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Sometimes I question why I'm not interacting with the cats fandom, going into the tag, posting random thoughts, finishing those video essays I said I would, not watching the 98 film or any of the bootlegs I've acquired...and then I remember that someone in this fandom has been messaging people lies about me to get other fans to block me and every time I think about it I have an anxiety attack

#cats musical #only reason i knew is because i saw the message they sent someone else on my dashboard just before that person blocked me #and ever since it's been eating at me #god it's so stupid for me to be upset over this #like they're a random stranger on the internet #but the fact that i've been randomly blocked before in this fandom #and it's like...#who is this person and why are they so insistent on lying about me and hating me?#like i love cats and it's my favorite musical #but i hate that now i can barely interact with it without thinking of this shit #every time i do i just go...is this the day everyone in the fandom blocks me?#it's so fucking stupid and i hate my brain for worrying about it

Idk anything about Corvus but I'm assuming his jinki has something to do with the tattoo on his neck??? He's the only character I've seen so far that doesn't wear the blood choker. And his last name being Corvus....like....okay bro we get it. And it of course makes sense that there are crows everywhere because trash world obviously but he like. totally sees through their eyes right?

#my biggest reason for thinking that was during Zanka's backstory when he was in the well talking to enjin #and when he and riyo were walking away a crow had been on a roof nearby the entire time and then landed on the side #before watching Zanka climb out and flying away #and it's like...#........#and also like #there was also a crow in Amo's backstory watching her #and her mother told her that crows specifically were mean #like what is that #gachiakuta musings

nothing as disappointing as sitting down to read a big ole 100k fic with all your favorite tags just to realize three paragraphs in that it's badly written.

#I was saving this one for last #and it's like...#it's legible #but the mistakes are consistent enough to be distracting #I'm having to stop and scratch my head too much #I know I know fanfic is sharing at the potluck but sometimes people bring a dish to the potluck and it sucks #and that's when you come bitch about it on tumblr #and not in the comment section #it's undercooked ok!

i know i've been talking about my fic all day and i am so sorry to all of my mutuals but there is much more where that came from

#i love my fic hashtag my fic #anyway i'm setting a tentative goal to stick it out and write a really rough shitty draft by the end of june?#trying to get better at pacing myself #oh and also i have a goal for tonight which is to throw together an outline #the process for this one specifically has been chaotic #just when i think i've figured something out i come across a new idea that throws a huge wrench into things #originally the fic was mainly meant to be about paul #now i've thrown in a bunch of other characters too #and it's like...#6.5k words across various documents on my computer #plus lots more in my notebooks and notes app #downloading obsidian is both a blessing and a curse #but i digress #i just need to forge it all into something coherent

I once read a book where a character who had just one of everything - one fork, one plate, etc. - because he considered more than that just pointless stuff he'd eventually have to move told another that she made him want to have two plates, and that might be the most Dick and Donna vibes I've ever gotten out of anything not actually about Dick and Donna.

Well now I'm thinking about Dick buying two mugs and keeping one for himself and giving the other to Donna as a gift, but Dick's mug eventually burns along with the rest of Dick's apartment during the Blockbuster fiasco, so then after Donna dies and there's a funeral reception at her apartment, Dick finds the twin mug in Donna's kitchen, and he takes it up to the roof with him and cries.

Teen Titans/Outsiders Secret Files

#god that scene is so strong bc everything diana is saying clearly reflects dick's own thoughts and feelings #he feels responsible. he should've protected her. she was his sister. she was his soulmate.#and it KILLS me like nothing else that the other titans are inside talking to each other and remembering donna #but dick is ALONE and he chooses to be alone #and that isolation is so good in the sense that it reflects dick's belief that he shouldn't be on a team. he shouldn't be with family.#he should be alone because if he's alone then he can't be responsible for anyone else dying #and it's like...#after lilith and donna died--tim asked dick what they should do now #and dick swung away from tim and said ''i don't know. but whatever it is--i think we better do it alone.''#and fuuuuck. dc doesn't do a lot of things right but they sure as hell did This right #dick's darker/colder demeanor. his self-isolation. and all of it pointing toward lilith and donna's deaths #they made sure we knew that he was like this because of that one terrible day and it makes me insaneee #Dick Grayson #Donna Troy #the bestiiiies #anon

I think I have reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder

#my life gets so hard and desperately anxious in the summer like EVERYTHING I've ever been afraid of comes back to #bite me in the ass #and it's like...#every OTHER summer too. my own personal El Nino of anxiety 👍

Alh*itham & K*veh relationship analysis (spoilers below)

I said before that Alh*itham holds a level of "resentment" for K*veh, but what I really meant was "contempt." It's the contempt you feel when you're pushed past the point of sympathy and pity. You see someone you care about that's in a bad state, but the thing is that they're ALWAYS in a bad state due to nobody's fault but their own. They go from pitying to pathetic and pitiful.

This line isn't because Alh*itham literally refuses to do good deeds. It's because giving into K*veh's nagging would only serve to enable his guilty conscience. K*veh's guilt is what pushes him to clean and do things. One would think that helping K*veh would help ease his guilt and ease his stress, but all that does is put a bandaid on a gaping wound. What K*veh needs to learn is simply to stop. Learn he doesn't need to clean. He doesn't need to do the errands. He doesn't need to be "good." He doesn't need to give. He doesn't need to DO. He can just BE and that's okay.

But K*veh doesn't learn. He doesn't catch the hint. He doesn't change. Then the thought comes, "Why should I care about someone that doesn't want to get better?" And the next thought, "But unfortunately I DO care, so this whole situation irritates me even more." Alh*itham can ignore K*veh for the most part, but the times he gets too much, Alh*itham's irritation and contempt begins to seep in and he gets more biting.

It confuses me why people pair these two together because they are not what the other person needs. K*veh needs care. He needs love. He needs reassurance. Alh*itham needs independence. He needs low maintenance. He needs stability. As of right now, they only make the other worse.