Lather, rinse, re - oh fuck me.
Okay, so I’ve decided journaling in the morning should be a thing for me. Let’s see how long I can keep this up... ha.
So I left all my heavy textbook reading for yesterday. Day started out wonderfully; I played through all of Tempest with both hands, at about 1/4 speed - maybe less, it took like an hour to get through the whole thing. Did not realize that monster is 12 pages with the repeat. Whoo! Surprisingly, though my hands hurt like little whiny bitches after I played yesterday, they’re okay, today. I didn’t wake up clenching them (my jaw, yes, my hands, no), or needing lidocaine cream (though I am taking that with me today... Quick break to toss that into my school bag... and back)
Speaking of school bags, right - left all the heavy textbook reading for yesterday, and not too shortly after I finished pianoing, a headache started to set in. My eyes felt weird. I managed to read through one of my chapters for Statistics, but I didn’t even get to touch half of the reading for my other class, which I’m already freaking out about and a bit embarrassed - the professor is my faculty advisor, and he wrote me a beautiful recommendation letter for one of my practicum sites where he basically said he thinks I would do just as well in an ivy league environment as I am in this school. I mean, sometimes when I’m confident I like to think so, but really? The last thing I want to do is disappoint him. I hear he’s a tough professor - but thorough. Two of my professors appear to be nerds like me, and excited about their subject matter, and the other two I a) haven’t even met yet, and b) hear fantastic things about. I have hope...
I’m scared though. My headache yesterday got so bad I went out in zero-fuck windchill at 6:00pm to get ibuprofen, which I’m not supposed to even take because of my crohn’s, and come straight home. I managed to eat, but I was then so nauseated I was afraid to move, and fell asleep watching quiet South Park with an ice pack on top of my head.
I’m bringing ibuprofen with me, and I bought way more than I hope I ever need, but I’m now nervous about first day back. I know I can do this. I got through first semester with all A’s... This semester’s classes are actually - well, two of them are relevant (psychopathology and personality change, and evidence based practice), the third (statistics) is always relevant but should be particularly helpful this time around, but the fourth is probably a waste of my time.
I’m still a bit on vacation brain, having trouble remembering everything I need to do before I leave for classes today... but for now I’m packing up my computer and brain and starting with feeding the mewbles.