#ancharov

[ifyouwerethedevil]

“If we really were in love you wouldn’t have missed” hits harder when you remember that goncharov shot andrey after he made him promise to if they got caught back in their younger days. Goncharov looking into his eyes and shooting him, not knowing if he’d live, was his way of saying I love you in the only way he knew how.

Comparatively, andrey killing both himself and goncharov at the end, after everything that they’d been through, was his way of finally saying “I love you too”

Just like andrey said, “death is the ultimate form of devotion”

[goncharov-incorrect-quotes]

Andrey late to the Mafia meeting: Sorry I was late I was doing stuff

Goncharov walking in after him: I’m stuff

Katya:

[incorrect-goncharov-quotes]

Goncharov: I think we should kiss. Andrey: And I think you should die but we don’t always get what we want.

[universalsatan]

a god in his mind

"there's a bubble in time—sometime past the near-death by a train—that may only exist within the most covert memories of two men, drowned by their own misguided betrayal. (extended bit after the train scene)."

goncharov/andrey, 770 words, not rated but there's not really any violence or otherwise explicit content.

“Were you trying to kill yourself, you fucking coward?”

There’s no more bite left to Andrey’s words, only a soft puff of breath that whispers against the bristles that line Goncharov’s mouth: Goncharov caught a glance of Andrey’s expression as the air had been knocked from his chest—an ounce of panic, an ounce of weakness to which the traitor would never admit—but any anger that remained sapped away from Andrey’s body as they lay chest-to-chest, the steam train whirring past their heels like a roaring current. Their breaths had slowed—synched, perhaps distantly longing to be the same entity—but not once had Andrey’s gaze strayed to the piercing stare of the man—only a man, perhaps nothing more—beneath him, fixated stubbornly on the darkness at their side.

“Look me in the eye, and then call me a coward.”

continuing reading on ao3

[metale--deidara]

Okay, but that moment, that flashback in Goncharov (1973) when Andrei tells Goncharov that he’s sure now he was born to be his match? Poetic, Fantastic. And makes the ending even more heartbreaking.

Now I understand where Hideaki Anno took the inspo for Evangelion Episode 24. Adrei and Goncharov were the blueprint, Man... just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.