As I Get Older...
As I get older I start to wonder if I am a good person? I posed this question to a coworker and friend of mine the other day and she seemed so shocked that I would ask, but there is so much in my life that makes me wonder...
The first being that I don’t have many friends, and even the ones I do have I never seem to be any of their “best friend.” Even those who I consider my best friend always seem to drift away after, at most, a few years. I know people come and go, but really? That quickly?
Another thing is that I can’t seem to get a relationship to last longer that a year and a half, and most have been under a year. Now I know, I’m young, but I have met several people my age who have already been engaged and broken it off. One of them is only a few months older and has been engaged now three times! It’s hard to look at that and not think that something has to be wrong with me. And yes, I know I shouldn’t compare my life, growth, happiness, etc to other people’s, but we all do it. And no, I’m not wanting to have a broken off engagement, that situation is brutal, it’s just knowing that I’ve never even been close to that point in any relationship and yet here are all these people my age who have paired off and attempted to make the plunge.
