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Writing, for some people, is meant to be a desert. For others, it's a laxative.

#rambles #you can look at it one way that deserts are meant to be enjoyed #but in a purely medicinal way laxatives are way powerful than deserts #the unfortunate thing about laxatives tho is that they're only pleasant to people that are constipated too #do you feel me?

I'm sorry, The Sword-Bearing Flower, but I shall continue to read Echineacea's name as Echidna. 😔😭😔😭😔😭😭

#rambles #it shall be my sin that i bear upon my chest

The secret to doing the interactive map when 100%ing a region in the Genshins is to turn on the mini puzzles option near the very top.

#rambles #trust moi #also bloaty floaties #you'd be surprised at how often they still add them in

I need to get back onto writing my ease of access posts.

#rambles #the next one is sumeru #i got up to cyno and gave up #don't have enough brainpower to examine dehya #actually thinking about it more she's not hard #mentally i pair her up with dunyarzad #automatic 1/5

Ngl it is really funny that—despite the fact I was codependent upon you, despite the fact that I needed you way more than you ever needed me, despite the fact that I was crazily in love with you, despite the fact that I wanted you so badly, desire the fact I would make life decisions based upon my ability to speak with you during the day, despite the fact that my wanting to be with you dictated every moment of my day—despite it all, I was the one that decided to leave what we had first.

#rambles #the thing is that when i really sat down and asked myself #who did i love more? you or myself?#i was the one that somehow against all odds ended up winning #and i think you resented me for that

The unfortunate fate of making ocs with someone and shipping them together is that, if unchecked, you'll go on to continue to make more ocs to chase that emotional high of discussing them in the first place.

#rambles #with my first rp partner we literally had over 100 ships HAHA #i think at one point five generations of a specific family #but it wasn't like make. indulge. then forget #we'd make up the most random ass aus to throw our ocs in to keep it funky fresh #and if we realized we hadn't discussed a pair in a while that'd be the next one to discuss #being friends with this person for so long is the reason why i didn't write fanfiction for like seven years straight

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The days I post a lot to Tumblr are the days I'm going particularly insane lmfao

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I took a pause on doing other work stuff the day after this was posted to work on writing again and somehow ever since then I've been feeling pretty normal despite not writing once this week.

#rambles #reblog #idk man is it hormones is it medication is it vibes is it the direction of the current idk #no more antsy-ness #i can focus again #no more dying need to do something #we just be chill #amazing how the brain just has its ups and downs #i literally didn't do anything different #except write for two days #last week thursday and friday

The people I want to write as the protagonist are never main character type of people. :')

#rambles #too lazy to elaborate gomen maybe tomorrow

L-Lowkey thinking of m-making a home server even though I don't like watch movies or tv shows or read books or take pictures or listen a whole bunch to music or

#rambles #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #once again the obsession strikes until i save up enough money to buy it orz #it's either gonna be that or buying myself an eink android tablet #or both #probably both #roiajgaopewijgaowpiejfaklsd;fjzldkfbnawiretkfhjaweioprfjewa #minimum like $1.3k for everything #@thelord give me strength to resist temptation onegaishimasu

I say I like happy endings, but at the same time hate concessions made endings. If there is a specific rule set in a story, I don't want to break it. If I have to have concessions made to make a happy ending, I'd rather it end sad.

#rambles #like that two-shot drabble i posted a few days ago #if the rule is that fate always wins fate will win #if in the original story it ends with the villainess poisoning the heroine and getting put to death for it so it will be #this will happen without fail no matter how much the villainess seems to have changed the story #if the rule is rejecting fate the protagonist will not end up with their soulmate no matter what #if the rule is that the character views love to be a shackle and a burden they will never get over it and accept it #when i was young once my father offered me ten dollars if i drank a shot of apple cider vinegar. i said no #then he raised it to twenty. then forty. then eighty #and each time i said no #eventually i ended up snapping at him. 'i said what i said and i said no!'#that's how i treat established rules in my stories #no concessions #rules are not made to be broken #this often causes me sooooooooooooooooooo many problems tho :')

There are certain writing styles that are the text version of jerking off and that's mine when I'm having fun.

#rambles #if you want a good example not to namedrop but the-m*dern-t*pewriter #i didn't read their novel but their short works are just so yummy to read #pleasing to the brain #like silk on freshly shaven legs #you can definitely tell they were feeling themselves when they were writing #the last sentence is always a mic drop in their works #i am definitely not as good as them #but sometimes it's like 👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽#this type of writing really suits short works but definitely not long #it functions on wringing in that tension tight and leaving you hanging onto every word #not to make it sexual but it's like edging you before letting you finally climax #i talk about presentation and control and that person is very good at it #that being said it's very much like a peacock #gaudy and elaborate style of writing #meant to catch eyes #hence why it's best for short works

I didn't like or interact with a single *1 post, fic, etc, so why is it clogging my for you page?

#rambles #slo i blame this on you #sorry tumblr but i have no interest in r*cing or r*cecars

Since nobody offered, fear not, I'll take one for the team and marry Pulonia. u//w//u

#rambles #i know you don't need to thank me

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kill la kill is one of those things where it's just like. yeah ok there's things to be said about the sexualization of high school girls and the rampant imagery of such a thing in otaku culture and that's probably not a good thing, i get it. i am not going to act like the show was made out of pure benevolent feminism either; there are a lot of bits where trigger very clearly tried to have their cake and eat it too, and while i don't think this is necessarily a bad thing because sexualized art and horny design is just as artistically valid as more strait-laced storytelling, i could not tell someone they're wrong for being made uncomfortable by all of the gratuitous ass shots of satsuki.

but if you change basically any single "problematic" facet of the show i just feel like all the intended themes don't work nearly as well. you can't make the characters not high-schoolers (the fascist imagery of japanese school uniforms is brought up by satsuki herself in the second episode) and you can't make senketsu and junketsu more modest (proud bodily autonomy and free-spirited nudity is thematic empowerment against the fascist antagonistic forces that want to garb themselves in clothing and only use sex as a nonconsensual means of humiliation and control). like it's so embarrassing to say "no dude you don't get it they look like that because of the story" but in kill la kill's case that's entirely it. they can't not look like that or else it's a completely different show thematically! ryuuko and satsuki are some of the best characters ever and are so refreshing for women in any sort of action fiction. please watch kill la kill.

#reblog #i don't watch anime very often and i don't know what possessed me to watch this one esp bc like.....#i can't stand fan service #but kill la kill man #i really enjoyed it #i unironically really enjoyed it #even with all the themes and symbolism it was also super cute #ryuuko and mako man

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The worst thing about honesty is that, when delivered properly, the gut reaction is trust.

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That being said though, I said what I did, but once you become aware of these kinds of people and realize you can't trust them, they become so fun. You know not to take anything they say seriously, so you can enjoy them as you are, no strings attached. They'll say whatever they say with their chest, and while you know deep down they would never stand behind it, you can enjoy vibing on their level.

#rambles #the thing with trust is that once you trust someone you create a bond with them #you trust them with yourself #and then are inevitably hurt when you realize that you didn't mean jack squat to them #but when you approach them with the knowledge to not take anything they say seriously they're such fun people #because as i said before honesty is unpredictable #you'll never know what'll come out of your mouth #and you can say the most heinous stuff and they'll either agree with you or they'll disagree without judging or getting mad #bc just like you they're just vibing #getting high off the vibes and having fun #they are a vampire using people to get high off of and so are you #you can say whatever the hell you want #you can flirt #you can tease #you can even return the favor and make them feel heard and cared for and wanted #in the end it's all a game that finishes once the night is done #imo use these people for all they're worth bc if you don't do it they'll do it to you #i mean we're all having fun here right?#and before you assume it i don't treat normal people like this i'm not a dick 😭😭

It's really hard when you enjoy trash and you're reading your trash having fun and then go to the comments to find like-minded people who enjoy trash too, but then it's all just haters who willingly walked into trash knowing it was trash from the cover art and synopsis and yet are like 10-50 chapters in with every chapter exuding a trash stench becoming worse by the minute and yet having the gall to spam comments on every single chapter acting surprised and morally outraged when the trash (unbelievably) becomes even more trashy

#rambles #otome isekai #i'm tired man #call me oscar the grouch but let me enjoy my trash in peace #yes some people like their male leads a piece of shit believe it or not #some people find the silky smoothness of a green flag ml boring af #reading sistervention and having people like 'WHY ARE THEY STILL NOT COMMUNICATING? WHY IS LIZ SO EVIL'#like have you not been reading this whole time they're all mentally ill af and codependent while also being extremely independent #why are you 100+ chapters into this story acting surprised about this?#but sometimes there are people with a high sense of justice and no amount of sympathy in them that don't know how to read #like mother's contract marriage people absolutely hating the hell out of ludia wanting her to die #as if she's not a complicated character that heavily regrets what she did and is trying to be better #as if you're ignoring the fact that what would make lyrica the happiest is not taking away her mother but like....m #her mother loving her back #idk man i acknowledge that the comments section is a public place that you can say whatever you want but like......#if you're going to purposefully give something a hate read keep your comments to yourself

Sometimes when I'm on reddit and I read about people who don't want to be in a relationship but sleep around to satisfy their needs, I can't help but wonder if stds were not as big of a problem as I thought they were.

#rambles #i don't mean this is a shaming way #you do what makes you happy #but i'm curious as to how you guys protect yourselves #like do you require the partner you're matching up with to bring his last std testing results?#or do you use condoms?#how do you vet if someone is safe to sleep with?

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