day of Jonghyun's death hit me, I have to admit that there's no a single day I could feel at east. I always wish that it were just a dream but truth is really undeniably painful... whether I want to accept it or not, I still have to. I decided not to talk about him because my heart was aching a lot. I couldn't imagine how much pain his loved ones, family and friends would be right now, especially when Christmas and New Year are around the corner. Naturally, we think of our dear one on special occasions especially. Personally, I always find Jonghyun a great singer in SHINee. He'd been an artiste I like. It's indeed a great shock and a great loss when he left us all of sudden. I remember I even got mad at the media as soon as I saw the news; I was saying that they shouldn't use someone's death as playful news. But then when the news said the police confirmed his death, and SM also confirmed that, I felt like this is impossible... this can't happen. I believe he must have been struggling so much before coming this fatal decision. Death is not a joke. Suicide isn't either. Therefore, I believe he must have thought over and over again before coming to that final decision. Like he said, he just wanted to end the pain... It must have been unspeakable and unexplainable pain to him. Now, he's rested in peace. I hope he's in heaven right now. Pain couldn't reach him anymore. Jonghyun, you were wonderful and you did great. You'll be always in our heart. Farewell, amazing Jonghyun. With lots of loves and high respect #RestInPeaceJongHyun #YouWereWonderful #YouDidGreat #AmazingJongHyun