#andrew2002kin

[fictionkinfessions]

I miss the admins. I miss my chat. I miss the constant loops, the neverending trials. I miss being less of a person than I am now. I miss being programmed, simply being a robot. I just want to do my job again, but my current body is not nearly as perfectly built for speedrunning as I was. I don't want to start over my training again, not without the admins to guide me.

No one understands how terrible this feels for me and I don't know how to explain it. I don't think Assimilation would. Maybe other robots would get it, but I don't really know any other robots like me personally.

I feel so alone and aimless. I just want to speedrun again.

-AndreW2002 (collinlock16 / minecraft arg but the protagonist is a speedrunnner) (#🔥🎹)

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[fictionkinfessions]

Read a fanfiction that was so closely accurate to my canon that I was genuinely in shock. You're right, thinking about the fact I am a robot does make me spiral and feel weird! Yes, I couldn't control what I was doing a lot of the time! Yes, it was a constant struggle to stay in control of myself and not go complete my tasks! How did a random person get it all right like that?? /hypothetical

On a different note, the longing for Assimilation is so bad. A part of me wants to mod my minecraft, just so I can have The Horrors:tm: following me around again. Am I actually a coward when it comes to horror? Yes. Will I think about the idea anyway but never actually go through with it? Yes, probably.

-AndreW2002 (collinlock16 continuity / minecraft arg but the protagonist is a speedrunner) (#🔥🎹)

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