I just had a realization that parents are like 4 years olds.
When I was 4 I made watercolor paintings. I had a grand idea in my head of what it could be and what it would look like, however I usually accidentally chose the wrong color at one point and ruined the whole thing. Plus I had no concept of how watercolors work, but I did it anyway because I was given a paint brush and a piece of paper, and what else was I supposed to do?
Anyway the paintings turned out to be crap, like absolutely shit, but I put time and effort into them even if I was well aware they were crap, so I showed them to my parents. My parents in turn ooh-ed and ahh-ed and pretended they weren't piece of shit paintings and hung them on the fridge. We all knew they weren't good, but it was an unspoken rule to pretend to be proud of them. And I certainly didn't care if someone had advice or a better way of working with watercolors, I didn't want criticism; I wanted the affirmation that I was a grand artíste - even if it was fake.
Anyway, the analogy translates that parents will show off their shitty children even when the whole world can see that the children are shitty and no one will say anything and the parents wont take criticism. Thank you for coming to my TEDtalk.
Hope County Gothic 2018- WEEK 1- PROJECT AT EDEN’S GATE
Word count: 1327
WARNING: Blood, dead animals, frogs, insects, rotting food, sickness/disease, starvation, scars and wounds, self-flagellation, child death, major character death, child abuse references, self harm
A Pharaoh once sat on high, his towering empire built by the hands of enslaved Israelites. But he defied the commandments of God, and his hubris was punished with pestilence, famine and death, wrought upon his lands through God’s messenger- a man he once called his brother.
Joseph Seed sits on high, his Project, his Eden inhabited by the unwilling, the unrepentant. And now God sends another messenger, one who trusts in and upholds the law, to warn the false prophet-
Let my people go.
Joseph Seed seeks to build a garden. An Eden where God’s chosen will be saved from the fury of an impending, catastrophic reckoning. With those he loves at his side- his brothers, Jacob and John, his sister Faith, his wife and infant daughter- he fabricated a devout and holy empire, claiming the people of Hope County for indoctrination into his ‘family’. He believes he is saving them. He believes he hears the voice of God.
He is mistaken, misguided by demons.
In a small town on the border of Joseph’s empire, a young police Deputy wanders through the lush Montana landscape, seeking solace and serenity. They had once been a part of Joseph’s family, enticed by his soothing words, his condemnations of government and society, his genuine care for the world’s ‘unfortunates’. But they had seen his true face. His lust for power. His hungry gaze. His serpent tongue.
They had fled.
And it is in that liminal forest that they hear the true voice of God, whispered first through low hanging branches, slipping gently through evergreen leaves, before alighting a bush and illuminating the glade with an opalescent flame.
God’s message is clear.
The people of Hope County must be freed from the clutches of the false prophet.
Under a star-ridden sky, silent in the early hours of the morning, the Deputy meets Joseph in his church and explains to the Father of God’s commandment.
Unwavering in his faith, Joseph simply replies:
‘God will not let you take them.’
The Deputy pleads, but to no avail. And so they deliver the first warning:
...I will strike the water...
The Henbane River, once blue and speckled with the green haze of Bliss, grows thick and stains slowly with crimson. John is holding a sinner below the surface of the water, seemingly cleansing him, but instead he watches in horror as his hands redden and the scent of bitter metal claws its way down his throat. The sinner in his firm grasp begins to thrash and, as John brings him back into the cool night air, he looks upon a man glossed with so thick a sheen of blood, that he wonders how he is not drowning.
...I will plague your whole country with frogs...
Soon, Faith collects flowers by the tainted river. The soles of her bare feet are slick with the blood that has begun to soak into the soil. It is not long until the wild lobelias she gathers are scattered along the grassy path where she fled, as frogs are spat from the river’s depths in their thousands.
...Smite the dust of the land, that it may become lice...
The prisoners in Jacob’s care, their clothes stained with the rotting juice from meat they devoured, are used to the bristle of the Judges’ fur and the itching of lice. But upon the Father’s third denial of freedom, they see their captors begin to scratch the skin from their scalps, bloody flesh under their fingernails, their bodies overrun with the gnawing of a hundred thousand tiny mouths.
...Pharaoh hardened his heart...
Upon the release of a swarm of flies, which in turn brought disease as they settled on the harvest, chewing their way into the stocks hidden deep within the bunkers, Joseph’s voice fills the Deputy’s radio frequency. His words are faint from the unceasing cacophony of wings. He asks that the Deputy cease the plagues. He promises freedom for the people of Hope County.
The land was cleansed of the infestation.
But still, the people were not free.
...the LORD will bring a terrible plague upon the livestock in the field...
The bulls in Holland Valley collapse in the untended grass, their ribs prominent as they starve where they lie. Ravenous cougars rip all but the prongs from the elk corpses on the hot tarmac road through the Whitetail Mountains. The meat is poisoned by sickness. It is not long before the wild cats also succumb.
... festering boils will break out on men...
Joseph dabs soothing ointment upon the sores on John’s back, where they nestle among his deep scars. They grow inflamed and fever racks his body, droplets beading across his brow as though he was newly baptised. He bandages Jacob’s arms, where the patchwork of vermilion welts have given way to a new shroud of bulging sores. The Father is kept awake through the humid night by the screams of his infant daughter, boils burning into her tiny face.
...The LORD sent thunder and hail...
The Angels in the fields were nothing more than dust now. Each was incinerated by a lightning strike that evaporated their milky eyes, before claiming their bodies entirely. The church in Fall’s End no longer had a steeple, the hail having shattered it down. The people of Hope County had heard it crumble. The bell had tolled endlessly as ice rained upon it, and had then fallen silent. The thunder had rocked the earth and reduced the mighty statue of the Father to rubble.
...they will devour what little you have left...
There are no longer pumpkins at Rae-Rae’s farm. No longer are the fields blotted with fleshy fruits, but instead, dark with locusts that even devour the metal fencing, the wood of an old dog house, the tarp that covers a rusted truck. Radio towers appear like pillars of black salt, writhing in the fading sunlight. Joseph hides with his family, still ignoring the Deputy’s pleas.
...darkness that can be felt...
Madness came with three days of darkness. The Seed family kneel before the altar, whipping the flesh from their backs, unable to comprehend why God would allow this false prophet to punish them, his chosen, when they have all suffered so much already. Many of their flock walk out of the compound, never to be seen again. The shadow is suffocating, the silence oppressive. Joseph knows no light can be found in sleep- they are all haunted with nightmares.
...loud wailing... worse than there has ever been or ever will be again...
Joseph doesn’t cry when his baby daughter suddenly pales in his arms, her skin and lips fading to a periwinkle blue, cold to the touch. He does not respond to his wife’s heavy sobbing as she clings to the swaddled child. He holds her hand, gently winding his rosary around her palm. He doesn’t cry when he hears John screaming at the hunched figure of his eldest brother, blistered hands gripping at Jacob’s well worn camo jacket and oddly peaceful face, in desperate hope that he might wake. He barely hears the wailing that rings through the compound, through the valley and the mountains. God’s chosen few, chosen no more.
Instead, he radios the Deputy. He speaks in a quiet voice. It is a voice that lingers in the hollow space somewhere between forlorn resignation and tempestuous rage.
And the people of Hope County are at last freed. Purged of Bliss, their scars and swollen tattoos bandaged, the Deputy walks with them through the gates, as the sun rises once more.
Joseph watches them go.
He sits alone in the ruins of his garden. His Eden. He waits for guidance, an echo of the Voice that had let him climb so high and then allowed his world to be torn apart around him.
He is met with silence.
It is the same aching silence he had known as a boy in the moments after his Father had finished beating him. Perhaps he was still there now, in that moment, resting on a porch in the heat of a Georgia summer. Perhaps he would indeed see the Red Sea part, in the form of a gash in his back where leather met skin.
Perhaps this was not his promised land.
And taking a knife in his malnourished fingers, he cuts into his tall forehead, a permanent reminder to his forsaken soul:
Exodus 7:17
“By this you will know that I am the Lord”.
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Bold quotations are from the Book of Exodus. Painting is The Great Day of His Wrath, by John Martin.
Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed! This is my first fanfic for this fandom- I haven’t actually written fanfiction for a few years, (at least, not written down, I write it in my head all the time hahaha) and I’ve been concentrating on my meta essays for FC5, so I apologise if I was a bit rusty!
Also, disclaimer: I’ve never actually read the Bible, and obviously this is a fictional interpretation, so there are almost definitely some inaccuracies, but I tried to research as best I could! I wasn’t sure whether the death of the first born applied to daughters as well as sons, or to adults who were firstborn, but I used both for the sake of story.
Finally, I unashamedly acknowledge that I was 100% inspired by the Prince of Egypt.
I want to finished this johnny/Dutch fanfiction so bad. BUT WRITING IS SO TAXING, ITS TAKING ME FOREVER TO TYPE THESE WORDS. Why can't I just know how to put my thoughts into words.
Listen, I know that when tragedy strikes people can sometimes do out of character things as they try to cope, but why FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING DOES IT ALWAYS END UP AS THE HUSBAND CHEATING ON THE WIFE HE LOVES VERY MUCH WITH GUYS!!!!!!
