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[theanarik]

Hi, guys! If you're following The Cursed Trio Trip fic (wangxian time travel au), i'm gonna delete the fic and repost it. It might take me a while to write chapter 5, but i WILL continue the fic, don't worry. Thank you 🩷

[theanarik]

Look, as much as I'd like to use Alex's "No❤" when Reggie says "Girls, am I right?",,,,, i am at the "yeah😍" part of the conversation

[theanarik]

Look. The first time I watched "But I'm a cheerleader" I did it because I was going through a PhaseTM where I was watching a the cheerleading movies I could find (started with Bring It On, and I can safely say that I've watched all of them at least three times). So. I find this movie of a pretty girl wearing a pink dress, pom poms in the air and without reading the synopsis I say: CHEERLEADING MOVIE !!!!!!

I start watching it and I remember vividly thinking "huh, she doesn't really like kissing her boyfriend, that seems super disgusting and uncomfortable". I was 15-16 y/o, mind you, had kissed a boy only once and wasn't that much interested in doing it again.

Throughout the whole movie I was very invested in Megan and Graham's secret relationship and I got scared they were going to find them out. I cheered when they got together at the end. I was very excited, but somehow understood not to let my mom or my sister know that I was watching a movie where the leading lady ended up with another lady.

Even though I knew that, I went out to play with "friends" and started telling them about the movie and got a "THAT'S DISGUSTING" reaction from them, which made me feel really bad. I begun questioning myself as to why I would enjoy the movie and other people would find it disgusting. However, I decided to just store away that I had watched a lesbian movie without knowing what lesbian even meant, because I didn't want people to call me disgusting.

Fast forward to two or three years later, me trying to discover my sexuality and watching the movie again because it held a very dear place in my heart (still does). I can tell you guys that "But I'm a cheerleader" helped me realize many, many things about myself, including the knowledge that the people I was spending my time with were not really worth it.

I guess what I want to convey with this is:

EXPOSE YOUTH TO LGBT+ THEMED MEDIA !!!!!!

[theanarik]

Day 2: Home

Happy SasuHina Month! Let’s continue with this!

Day 2: Your voice lingered in these empty halls

Home

You can also read it here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24511489

When Sasuke opens the door of their apartment, his apartment, he thinks that maybe he should have taken Naruto’s offer and stayed with him and Sakura for a couple of days.

The windows are closed, the curtains are shut and there’s still a faint smell of perfume that makes his eyes burn. He settles himself on the couch, laying down, looking at the ceiling. It’s 6 in the afternoon, the sun is still up but the apartment is dark enough for him to blind his eyes for a second when he turns his phone on.

He looks for her contact name on Whatsapp, lingers on her profile picture – the two of them, smiling, as she holds a “Just Married” sign –. He scrolls up through the chat, re-reads old messages, listens to old voice notes, and when he reaches their last conversation, he swallows the heavy lump on his throat.

“Hey, Sasuke!”, a car door opens. “I just got out from the school, I have awesome news!”, a car door closes. “Soooo, I really hope you’re ready to open that bottle of Scotch you have on the cupboard because this is a special occasion!” she laughs, the car starts. “I’ll be home soon, I love you.”

“Fuck, Hinata.” He murmurs to himself, tears falling down his cheeks and into his ears. He cleans them and tries to stop himself from sobbing.

He plays the note again.

“Hey, Sasuke!”, a car door opens. “I just got out from the school, I have awesome news!”, a car door closes. “Soooo, I really hope you’re ready to open that bottle of Scotch you have on the cupboard because this is a special occasion!” she laughs, the car starts. “I’ll be home soon, I love you.”

And again.

“Hey, Sasuke!  just got out from the school, I have awesome news! Soooo, I really hope you’re ready to open that bottle of Scotch you have on the cupboard because this is a special occasion! I’ll be home soon, I love you.”

And again.

“- that bottle of Scotch you have on the cupboard because this is a special occasion! I’ll be home soon, I love you.”

And again.

“-. I’ll be home soon, I love you.”

And again.

“-. I’ll be home soon, I love you.”

And again. And again. And again. And again. Until the hall that leads to their – his – bedroom can say the same three words back to him. Until her voice becomes one with the walls. Until he can recite the whole voice note in between sobs.

“You’re not home.”

You can also read it here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24511489

[theanarik]

Day 4: Coffee

Happy SasuHina Month! 

Day 4: The smell of coffee in the morning

Coffee

You can also read it here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24547189

When Sasuke wakes up, his room is filled with the smell of coffee recently made. It’s been days since that’s happened, which means Hinata is finally back from her trip and she’s making breakfast. He gets out of bed as quickly as he can, relieves himself in the bathroom, washes his hands and puts a little bit of toothpaste on his mouth just so his breath is not as bad as it is right now. When he gets out, he hears something being poured onto oil, and then the smell of eggs. God, how he missed her.

“You’re back.”

“G-good morning.”

“Morning.”

He walks to her, kisses her hair, and goes to serve himself a cup of coffee. He blesses the day Naruto moved out of the apartment every day.

“How’s your dad?” he asks her after he’s drained his first cup of coffee.

“He’s good, he, uh, asked after you.”

“He did?”

“Uh hum, surprised me too. He just wanted to know how you were, if you were giving me trouble.”

Sasuke snorts and answers, “and obviously you told him that you’re the one who gives me trouble, right?”

“As if,” Hinata snorts. She flips the omelet with expertise and turns to look at him. “What did you do while I was out? Eat take out and not shower?”

“I’m on vacation, Hina, I’m allowed to do those things.”

“I swear it, if I’d leave for more than a week, you’d be dead.”

Sasuke hums and washes his cup, “I’m gonna take a shower,” and leaves Hinata laughing in the kitchen. He knows she doesn’t like it when he doesn’t take care of himself. He also knows that she’s completely capable of doing exactly the same thing when she’s in a mood. Sasuke’s glad that Hinata’s room is in front of his, at least that way he can pretend he doesn’t hear her crying sometimes.

After he comes out of the shower, Hinata calls his name, tells him that breakfast is ready, and to hurry up, please. It’s been a while since she last cried because of Naruto, though, and he wonders sometimes when it would be the right time to ask her out on a date. When he gets to the table, and she smiles brightly at him and even though she has dark circles under her eyes, she looks beautiful. He decides that maybe it’ll take a little while, but she’s definitely worth waiting for.

You can also read it here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24547189

[theanarik]

Day 1: Welcome to Hyuga Antiquing

Happy SasuHina Month everyone! I’m gonna try to participate the whole month, that’s my personal challenge.

Day 1: Antique Shops.

Welcome to Hyuga Antiquing

You can also read it here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24489868

When Hinata started working at the Antique Shop her father owned, she thought that every single day would be dull and boring. Sure, there have been days where the only thing she wanted was for someone to come in and just take a look, someone she could talk to. Well, she talked to the dolls, sometimes, but one-sided conversations weren’t really that gratifying. There were days upon days that no one would come inside, and then there were other days where she had five to ten costumers. Those were her happiest days. She really enjoyed working at the Antique Shop, most of the time she could just, tune out the rest of the world until the door bell rang, daydream or do homework, or just forget the outside world existed for a bit.

When she was little, her mom would take her through the shelves, would let her play with the dolls, would let her pick vinyl after vinyl and they would enjoy the music, and dance, and sing, and laugh. Hinata always felt like the Antique Shop was a completely different world. It was hard going back, after her mother died, but her dad made it through and he brought Hanabi and her every single day, and he would let them play with the dolls, and would let them play music, and laugh, and have fun. But he never walked through the shelves with them. Always staying behind and letting them play however they wanted. Hinata remembers hearing sobbing, the sound echoing through the walls. She never said anything.

As she grew up, she found the Antique Shop to be quite boring, some other things taking up her time and she just… stopped enjoying it. She would come to visit her father to bring him lunch, or just to talk, but she wouldn’t go through the shelves, or play music, or check the dolls. After she started college, though, her father got sick and she decided, along with her cousin, Neji, that they would man the front desk while he got better. And one month became two, and two became three, and three became four. After working at the Shop for four and a half months, and her father not getting better, Hinata decided that maybe, just maybe, she would stay longer.

*

There were lots of things she enjoyed about working at the Antique Shop, one of them were when her friends came to visit. Kiba and Shino enjoyed checking the new stuff, organizing it with her, joke around and asking for payment, make her laugh when they used the dolls to reenact some shitty movie they saw. Another thing she enjoyed was making small talk with the regular customers. There were five of them: Kaho, Kurenai, Sarutobi, Tsunade and a boy around her age, that she still doesn’t know the name of.

He’s tall, dark and broody, doesn’t say much and always looks like he’s ready to murder someone. The first three times he came in, she didn’t say anything to him, mostly because he had this look on his face where he pretty much told her that if she came to talk to him, he would kill her. Hinata has had her fair share of difficult customers, she’s learned that if they need help, they’ll come to look for her. Also, he was way too attractive for her to turn into her work persona. So, when he does come to ask her for something, she is decidedly not surprised (and a lot more collected). After that, she starts to keep tabs on his interests. She does that with all her regulars, just so she knows where to put the new stuff when it comes.

Kaho loves doll houses, so when a new one comes in through the back door, she makes note to call her when everything is settled. It takes her two to three days to come, and most of the time she takes them with her. Kurenai loves custom jewelry and comic books. She comes regularly to check them out and maybe buy them, if she doesn’t, she just stays for longer chatting with Hinata. Sarutobi loves first edition books. They have three whole shelves full of them and he comes once a week to check them out, he probably knows all the tittles by now. Tsunade, on the other hand, she loves postcards. She says they remind her of a time when she would send them to her lover. Hinata wonders a lot how old she really is.

The brooding man, though? Yeah, no, he doesn’t stick to one thing.

He’s bought books, guitars, jewelry, porcelain, videogame consoles, comic books. He once bought a doll house. Though Hinata is pretty sure it was for his girlfriend or something like that. He came to return it after a few weeks though, which made Kaho very happy. Hinata thinks that maybe he’s just buying gifts for his loved ones, and she wonders how he manages to get that much money every single time he comes, which is pretty much once a month.

One day, she learns his name. He comes in with a blond boy. He has the loudest laugh she’s ever heard – and she’s friends with Kiba – and the bluest eyes she’s ever seen. He is, decidedly, the most attractive guy she’s ever seen. Well, aside from Tall, Dark and Broody, of course. Tall, Dark and Broody’s name is Sasuke. And he seems just so relaxed around the other boy that she just can’t help but stare for a few seconds.

“Welcome to Hyuga Antiquing,” she says, automatically. “Please tell me if you need any help.”

“Thank you!” Blond boy says.

“Actually-.” Sasuke says. “Naruto, can you go check the shelves?”

“Why?”

“Just go.”

Sasuke walks to her, and she gets out of the front desk to meet him, he seems… nervous, and that’s something she never quite thought she would say about TDB.

“Yes?”

“My mother’s birthday is coming up, and the last time I was here, I saw you had some lockets on display?”

“Oh, yeah!” Hinata says and motions him to follow her. “We moved them beside the dolls, it was uh… a last-minute decision.”

Kaho and Kurenai met, and that’s all Hinata’s going to say. She’s a romantic, sue her.

Sasuke follows her in silence and when they arrive to the jewelry section of the store, she grabs one of the displays and turns around.

“These are all the lockets that are in the shop, please tell me if you need any help?”

“Uh, sure.”

She goes back to the front desk and passes Blond Boy, Naruto, who’s looking at the guitars like they came from another world. Most people get that look when they check out the prices.

“Can I help you?” she asks him, offering a smile.

“Uh, no, I’m just… Sasuke gave me a guitar for my birthday this year, he’s a big gesture guy like that, I just… I didn’t know they were so expensive.”

“He must really appreciate you, then.”

“Sure, he does! I’m basically his brother from another mother.”

“Stop telling her nonsense.”

Hinata jumps at the voice behind her. She didn’t hear his footsteps and that’s something. Everything echoes inside the shop. It’s creepy sometimes.

“You’re a ghost, dude.” Naruto says, clutching his heart. “And what do you mean ‘nonsense’!? It’s true!” Naruto says fake hurt.

“Uh huh.” Sasuke rolls his eyes and denies with his head. Hinata wants to laugh at the theatrics Naruto is pulling.

“Did you find the one you wanted?” she asks, instead. This is her job, after all.

“Yeah.” He says, showing her a silver locket.

“Ooohhh, that’s pretty!” Naruto says, trying to grab it. Sasuke snatches it away. “Hey! I just want to see it!”

“See it, not touch it.” Sasuke shows it again and Hinata gets a proper look.

It’s the locket that was far, far back in the display. Silver, round, a flower of eight petals engraved and an overlapping branch of a cherry blossom tree. It’s, by far, one of the most beautiful lockets she’s ever seen, and she wonders if Kurenai ever saw it.

“Mikoto’s going to love it.”

“Stop calling my mom by her first name.”

“You call my mom by hers!”

“I use her tittle first.” Sasuke says, turning around, and she goes to follow him to the front desk

“I use her tittle first.”, Naruto repeats, mocking, and Hinata fakes a cough to cover up her laugh. The look Naruto gives her tells her that she failed at that.

*

Sasuke comes back alone, five days later, and he looks just as relaxed as he looked when he came in with Naruto. She wonders if good things are happening to him.

“Hey, how can I help you today?” Hinata says as he comes closer to the front desk, and he asks her about porcelain.

“My mom loved the locket, and she was saying that she wanted new porcelain this morning. Can you show me?”

“Sure!”

He buys a set of four teacups, their plates, a tea pot, and teaspoons.

*

It… kind of becomes a regular thing after that? Hinata doesn’t change most of the stuff in the store, but Sasuke keeps coming to ask for her help to find something, without even looking for it himself. She’s pretty sure he has the entire shop memorized and it’s not like the thing is too big. But he just… he just keeps asking for her help, and then he asks how her day is going, and then he just continues to talk to her; and soon enough, Hinata leaves behind her work persona once he enters the shop and she’s not just talking to the dolls but to Sasuke. And yes, sometimes it becomes a one-sided conversation, along with some stuttering and sometimes with too much emotion, but Sasuke keeps humming and nodding and saying just the right thing at the right time and it makes her feel… different.

They exchange numbers one afternoon after Sasuke hasn’t been able to come to visit for almost a week. He has dark circles around his eyes and seems stressed out. He tells her that his brother is sick and that he needs surgery, that he’s been staying with him at the hospital, and that when he came, there was another man at the front desk. Hinata explains that that’s her cousin Neji, as she offers him a cup of tea and he tells her about his childhood, when Itachi would come home tired and still go out with him to play. Hinata tells him about her mother, and how she would carry her on her shoulders, and they would walk around the shelves and check the highest books and speculate together about what they were about.

Sasuke kisses her after that, after she finishes telling him one of the things she invented about the books, after she tells him how embarrassed she was with herself when she finally read the book, after she laughs and blushes and stutters as she asks him to say something.

*

When Hinata started working at the Antique Shop her father owned, she thought that every single day would be dull and boring. As she takes Sasuke’s hand and laces their fingers together after closing the shop for the day, she thinks, I couldn’t be more wrong.

You can also read it here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24489868

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Day 3: Natural

Happy SasuHina Month! Day 3 :D

Day 3: Black and White

Natural

You can also read it here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24523336

When she enters the ballroom, Hinata feels like maybe coming was a mistake. Someone grabs her arm and she turns to look at Neji, who looks like he too wants to be back home and watching series while eating burgers. They sigh at the same time and start walking. They decided that they were going to match, black dress and black tux, as well as a black mask, just so their eyes could pop out a bit.

“Oh, my god! Hinata, you look amazing!” Ino tells her once she crosses paths with her.

“Thank you! You look amazing yourself,” she answers, and it’s true. Ino’s wearing a big, white, puffy dress that is bigger than her own. “Thank you for this.”

“Oh, sweetie! I just wanted to celebrate having everyone back! It’s been a while since we were all in the same city.”

“Y-yeah…”

So, maybe that was another reason she didn’t want to come. Everyone was back, including her first love, Naruto, who was now engaged to his first love, Sakura. With them came Sasuke, who was always polite to her, if somewhat rude. She doesn’t really know him, and she’s never really made an effort to do so.

After saying “hi” to her friends, and politely acknowledging the ones she doesn’t know – Ino has many friends –, she decides to disappear for a while, just until Neji texts her to tell her that they’re serving the food. She finds a garden behind one set of doors at the other side of the ballroom, and as she leads herself away from the too-loud music, she catches glance of another person. She doesn’t know who that figure is, but he’s wearing a white tux and his back is turned to her. As she approaches, she sees the black spiked hair, the tensed posture and the way he carries himself; she’d recognize that anywhere. Deciding that coming to talk to him is not a really good idea, she turns around and walks to the other side of the garden, and promptly sits down to rest her feet. She takes off her shoes and turns to look at the moon-less sky.

It’s been a while since she’s been back in Tokyo, mostly staying with her mother in London and not interfering with her father’s business. Coming back for Christmas, as she promised she would, is not turning out to be that fun.

“You seem annoyed.” Someone says by her side and she startles. She didn’t even hear footsteps.

“I-I am.” Hinata finds herself saying, and she turns to look at the sky again.

“Is it the party or the city?”

“… Both.” He hums and she goes to take off her mask.

“Isn’t the whole purpose of this not knowing who we’re talking to?”

“Are you telling me you don’t know who I am, Uchiha?”

“I suppose I’m not, Hyuga.”

And they stare at each other for a second too long before taking off the masks. It feels weird, talking to him. She’s never so much as said “Good morning” to him when they were at school together, and now he just came to her to just make small talk? Maybe people do change when they grow.

“Are you, uh, annoyed as well, Uchiha?”

“I just don’t like parties.”

“Why did you come, then?”

“Why did you come?”

Hinata stares at him, turns her head to the side and decides that he, like her, must have social duties to attend too. She hums at him and takes her arms back, posing her hands on the stone bench, and letting her body rest for a bit.

“Do you think it would be offensive to Ino if we just left?” Hinata asks, and Sasuke raises his eyebrows.

“Maybe not offensive, but definitely scandalous.”

She frowns as she catches up to the meaning behind his words. She blushes a little bit and says, “t-that is not what I meant!” She sees him smirking and she rolls his eyes.

“I think I heard Ino say something about renting this whole thing, just for the party. Wanna see if we can find a hidden room behind library shelves?” He asks, wiggling his eyebrows, and that does sound a lot more interesting than dancing to awful music in big dresses.

She wonders if he was always like this, or if spending so much time with Naruto changed him. It seems almost natural for him to be teasing her.

“Uh, only if we order pizza first. I don’t think the food will be served early and I’m starving.”

“Deal.”

He stands up and waits for her to do so. They sneak back in and make their way upstairs, Black and White Ball completely forgotten.

*

When Neji finds them, he’s holding two pizza boxes and he has a stern look on his face. Hinata’s dress and hair are rumpled, Sasuke’s shirt is unbuttoned and they’ve stopped in the middle of a pillow fight.

“I hope you know just how much you owe me, because I made sure Ino didn’t realize someone delivered food.”

“You're the best. Come eat with us! There’s plenty for three” Hinata says, laughing, and Sasuke shrugs when Neji looks at him.

“Alright.”

You can also read it here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24523336

[theanarik]

Hey guys. This is me ranting a lil bit because the other person I can do that with (my sister) is asleep and we already talked about it but i'm not done still.

Right now, my mom is in the ICU because of a urine infection. I rushed her to the ER last night because yesterday she spent the day asleep, feverish, with no appetite, and completely out of it. She fell asleep in the middle of the sentences she tried to say, waking up again 10 or so seconds later to continue talking. It was very hard for me and her nurse to keep her awake. Her eyes were glassy, and her blood pressure was really, really low. Now, that last one was very alarming (as if the others weren't) because my mom is hypertensive, no hypotensive.

So. The thing is. We knew she had a urine infection. BUT! Because of all the Covid-19 thingy (heh), her Neurosurgeon, her Urologist and her Gen doctor said that it was best to wait at home, do some exams, find the bacteria and deal with it with antibiotics. And we followed that for about a month and a half. A MONTH AND A HALF. She's had this infection pretty much since her surgery, festering inside her and creating colonies. And I mean. I KNOW that they were thinking about her health, you know? I know that, my sister knows that and my MOM knows that. But this bacteria? She is nothing to play around with and she's resistant to the antibiotics her doctor was telling her to take. S u r p r i s e!

This bacteria, Klebsiella Pneumoniae, can only be treated at a hospital because is just THAT aggressive, and it was making my mom's blood pressure to be very unstable. Last night, they gave her 3 bags of Sodium Chloride and her blood pressure was still not going up, as well as throwing in there some medicine to raise it, but nothing was working. Her doctor decided to send her to the ICU so she could be thoroughly monitored until her blood pressure was up again.

Yesterday, my mom was this close to a sceptic shock. Today, she was awake and alert, but now her blood pressure is too high. Her doctor told me that they had to put a catheter on her jugular to know how to handle this because if her blood pressure continued to go down, her organs could start failing and her body could shut down.

My mom has gone through 9 surgeries, the last one took a tumor out of her spine, she's still in the recovery process part, she's undergoing physical therapy to walk again. She's got out of the OR after 12 hours of surgery on her spine, I'm not letting a urine infection take her away. I have no idea what i'm gonna do, but that's where I stand on.

TL;DR: my mom has an agressive urine infection and we didn't go to the hospital because her doctors told us not to. Now she's in the ICU and her body could shut down if they're not able to stabilize her blood pressure.